-pEiShi-
kEkEz...
Sunday, April 24, 2005
kEkEz... haaa.. ya know wat? just now, after Ep, we went for sean de farewell party mar. den they ( shou cheng, dean, sheryl, minhui and chun yan) bought me a pair of mickey and minnie for my last year belated b'day present~ lolz~ so cute!! they're so sweet... i mean the pair of lovers mickey and minnie. lolz~ well, din expect tat they will buy on the spot for me. cuz i was telling minhui when can i get my b'day present. and den they say they're buying me tat on the spot. kEkEz... thank you pals!! =D
so went to causeway point to have a farewell party for sean. at cwp cuz they want to *qian jiu* me. cuz i cant go home too late tonight. he's leaving tmr, and i cant go to send him off. *sad* den went to take neoprints. heheez... they are not badly taken. lolz~
sianz~ today went to collect the cake. den need to rush back to Ep, cuz i'm running late le. den when i was taking mrt... it was like so many ppl~ =( haaa... i was standing and leaning on the glass by the side of the door mar. then there was this guy, standing opposite me. lolz~ he so handsome... haa... =X and we were like looking at each other... lolz~ i know i shouldnt do tat, cuz i already got my prince charming le mar~ i must be devoted.!! lolz!~
wah~ the angry part came. I MET A PERVERT!!!! oh my god... i really dunno y i so suai one. i-lin and i were counting how many times did i met pervert before. 6 times!!! =X oh gosh! i-lin had 0 times and i guess minhui have like 2 times bah. really disgusting leh... he rubbed his private parts against me. intiatly i tot it's really very cramp, and like no space... cuz he came in at city hall last min. and there's really alot of ppl. dear... i really mean alot!! adn he put his hand over me to hold the metal bar. and den he was rubbing his tat part le. i was feeling very uneasy, and tats why i changed my position to not face him. but he just kept moving closer.
nxt stop. many ppl went down. so there's ALOT of space to move ard. but he din move away. still standing close to me. dOtz~ cuz i was holding the cake mar... so i use the cake box to seperate me and tat pervert. and i guess i hit his *xiao ji ji* quite alot of times. lolz~ and i was looking like someone owed me a million bucks. i guess i really look very fierce. think no one have ever seen me with tat kinda face bah... not even minhui and i-lin. let alone sa, jiahui, chiu, peimin they all....
haiz~ dun ever let me see him again. cant tell my mummy about it. cuz she sure will say me stupid de. y dun want to shout in the train. and cheng han told me to go make a police report about tat. but no evidence how?? haiz~ i'm really very disappointed with this kinda thing. are all *uncle* sOoOoOoOo disgusting?? haiz~ disappointed... mayb i should join mh's cousin de *laO gu pO ju lE bu* lolz~ yea~ can consider.... lolz~
-pEiShi-
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so went to causeway point to have a farewell party for sean. at cwp cuz they want to *qian jiu* me. cuz i cant go home too late tonight. he's leaving tmr, and i cant go to send him off. *sad* den went to take neoprints. heheez... they are not badly taken. lolz~
sianz~ today went to collect the cake. den need to rush back to Ep, cuz i'm running late le. den when i was taking mrt... it was like so many ppl~ =( haaa... i was standing and leaning on the glass by the side of the door mar. then there was this guy, standing opposite me. lolz~ he so handsome... haa... =X and we were like looking at each other... lolz~ i know i shouldnt do tat, cuz i already got my prince charming le mar~ i must be devoted.!! lolz!~
wah~ the angry part came. I MET A PERVERT!!!! oh my god... i really dunno y i so suai one. i-lin and i were counting how many times did i met pervert before. 6 times!!! =X oh gosh! i-lin had 0 times and i guess minhui have like 2 times bah. really disgusting leh... he rubbed his private parts against me. intiatly i tot it's really very cramp, and like no space... cuz he came in at city hall last min. and there's really alot of ppl. dear... i really mean alot!! adn he put his hand over me to hold the metal bar. and den he was rubbing his tat part le. i was feeling very uneasy, and tats why i changed my position to not face him. but he just kept moving closer.
nxt stop. many ppl went down. so there's ALOT of space to move ard. but he din move away. still standing close to me. dOtz~ cuz i was holding the cake mar... so i use the cake box to seperate me and tat pervert. and i guess i hit his *xiao ji ji* quite alot of times. lolz~ and i was looking like someone owed me a million bucks. i guess i really look very fierce. think no one have ever seen me with tat kinda face bah... not even minhui and i-lin. let alone sa, jiahui, chiu, peimin they all....
haiz~ dun ever let me see him again. cant tell my mummy about it. cuz she sure will say me stupid de. y dun want to shout in the train. and cheng han told me to go make a police report about tat. but no evidence how?? haiz~ i'm really very disappointed with this kinda thing. are all *uncle* sOoOoOoOo disgusting?? haiz~ disappointed... mayb i should join mh's cousin de *laO gu pO ju lE bu* lolz~ yea~ can consider.... lolz~
-pEiShi-
OH MY GOD~!!!
gOsh... dEar diary, just let me vanish from the surface of this world. i have no guts to face jason le. it's soOoOoOoOooo embarrassing!!! =X
it's like.. haiz~ nothing i say can describe how i feel rite now. so helpless... *givE up*
wat actually happened is tat i'm supposed to post this 'i lOvE yOu' poem into the friendster bulletin:
well... you see... it's such a mushy mushy poem... declaring my love... gosh... worst is tat i dunno how it ended up in his friendster inbox. can go bang the wall and die on the spot le~ haiz~ dunno how to face him. den he still ask me how i am doing now. really dunno how to explain to him. haiz~ imagining if someone send me this. i mean it might be touching... but... i will tink tat the person like me very very much. but i dun tink so for him. you understand wat i mean?!!
den yesterday com suddenly not working. just when i'm about to send the explanation to him. den now dunno if he got receive it anot~ sighz~
and... am i too *ji duan*, i mean extreme to *** cuz i blocked him. haiz~ i really dunno.
