Well, I must say, she's really a angel-turned-demon. Mind you, 'turned' is in past tense. So she had already transformed.
I was reading a friend's last month's post and found out that she was emo-ing. Then I realised myself that I haven't been emo-ing for quite some time already. Well, I do feel a bit sad about some things, but at least it sounded good to me, no emo-ing, after staying at home for so long. (:
I guess maturity also comes in when talking about emotional feelings? Because maturity affects your thinking, which in turns affects how you behave, and then what you do will usually affects whether you feel good or not.
True?
Yeah, large extent.
...
I guess maturity also comes in when talking about emotional feelings? Because maturity affects your thinking, which in turns affects how you behave, and then what you do will usually affects whether you feel good or not.
True?
Yeah, large extent.
叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留?
倘若你爱上一个人，
千万别装作无所谓毫不在乎...
错过了，就没有了....
爱情，玩不起心理战的......
树篇
会叫树的原因，是因为我擅长画水彩画，最爱画树，久而久之，我的画作右下方索性以一棵树来代表我。
高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的智障，她的脆弱。
不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切的好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不用急着为了她而放弃一切。
最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。
她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她尴尬的笑笑说：“Go on！”然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得跟核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。
当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：“我有事要对你说。”她说：“真巧，我也有事要对你说。”“我和她分手了。”“我和他在一起了。”我知道“他”是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。
毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有去开过机。
“叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留?”
叶子篇
高中时，喜欢收集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树，好勇敢哩！
高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行，他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？
尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。
直到三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。
风篇
因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。
第一次看见她，是高二我转来一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长，每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯，就像她爱看他。
有一天她没来，我心中没来由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那学长竟然也不在。我冲去他们教室，躲在外面，看着学长骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去。
第二天，她依旧坐在场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。
隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。
“叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。”
“不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。”
我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话。
我知道她喜欢的不是我，但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃，我决定要的人，我就一定会给它追过来！
一直到不知道第几次的告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，没想到她都不说话。
“在干嘛？怎么不说话？”我对着话筒说。
“我在点头。”
“啊？”我不敢相信自己的耳朵。
“我在点头！”她大声叫。
我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她们家按门铃，当她开门的那一刹那，紧紧抱住她。
「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留?」
...
倘若你爱上一个人，
千万别装作无所谓毫不在乎...
错过了，就没有了....
爱情，玩不起心理战的......
树篇
会叫树的原因，是因为我擅长画水彩画，最爱画树，久而久之，我的画作右下方索性以一棵树来代表我。
高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的智障，她的脆弱。
不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切的好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不用急着为了她而放弃一切。
最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。
她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她尴尬的笑笑说：“Go on！”然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得跟核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。
当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：“我有事要对你说。”她说：“真巧，我也有事要对你说。”“我和她分手了。”“我和他在一起了。”我知道“他”是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。
毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有去开过机。
“叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留?”
叶子篇
高中时，喜欢收集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树，好勇敢哩！
高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行，他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？
尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。
直到三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。
风篇
因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。
第一次看见她，是高二我转来一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长，每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯，就像她爱看他。
有一天她没来，我心中没来由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那学长竟然也不在。我冲去他们教室，躲在外面，看着学长骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去。
第二天，她依旧坐在场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。
隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。
“叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。”
“不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。”
我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话。
我知道她喜欢的不是我，但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃，我决定要的人，我就一定会给它追过来！
一直到不知道第几次的告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，没想到她都不说话。
“在干嘛？怎么不说话？”我对着话筒说。
“我在点头。”
“啊？”我不敢相信自己的耳朵。
“我在点头！”她大声叫。
我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她们家按门铃，当她开门的那一刹那，紧紧抱住她。
「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留?」
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Whee! I have got a formal cardigan and I don't have to pay it myself! Heh hehs.
I have so many things that I want to write, but I don't really feel like typing right now. (:
Many a times, after graduation, I think people just drift apart? That is normal, at least that's how I feel. You don't meet up often enough to know about each other, you don't share enough things that are happening in your life, you don't spend time together so you don't share the common memories. I was talking to Junrui just now, about how I initiate friendship with Lixian, which was my primary school days. An instinct in me, I feel that I have to know this girl. I know she will be a lifelong friend by just looking at her. And god knows why I have such instinct when I was just only 7years old. So, a very old fashion method, I 'accidentally' dropped my eraser and she so 'coincidentally' picked it up for me. Well, she was sitting beside me, on the other table lar. Haha. And I asked for her name. After I went back to my own work, I realised that I forgot her name halfway. And this time, forbid to talk, I 'accidentally' dropped my eraser again. This time, my teacher suspected something is going on because she walked over. LOL.
Blimey. 13years of friendship. The days still seemed so fresh in my mind. I even remember that there was a period that I totally dislike her! But that was all in the past. I heart her now. (:
Junrui, whom I make friendship with a calculator. She was an instinct in me too. Almost 7years now. ((: Even moving house didn't make much difference to our friendship, thank goodness. (:
Thats what a friend is for, when your lost in darkness and searching for the light, to help you through those lonely nights, when everything around you fails just hold out your hand, and i'll come running, thats what a friend is for.
- Marty Keith
I was just wondering if you'd come along to hold up my head when my head won't hold on. I'll do the same if the same is what you want, if not I will go alone.
- Dave Matthews Band
I pull you from your tower, take away your pain, show you all the beauty you posess if you'd only let yourself believe.
- Sarah Mclachlan
...
I have so many things that I want to write, but I don't really feel like typing right now. (:
Many a times, after graduation, I think people just drift apart? That is normal, at least that's how I feel. You don't meet up often enough to know about each other, you don't share enough things that are happening in your life, you don't spend time together so you don't share the common memories. I was talking to Junrui just now, about how I initiate friendship with Lixian, which was my primary school days. An instinct in me, I feel that I have to know this girl. I know she will be a lifelong friend by just looking at her. And god knows why I have such instinct when I was just only 7years old. So, a very old fashion method, I 'accidentally' dropped my eraser and she so 'coincidentally' picked it up for me. Well, she was sitting beside me, on the other table lar. Haha. And I asked for her name. After I went back to my own work, I realised that I forgot her name halfway. And this time, forbid to talk, I 'accidentally' dropped my eraser again. This time, my teacher suspected something is going on because she walked over. LOL.
Blimey. 13years of friendship. The days still seemed so fresh in my mind. I even remember that there was a period that I totally dislike her! But that was all in the past. I heart her now. (:
Junrui, whom I make friendship with a calculator. She was an instinct in me too. Almost 7years now. ((: Even moving house didn't make much difference to our friendship, thank goodness. (:
Thats what a friend is for, when your lost in darkness and searching for the light, to help you through those lonely nights, when everything around you fails just hold out your hand, and i'll come running, thats what a friend is for.
- Marty Keith
I was just wondering if you'd come along to hold up my head when my head won't hold on. I'll do the same if the same is what you want, if not I will go alone.
- Dave Matthews Band
I pull you from your tower, take away your pain, show you all the beauty you posess if you'd only let yourself believe.
- Sarah Mclachlan
Friday, March 28, 2008
I think whenever we order home delivery, or any cases of offering your name