-pEiShi-
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it's like.. haiz~ nothing i say can describe how i feel rite now. so helpless... *givE up*
wat actually happened is tat i'm supposed to post this 'i lOvE yOu' poem into the friendster bulletin:
"I cant be in love,
I cant be happy,
I cant stand myself,"
Thats what i used to say.
But now i know,
it wasnt true.
Ever since i met you,
my dreams are fufilled with love and happiness.
i may not know you,
that well,
I know i havent met you,
but i cant stop thinking of you.
I dont mind what you look like,
What you dress like,
or even how you act,
as long as you love me i will love you too,
And thats all you need in life.
Just to suceed with you,
Would be enough for me,
I dont know if i am strange,
to write this to you,
I guess i was too scared to tell you.
I guess or i suppose
no one has ever done this for you before,
But change is everything,
not only to me,
but maybe to you too.
I wish sometimes,
you would hold me tight,
though you may not know me.
It's strange for me to feel this way
when i know nothing about you.
you might not have such a
good impression of me,
since you heard about my past.
sometimes i want to call you up,
but i dont have the nerve,
i wouldnt know what to say,
I cant say i hope you feel the same,
Cause you know nothing about me.
Sometimes when i cant sleep,
i sit up and wonder what you are doing,
or what you look like,
Or even what it would be like
to feel you close to me.
you might think i'm obsessed,
I'm not.
Thought i might let you know,
i may love you so,
i would like you to love me so.
maybe it will be so one day,
i hope so!
I cant be happy,
I cant stand myself,"
Thats what i used to say.
But now i know,
it wasnt true.
Ever since i met you,
my dreams are fufilled with love and happiness.
i may not know you,
that well,
I know i havent met you,
but i cant stop thinking of you.
I dont mind what you look like,
What you dress like,
or even how you act,
as long as you love me i will love you too,
And thats all you need in life.
Just to suceed with you,
Would be enough for me,
I dont know if i am strange,
to write this to you,
I guess i was too scared to tell you.
I guess or i suppose
no one has ever done this for you before,
But change is everything,
not only to me,
but maybe to you too.
I wish sometimes,
you would hold me tight,
though you may not know me.
It's strange for me to feel this way
when i know nothing about you.
you might not have such a
good impression of me,
since you heard about my past.
sometimes i want to call you up,
but i dont have the nerve,
i wouldnt know what to say,
I cant say i hope you feel the same,
Cause you know nothing about me.
Sometimes when i cant sleep,
i sit up and wonder what you are doing,
or what you look like,
Or even what it would be like
to feel you close to me.
you might think i'm obsessed,
I'm not.
Thought i might let you know,
i may love you so,
i would like you to love me so.
maybe it will be so one day,
i hope so!
well... you see... it's such a mushy mushy poem... declaring my love... gosh... worst is tat i dunno how it ended up in his friendster inbox. can go bang the wall and die on the spot le~ haiz~ dunno how to face him. den he still ask me how i am doing now. really dunno how to explain to him. haiz~ imagining if someone send me this. i mean it might be touching... but... i will tink tat the person like me very very much. but i dun tink so for him. you understand wat i mean?!!
den yesterday com suddenly not working. just when i'm about to send the explanation to him. den now dunno if he got receive it anot~ sighz~
and... am i too *ji duan*, i mean extreme to *** cuz i blocked him. haiz~ i really dunno.
-pEiShi-
lalalala~
Saturday, April 23, 2005
hi~ hEhEEz.. yEstErday althOugh nEvEr wOrk... but OsO nEvEr pOst any blOg. =P haa... been playing the onlinE pOOl gamE for the whole day. haaa... tink i'm addicted lE~ =X den yesterday me and chun yan played mar~ but both of us aint concentrating, tats why in the end i sent songs to her. lOlz~ and wilber and cheng han say want to play pool with me last night... but in the end. lolz~ =X
aiyO~ tink i've been saying alot about *lOlz*, *dOtz* and use alot of ~ oso... haaa... (^-^)
anyway... i just put some cute pics in my frendster... haaa~ my toddler's pic... wuahahaaa...
took out all the old chinese cds tat i had in my shelves... listening to sun yan zi *wO dE ai* and luO zi xiang's songs... lolz~
i'm in love with the song *i finally found someone* it's so nice~ =)
anyway... haa... hardworking oso will get said by lu xin. haa.. is he's lazy okie~ lolz~ just jking lar~ =P
yesterday had a very weird dream... haaa... dreamt of my prince charming bringing me around the school, and tour in ech sch. lolz~ impossible man! den the place like somehow haunted. haaa... more like a nightmare den a dream. but good wat, cuz they say reality is always different from wat you dream of. haaa... so my time in ech will be like *wOw*~ lolz~
today is melissa n amos's birthday. happiE birthday to them!! kEkEz~ (!_!)V
haiz~ sean is going to aust. i mean although not going for good, but it's like at least a 5 yrs! den yesterday talked over the phone with him. cried lor.. =X had 2 of my best frends going to aust this year. yea~ i dislike aust. i HATE aust!! haiz~ dspite tis i still cant say anything rite? cuz it's his dream mar~ cannot stop him from doing anything tat he likes rite?? just hope tat he's fine there. and he promised me he's coming back after 5 yrs. and he told me not to change hp number... haa... =X i'm going to miss him~ *sObz* !(>_<)!
nothing to write le~ pen off~
-pEiShi-
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aiyO~ tink i've been saying alot about *lOlz*, *dOtz* and use alot of ~ oso... haaa... (^-^)
anyway... i just put some cute pics in my frendster... haaa~ my toddler's pic... wuahahaaa...
took out all the old chinese cds tat i had in my shelves... listening to sun yan zi *wO dE ai* and luO zi xiang's songs... lolz~
i'm in love with the song *i finally found someone* it's so nice~ =)
anyway... haa... hardworking oso will get said by lu xin. haa.. is he's lazy okie~ lolz~ just jking lar~ =P
yesterday had a very weird dream... haaa... dreamt of my prince charming bringing me around the school, and tour in ech sch. lolz~ impossible man! den the place like somehow haunted. haaa... more like a nightmare den a dream. but good wat, cuz they say reality is always different from wat you dream of. haaa... so my time in ech will be like *wOw*~ lolz~
today is melissa n amos's birthday. happiE birthday to them!! kEkEz~ (!_!)V
haiz~ sean is going to aust. i mean although not going for good, but it's like at least a 5 yrs! den yesterday talked over the phone with him. cried lor.. =X had 2 of my best frends going to aust this year. yea~ i dislike aust. i HATE aust!! haiz~ dspite tis i still cant say anything rite? cuz it's his dream mar~ cannot stop him from doing anything tat he likes rite?? just hope tat he's fine there. and he promised me he's coming back after 5 yrs. and he told me not to change hp number... haa... =X i'm going to miss him~ *sObz* !(>_<)!
nothing to write le~ pen off~
-pEiShi-
sh*t him...
Thursday, April 21, 2005
haiz~ sh*t man~ guess i should have block him rite from the start. i din want to talk to him. never~ i just want to move on with my life, and carry on from where i've stopped. why is he coming back to haunt me again? izznt once enough? at least it's enough for me. really. i didnt want to listen to any news of him. wats the use of telling me he's not in the good mood and just came back from Australia.. go there alone, and come back alone?? NO POINT RITE?? wat for making the two of us miserable?? why is he talking to me!!!!! being nice of me... i din want to block him. but he forced him. i'm sorry~
-pEiShi-
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-pEiShi-
innocent
haiz~ it just dun make sense. i mean i dunno why i'm feeling soOoOoOoo blue, even after i got into ech. i should be very happy rite?? haiz~ diary diary~ tell me wat happen to me. is there a some kinda machine to tell me why i am feeling like this? i really very lost today. went to work, den applied half day leave.
haiz~ today in office... they somehow quarrelling. cuz they dun have a standard filing system. den each of them dunno how each other wants to file. dis ish the second time they arguing over dis le. haiz~ really dunno~ frustrated cuz it somehow involves me, cuz i'm supposed to do the filing mar. just hope yan yi will be back asap. if not, i dunno how long i can hold on. *tirEd* tink mayb only if i leave the job, i'll be able to find 'happiness'... =X just feel tat i'm like stuck in there... caged.. cant fly out... haiz~ i tink if im going to find jobs in the future, must find those everyday got different things happen one... like kids.. cuz you'll nv know wat they'll do the nxt minute when you'r not watching them... =) tats the other reason as in why i didnt choose logistic mgmt in the end. and i want to find back the innocent tat only the kids have. everything has been complicated after we've grown up. there's something in my heart tat is tearing me apart. i just feel terrible. wat should i do?
actually wanted to call chunyan to come to my house. but haiz~ didnt in the end. cuz decided tat i wun feel like talking. so didnt ask her come in the end.
guess i'll just end here. dun feel like writing anymore. sigh~
-pEiShi-
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haiz~ today in office... they somehow quarrelling. cuz they dun have a standard filing system. den each of them dunno how each other wants to file. dis ish the second time they arguing over dis le. haiz~ really dunno~ frustrated cuz it somehow involves me, cuz i'm supposed to do the filing mar. just hope yan yi will be back asap. if not, i dunno how long i can hold on. *tirEd* tink mayb only if i leave the job, i'll be able to find 'happiness'... =X just feel tat i'm like stuck in there... caged.. cant fly out... haiz~ i tink if im going to find jobs in the future, must find those everyday got different things happen one... like kids.. cuz you'll nv know wat they'll do the nxt minute when you'r not watching them... =) tats the other reason as in why i didnt choose logistic mgmt in the end. and i want to find back the innocent tat only the kids have. everything has been complicated after we've grown up. there's something in my heart tat is tearing me apart. i just feel terrible. wat should i do?
actually wanted to call chunyan to come to my house. but haiz~ didnt in the end. cuz decided tat i wun feel like talking. so didnt ask her come in the end.
guess i'll just end here. dun feel like writing anymore. sigh~
-pEiShi-
wOw~
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
wOw~ haa... i'm supposed to be working rite nOw but yet i'm online! haa.. better dun let chua knows about it. cuz if not i guess he's really gonna sack mE! haa... den i'll have nO jOb! and no job means no $$$!!! haa... sianz... now in the office.. and bOss is not around. tats why can chit-chat with my colleague. about giving birth, PMS and all kinda stuff! haa... sianz~
hmmm... yesterday got conf. but it seems tat no one could take out some of their time to chit-chat and gossip for awhile. not tat i pro gossiping... but it's like somehow our small little gathering instead of those the gathering tat we wanted face to face... i mean as in go out to play. *mEi yu rOu yE haO ma* but... haiz~ minhui sick... got to see doc.. i-lin got to be good kid at home.. so cant talk on the phone cuz her mummy at home. den wilber got to do his maths sum, if not the teacher's going to kill him the nxt day. finally, marg got to talk to her frend nxt line. haiz~ den yesterday only left me, chenghan and chunyan. haa.. we talked about who we consider is a *shuai gE* =) but gotta slp early last night, cuz too tired and cannot open up the eyes le... sO went zzZzzZZZz at 11+ le... haa...
wah~ today miss minhui sent me a msg tat gave me a BIG shock~ really... she dreamt tat me n *** stead le. den ask me to tell her the truth. haa... pls lor... dream will always be a dream. cuz they say reality will always be the opposite of dream rite?? haaz... =X haiz~
anyway... just feel very sianz... and i've really decided tat i will go for ECH le.. but yet to tell everyone. cuz i'm supposed to announce it last night over the conf. but no one is there... rem?? haa... =X
-pEiShi-
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hmmm... yesterday got conf. but it seems tat no one could take out some of their time to chit-chat and gossip for awhile. not tat i pro gossiping... but it's like somehow our small little gathering instead of those the gathering tat we wanted face to face... i mean as in go out to play. *mEi yu rOu yE haO ma* but... haiz~ minhui sick... got to see doc.. i-lin got to be good kid at home.. so cant talk on the phone cuz her mummy at home. den wilber got to do his maths sum, if not the teacher's going to kill him the nxt day. finally, marg got to talk to her frend nxt line. haiz~ den yesterday only left me, chenghan and chunyan. haa.. we talked about who we consider is a *shuai gE* =) but gotta slp early last night, cuz too tired and cannot open up the eyes le... sO went zzZzzZZZz at 11+ le... haa...
wah~ today miss minhui sent me a msg tat gave me a BIG shock~ really... she dreamt tat me n *** stead le. den ask me to tell her the truth. haa... pls lor... dream will always be a dream. cuz they say reality will always be the opposite of dream rite?? haaz... =X haiz~
anyway... just feel very sianz... and i've really decided tat i will go for ECH le.. but yet to tell everyone. cuz i'm supposed to announce it last night over the conf. but no one is there... rem?? haa... =X
-pEiShi-
i'm On fOr it....
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
hi all?? haa... just a little something to annouce... haa... i'm going for ECH!!! haa... i've decided~!! and will go for it... *it doesnt sound convincing leh* haiz~ but no matter wat... tink i'm just going to get through and go for it lor... no matter wat!! haa... and i'm going to *wan chEng* my children psychology's *xin yuAn*!! i will!! haa... =X
*~nEvEr lEt thE fEar of striking Out gEt in yOur wAy~*
-pEiShi-
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*~nEvEr lEt thE fEar of striking Out gEt in yOur wAy~*
-pEiShi-
i'm sO lOst~
Monday, April 18, 2005
i guess i'm becoming a crybaby le... haa... cuz today cried again. today really dunno is unlucky or *fan tai sui* do anything oso cannot. today damn tired... cuz last week everyday wake up at ard 7 sleep at 3 or 4. how to survive?? haa... so today woke up at 10... really cannot take it le... head like going to burst le liddat. so went to eat breakfast. haa.. so *nan dE*
so after eating breakfast... went to read books. i actually finished 2 books in a day~ wOw~ haa... den decided to nap for awhile. but like after 5 mins, my mum wake me up, and scold me for sleeping away the whole day. =X so i wake up lor. go and eat a hotdog oso will get scold one leh... =X *frustrated*
*ring ring* the phone rang. haa.. *sure kana scolded by mrs ram if i write this in my compo* anyway... haa... np ppl called!! den say i'm successful in appealing into early childhood. afraid tat i dint hear properly, i ask them to repeat... haa... so lame rite?? haaa... den they ask me to wait for the package again lor. my mummy asked:"np called ar?? why they called in sunday one? they bluff you izzit?" wah~ spirit dampened le... sian diao lor.... haiz~
so i msg-ed ppl to ask for their opinions. i-lin, chun yan and cheng han say go... but wilber and sean say dun go... and minhui say decide myself... so... i'm lost... gOsh... help!!!
den when to watch tv. watch the *ba li liAn rEn* superr niceeee man! haa.. really~ den there's this bian tai who call me... dun even know who's tat. called himself eric. den say want to make frend withme. the most surprise thing is tat he knows my name. so i curious le lor... ask him how he know my number. den he said from a frend's frend... shit him lar... wat an answer... =X den he ask me to meet him tmr... due to wat i rem~ mummy say cannot anyhow go meet stranger~ haa... so i rejected him lor. he tried to convince me... but i keep saying no all the way. den he say he'll bring my frend along... i mean the one who gave him my no. tat attracts me.. cuz wanna know who gif him my no. but dun want lar.... haa...
in the end... he keep talking about s*x... so angry~ >_<>
haiz~ anyway... i called i-lin and cried... cuz really coped up and stressed out these few days... cannot take it anymore. i tink tats the second time tat she heard me cry, after nearly 2 yrs of best frends... haaa.... haiz~
haa... btw... forgot about this... yesterday... i mean sat, me and minhui went back to home after volunteery work. haa.. den as we were doing our own things on the train, there was this bunch of ppl, den one of the guy sat down beside minhui. then i tink he's very tired, and started to slp. haa... as he slpt, he moved closer and closer to minhui.!! haa.. he almost practically had his whole body one minhui!! wuahahaaa... minhui's *yan yU* haaa... =X den i was laughing like hEll man! =X it's really very funny. he was moving slowly, an inch each time, until his head on minhui's shoulder... =X
so tats all! bothered by ECH thingy.
haiz~ i'm just so lost~
-pEiShi-
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so after eating breakfast... went to read books. i actually finished 2 books in a day~ wOw~ haa... den decided to nap for awhile. but like after 5 mins, my mum wake me up, and scold me for sleeping away the whole day. =X so i wake up lor. go and eat a hotdog oso will get scold one leh... =X *frustrated*
*ring ring* the phone rang. haa.. *sure kana scolded by mrs ram if i write this in my compo* anyway... haa... np ppl called!! den say i'm successful in appealing into early childhood. afraid tat i dint hear properly, i ask them to repeat... haa... so lame rite?? haaa... den they ask me to wait for the package again lor. my mummy asked:"np called ar?? why they called in sunday one? they bluff you izzit?" wah~ spirit dampened le... sian diao lor.... haiz~
so i msg-ed ppl to ask for their opinions. i-lin, chun yan and cheng han say go... but wilber and sean say dun go... and minhui say decide myself... so... i'm lost... gOsh... help!!!
den when to watch tv. watch the *ba li liAn rEn* superr niceeee man! haa.. really~ den there's this bian tai who call me... dun even know who's tat. called himself eric. den say want to make frend withme. the most surprise thing is tat he knows my name. so i curious le lor... ask him how he know my number. den he said from a frend's frend... shit him lar... wat an answer... =X den he ask me to meet him tmr... due to wat i rem~ mummy say cannot anyhow go meet stranger~ haa... so i rejected him lor. he tried to convince me... but i keep saying no all the way. den he say he'll bring my frend along... i mean the one who gave him my no. tat attracts me.. cuz wanna know who gif him my no. but dun want lar.... haa...
in the end... he keep talking about s*x... so angry~ >_<>
haiz~ anyway... i called i-lin and cried... cuz really coped up and stressed out these few days... cannot take it anymore. i tink tats the second time tat she heard me cry, after nearly 2 yrs of best frends... haaa.... haiz~
haa... btw... forgot about this... yesterday... i mean sat, me and minhui went back to home after volunteery work. haa.. den as we were doing our own things on the train, there was this bunch of ppl, den one of the guy sat down beside minhui. then i tink he's very tired, and started to slp. haa... as he slpt, he moved closer and closer to minhui.!! haa.. he almost practically had his whole body one minhui!! wuahahaaa... minhui's *yan yU* haaa... =X den i was laughing like hEll man! =X it's really very funny. he was moving slowly, an inch each time, until his head on minhui's shoulder... =X
so tats all! bothered by ECH thingy.
haiz~ i'm just so lost~
-pEiShi-
bac tO kss...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
hmmm... today wake up at 7 early in the morning. haf not been slping well lately. slept at almost 3 yest but woke up at ard 7... hmmm... like 4 hrs difference? been like this the whole week. and didnt slp in the afternoon. haiz... feel like quitting my job. =X well, had my journey lyrics up on the blog today. it's a song tat i listened when i slept last night. erm... it mist my eyes. esp tat part:" sometimes it feels no one understands, i dun even know why i do the things i do. when pride builds me up till i cant see my soul, will you break down these walls and pull me thru'?" sometimes when i tried to find someone to talk to... about my sorrow, it's just tat i... dun really can find someone to talk about it. but i guess a part of me dun really want to tell others about me too. =X
=) thanz to wilber, i got my english love songs. he told me he filled up all the space in my cd, there's a total of 160 songs! wOw~ haa.. tats great... can listen till siaox le... and all the songs are really~ wOw~ haa...!
many ppl have been sick lately... my bro, wilber, yan's bro... all like quite serious.. hope they're alrite now. so i guess the doc must be earning like siao~ haa... =X
anyway... guess mh and iL should b alrite now. =)
hey!! my main topic is going back to kss leh.... haaa... long-winded~
well... went back to *crunchy* (wilber teach one) today. haa... saw alot of teachers. hmmm... went into the school, it feels kind of familiar, but yet distant to me now. really missed the days there. just feel kinda sad for ms lEOng cuz her class really su*kz like h*ll... hmmm... her class really terrible... like not grown up yet, as in not acting like 15 yrs old. go hide the duster away. even ms ratna n tan bee leng oso *buai-ta-han* them. but i know ms leong can do it! cuz she did it to my class! =) yar... really... our class in the past... wah~ really *tabolei-tahan* de... haa... really missed those days! esp the ppl there... got sham n shaiful... sa, jiahui, zhen, peimin, chiu... n alot more... haiz... must go back one of these days again... =)
well... haa... got 3 teachers say me becoming more pretty le leh! haa~ got ms leong, ms Ong n mr cheng tee-tong. wuahaaa... =X den mr cheng say i got hour-glass figure le... haa... dun laugh okie!! *paisEh* (# '_' #)
so today went back... went to take pics of kenneth! haa... to *gEk* christ de. haa... actually he's rather nice looking and ish a good person lar... but he's too young for me!! haa... =X
anyway... have yet to buy twin's de cd and of cuz.. lin jun jie... =X poor me... broke le... den today forgot to bring $$ out. =X tmr going to do vol again! =)
-pEiShi-
...
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you to you
...
=) thanz to wilber, i got my english love songs. he told me he filled up all the space in my cd, there's a total of 160 songs! wOw~ haa.. tats great... can listen till siaox le... and all the songs are really~ wOw~ haa...!
many ppl have been sick lately... my bro, wilber, yan's bro... all like quite serious.. hope they're alrite now. so i guess the doc must be earning like siao~ haa... =X
anyway... guess mh and iL should b alrite now. =)
hey!! my main topic is going back to kss leh.... haaa... long-winded~
well... went back to *crunchy* (wilber teach one) today. haa... saw alot of teachers. hmmm... went into the school, it feels kind of familiar, but yet distant to me now. really missed the days there. just feel kinda sad for ms lEOng cuz her class really su*kz like h*ll... hmmm... her class really terrible... like not grown up yet, as in not acting like 15 yrs old. go hide the duster away. even ms ratna n tan bee leng oso *buai-ta-han* them. but i know ms leong can do it! cuz she did it to my class! =) yar... really... our class in the past... wah~ really *tabolei-tahan* de... haa... really missed those days! esp the ppl there... got sham n shaiful... sa, jiahui, zhen, peimin, chiu... n alot more... haiz... must go back one of these days again... =)
well... haa... got 3 teachers say me becoming more pretty le leh! haa~ got ms leong, ms Ong n mr cheng tee-tong. wuahaaa... =X den mr cheng say i got hour-glass figure le... haa... dun laugh okie!! *paisEh* (# '_' #)
so today went back... went to take pics of kenneth! haa... to *gEk* christ de. haa... actually he's rather nice looking and ish a good person lar... but he's too young for me!! haa... =X
anyway... have yet to buy twin's de cd and of cuz.. lin jun jie... =X poor me... broke le... den today forgot to bring $$ out. =X tmr going to do vol again! =)
-pEiShi-
Journey
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you to you
-pEiShi-
i didnt knOw...
Friday, April 15, 2005
how long did i cried? i didnt know. i hugged my bear and tinking tat it was the worst cry i had over these few years. after somehow settled wat wilber called the frendshit prob, the perlini guy i have yet to do anything about it. here comes my prince-charming, but i guess tat have to wait till most of my prob have been solved. he called it the 3 in 1 probs, but the 4th prob pops out- my dad.
hmmm... well well... i tink if i didnt quarrel with my dad, no.. i mean if my dad didnt quarrel with me, i guess i will still be able to hold on for sometime, as in not cry lar... yest my family was watching tv, and my dad was telling $300 to my mummmy, and he lifted up 3 fingers. but from the angle tat my mum was, she tot he was pointing the middle finger. and she said, "wah. you point middle finger at me ar. =X" den my dad quickly clarified himself and everyone was joking about it. well, the show ended. i switched the channel and my phone rang. got sms. so went to my room and get the phone, with my remote control with me. my dad asked me to pass him the remote control, but my elder bro ask me to pass him my i/c. of cuz, not wanting to go another round into my room again, i took my i/c first and gave it to my bro. here! my dad exploded. yesh... i will use tat word EXPLODE. haiz... and he just scold. and of cuz, i din know why did i reply him. i said i'm taking something to bro. and i dunno wat the h*** he was angry about. it's just a remote control izznt it?? den my mummy came outta the room, tot she will scold me for making my dad angry, but instead she scold my dad for putting up a fuss. *rEliEvEd* and he was like saying the kids already grown up, wun listen to him le. hello!! if we dun listen to you, we wun bother to talk to you anymore lor!! *-_-*
so i was there helping my mum to iron my 2 brothers' uniform for their sch tmr. *i'm gOOd ritE? =D* and sh*t. he said i'm slamming the iron. for heaven's sake! i didnt okie!! den he went to off my switch. @$*#%!&
haiz... still havent settled the perlini guy thingy. wanted to ask cindy to return the bracelet to tat *i-dunno-even-know-his-name* guy. but she refused to do so. and SEAN said it was a cheapo thingy - less then $15? haa... and say no need to return... y all the guys say no need to return but the girls say need to?? hmmm... i tink tats the difference of the two gender... haa...
wOw... so the frendshit thing *hahaa* finally settled. i mean for my side of knowing the *truth*. but yet to tell i-lin. not sure how are they now too. *gOd. i hope they're fine*
oh my prince charming... kEkEx... yest dreamt of him... (# '_' #) haa... but guess tat can wait till i tink wat i can do... but i guess i can do nothing much too... =X will i get to be like avril lavigne's 'my happy ending'??
gotta meet chun yan to go NP le... haa... been mixing with chun yan quite alot these few days. tink she's coming to my house later to use com. *wElcum*! haa... she's like... sOoOoOoOo lame... i mean her jokes. haaa... and we're going NP to see *shuai gE!!!* wuahahaaaa... and of cuz *mei nu* too... poor wilber, still stuck at his ij and cannot enjoy. =X oppz... i'm bad!! wuahahaaaa.... i'm running late!! =X
-pEiShi-
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hmmm... well well... i tink if i didnt quarrel with my dad, no.. i mean if my dad didnt quarrel with me, i guess i will still be able to hold on for sometime, as in not cry lar... yest my family was watching tv, and my dad was telling $300 to my mummmy, and he lifted up 3 fingers. but from the angle tat my mum was, she tot he was pointing the middle finger. and she said, "wah. you point middle finger at me ar. =X" den my dad quickly clarified himself and everyone was joking about it. well, the show ended. i switched the channel and my phone rang. got sms. so went to my room and get the phone, with my remote control with me. my dad asked me to pass him the remote control, but my elder bro ask me to pass him my i/c. of cuz, not wanting to go another round into my room again, i took my i/c first and gave it to my bro. here! my dad exploded. yesh... i will use tat word EXPLODE. haiz... and he just scold. and of cuz, i din know why did i reply him. i said i'm taking something to bro. and i dunno wat the h*** he was angry about. it's just a remote control izznt it?? den my mummy came outta the room, tot she will scold me for making my dad angry, but instead she scold my dad for putting up a fuss. *rEliEvEd* and he was like saying the kids already grown up, wun listen to him le. hello!! if we dun listen to you, we wun bother to talk to you anymore lor!! *-_-*
so i was there helping my mum to iron my 2 brothers' uniform for their sch tmr. *i'm gOOd ritE? =D* and sh*t. he said i'm slamming the iron. for heaven's sake! i didnt okie!! den he went to off my switch. @$*#%!&
haiz... still havent settled the perlini guy thingy. wanted to ask cindy to return the bracelet to tat *i-dunno-even-know-his-name* guy. but she refused to do so. and SEAN said it was a cheapo thingy - less then $15? haa... and say no need to return... y all the guys say no need to return but the girls say need to?? hmmm... i tink tats the difference of the two gender... haa...
wOw... so the frendshit thing *hahaa* finally settled. i mean for my side of knowing the *truth*. but yet to tell i-lin. not sure how are they now too. *gOd. i hope they're fine*
oh my prince charming... kEkEx... yest dreamt of him... (# '_' #) haa... but guess tat can wait till i tink wat i can do... but i guess i can do nothing much too... =X will i get to be like avril lavigne's 'my happy ending'??
gotta meet chun yan to go NP le... haa... been mixing with chun yan quite alot these few days. tink she's coming to my house later to use com. *wElcum*! haa... she's like... sOoOoOoOo lame... i mean her jokes. haaa... and we're going NP to see *shuai gE!!!* wuahahaaaa... and of cuz *mei nu* too... poor wilber, still stuck at his ij and cannot enjoy. =X oppz... i'm bad!! wuahahaaaa.... i'm running late!! =X
-pEiShi-
shOuld i rEturn the bracelet ?
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Well... it's 11.57am in the morning... and well.... had to go to NP for matriculation... so got to wake up in the early morning to get it done... bringing along tons of forms with me there... tot can come back empty-handed... but worst... got MORE forms to filled up instead... =X sianz... den still must go to a 4 days 3 night camp during 16 to 19 May... COMPULSORY some-more... =X
so i went with cindy to matriculate... saw Grace and Boli... and Yongling's bf too... he saw me and tap on me... *surprisEd* there's soOoOoOo many ppl there... got to queue up to hand in the forms... to register... den near the exit le... tot can go home le... but so many ppl stopped me to talk about the Freshman & Orientation camp... Sports camp and dunno wat arts camp ar... and there's a guy quite cute! haa... he talked to me about the Sports camp... standing sOoOoOo close to me... *Oppz* wuahahahaaa... =X so stand there and listen lor... and dunno how to reject oso... finally can go le, still must go see the notebook fair... =X but after the whole thing, cindy have to wait for yan xian... but i ran off very fast, cuz didnt want to see yanxian... i'm bad, arent i?? *_*
haa... today never go to work... poor adeline... got to work alone for 2 days... and tink this week might not b going to work cuz got to go back to NP tmr, and either thurs or fri to hand up the forms again... =X guess mr chua must feel like sacking me... cuz employ me like no need to work liddat. actually today wanted to go back to work after the matriculation thingy one... but coming to think of it... dun want lar... feel very bored oso... haa... so if not going to work... guess i wun be eating lunch too... cuz dun wanna eat alone outside and lazy to get my butt out of the house again... unless someone dates me... wuahahahaaaa... x_xV
anyway... the main thing of my entry goes like dis... i got to know cindy's gor... hmmm... actually i wun consider know oso lar... cuz only talk on cindy's phone for think like less than 10 mins?? den it was somehow near valentines' day, so he and cindy were like talking about valentines' present. and dunno how, when me and him was talking during tat 10 mins, we were continuing about the present. and he said he wanted to give me one. i tot he was joking, cuz we barely know each other... and i even called his name wrongly!! (#'_'#) *i'm not even sure if his name is... but searching through my mind... should be Gabriel or Gerald... if i'm not wrong. =X* i tot he just say say only, and so i joked back with him, saying i want perlini's silver de bracelet. but today, when i meet cindy, she passed me a Perlini's silver's box and said it was from her gor.. =X die le... felt very pai seh lor... cuz barely know her gor... but he still bought a bracelet for me... den got heart-shape some-more... (+_+) haiz... maybe should i return it... i feel so bad... mayb i should get his number and thanz him?? oh gosh!..! wat should i do??! *o*
talked to peimin over the phone for like 5 hrs during sunday night, till 4 am in the morning! =X haa... we really talked alot... about her bf and stuffs about me too... didnt know tat after such a long time of not meeting up, still can talk like before. and haa... to wat she told me about her and her bf (WeiFeng), they're sOoOoOoOo sweet and xin fu... haa... i oso want... when is my turn?? kEkEx... but wat she said is probably true, i keep denying about the someone i had in mind. i didnt want to give anyone a chance cuz i didnt want to open myself up to the others. she told me she could sense tat i like him, but i just didnt want to admit. i-lin told me about the same thing too. well... is tat true??
sigh... forgot to call minhui... got to do it tonight. must set reminders to remind myself. and finally no need to worry about the matriculation thingy, cuz only left with some touch-up to do.. go to the bank and get the thumb-print, fill up the camp form, ordering of laptop and paying up... wuahahaaa... (!_!)
hmmm... me seemed to be troubled over alot of things... really been very very stressed out and restless... why izzit so?? can i cry?? =X
-pEiShi-
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so i went with cindy to matriculate... saw Grace and Boli... and Yongling's bf too... he saw me and tap on me... *surprisEd* there's soOoOoOo many ppl there... got to queue up to hand in the forms... to register... den near the exit le... tot can go home le... but so many ppl stopped me to talk about the Freshman & Orientation camp... Sports camp and dunno wat arts camp ar... and there's a guy quite cute! haa... he talked to me about the Sports camp... standing sOoOoOo close to me... *Oppz* wuahahahaaa... =X so stand there and listen lor... and dunno how to reject oso... finally can go le, still must go see the notebook fair... =X but after the whole thing, cindy have to wait for yan xian... but i ran off very fast, cuz didnt want to see yanxian... i'm bad, arent i?? *_*
haa... today never go to work... poor adeline... got to work alone for 2 days... and tink this week might not b going to work cuz got to go back to NP tmr, and either thurs or fri to hand up the forms again... =X guess mr chua must feel like sacking me... cuz employ me like no need to work liddat. actually today wanted to go back to work after the matriculation thingy one... but coming to think of it... dun want lar... feel very bored oso... haa... so if not going to work... guess i wun be eating lunch too... cuz dun wanna eat alone outside and lazy to get my butt out of the house again... unless someone dates me... wuahahahaaaa... x_xV
anyway... the main thing of my entry goes like dis... i got to know cindy's gor... hmmm... actually i wun consider know oso lar... cuz only talk on cindy's phone for think like less than 10 mins?? den it was somehow near valentines' day, so he and cindy were like talking about valentines' present. and dunno how, when me and him was talking during tat 10 mins, we were continuing about the present. and he said he wanted to give me one. i tot he was joking, cuz we barely know each other... and i even called his name wrongly!! (#'_'#) *i'm not even sure if his name is... but searching through my mind... should be Gabriel or Gerald... if i'm not wrong. =X* i tot he just say say only, and so i joked back with him, saying i want perlini's silver de bracelet. but today, when i meet cindy, she passed me a Perlini's silver's box and said it was from her gor.. =X die le... felt very pai seh lor... cuz barely know her gor... but he still bought a bracelet for me... den got heart-shape some-more... (+_+) haiz... maybe should i return it... i feel so bad... mayb i should get his number and thanz him?? oh gosh!..! wat should i do??! *o*
talked to peimin over the phone for like 5 hrs during sunday night, till 4 am in the morning! =X haa... we really talked alot... about her bf and stuffs about me too... didnt know tat after such a long time of not meeting up, still can talk like before. and haa... to wat she told me about her and her bf (WeiFeng), they're sOoOoOoOo sweet and xin fu... haa... i oso want... when is my turn?? kEkEx... but wat she said is probably true, i keep denying about the someone i had in mind. i didnt want to give anyone a chance cuz i didnt want to open myself up to the others. she told me she could sense tat i like him, but i just didnt want to admit. i-lin told me about the same thing too. well... is tat true??
sigh... forgot to call minhui... got to do it tonight. must set reminders to remind myself. and finally no need to worry about the matriculation thingy, cuz only left with some touch-up to do.. go to the bank and get the thumb-print, fill up the camp form, ordering of laptop and paying up... wuahahaaa... (!_!)
hmmm... me seemed to be troubled over alot of things... really been very very stressed out and restless... why izzit so?? can i cry?? =X
-pEiShi-
(x_x)!
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
i'm sOoOoOoOoOo tirEd...
stupidly tiredd... super tiredd... ultra-tired... anyway... just about to die le.
didnt know tat it is sOoOoOoOo tired to start a blog... *swEar n cursE*
all the taggies.. links... profile... credits... music... entry... wah... =X can kill someone... is there any warm-hearted person can help me do?? wuahahaaa... cuz not contented with wat i have now... =X my mood suddenly... *whOsh*... drOppEd to the bOttom of the vallEy... =X
hmmm... so today went to POSB to get the cheque for the NP thingy... yEsh... haa... never go to work... so chunyan accompanied me go... so nice of her rite?? *she forced me to write this* =X so talking about the blog.. decided to start one... but guess you wun see me too often up here... cuz i'm LAZY!!! wuahahaaa.... so tmr going to NP le... but tink when i go there.. will be as lost as a sheep... dunno wat to do there... how to hand up the form... just hope tat there's someone accompany me there... wuahahaaaa... but tink impossible bah... everyone has a different date as mine... =X haa... and chunyan still stuck at NYP... wuahahahaa.... yEsh... going to buy a laptop too... =D
haiz... i-lin told me something crop up between she and minhui again... wat is happening to minhui lately?? started to give i-lin and christina some attitude here and there. no one knows wat happened to her. she didnt tell anyone, and just keep things to herself. wat's wrong??!! haiz... it seemed tat everyone is having a bad day again. just like before... when they just entered Pj. sigh... guess i need to find some time to talk to her. let's just hope tat we'll settle this once and for all... and den everything will go back to the original state again... but will tat be difficult? O_O?
so guess tats all le... really beat now.... no more energy to write le... hmmm... suddenly feel so stupid... nothing better to do go and start a blog... and minhui and i-lin thingy is making me crazy and troubled... can go kill myself le.... =X
leave your comments okie?? =X
-pEiShi-
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stupidly tiredd... super tiredd... ultra-tired... anyway... just about to die le.
didnt know tat it is sOoOoOoOo tired to start a blog... *swEar n cursE*
all the taggies.. links... profile... credits... music... entry... wah... =X can kill someone... is there any warm-hearted person can help me do?? wuahahaaa... cuz not contented with wat i have now... =X my mood suddenly... *whOsh*... drOppEd to the bOttom of the vallEy... =X
hmmm... so today went to POSB to get the cheque for the NP thingy... yEsh... haa... never go to work... so chunyan accompanied me go... so nice of her rite?? *she forced me to write this* =X so talking about the blog.. decided to start one... but guess you wun see me too often up here... cuz i'm LAZY!!! wuahahaaa.... so tmr going to NP le... but tink when i go there.. will be as lost as a sheep... dunno wat to do there... how to hand up the form... just hope tat there's someone accompany me there... wuahahaaaa... but tink impossible bah... everyone has a different date as mine... =X haa... and chunyan still stuck at NYP... wuahahahaa.... yEsh... going to buy a laptop too... =D
haiz... i-lin told me something crop up between she and minhui again... wat is happening to minhui lately?? started to give i-lin and christina some attitude here and there. no one knows wat happened to her. she didnt tell anyone, and just keep things to herself. wat's wrong??!! haiz... it seemed tat everyone is having a bad day again. just like before... when they just entered Pj. sigh... guess i need to find some time to talk to her. let's just hope tat we'll settle this once and for all... and den everything will go back to the original state again... but will tat be difficult? O_O?
so guess tats all le... really beat now.... no more energy to write le... hmmm... suddenly feel so stupid... nothing better to do go and start a blog... and minhui and i-lin thingy is making me crazy and troubled... can go kill myself le.... =X
leave your comments okie?? =X
-pEiShi-
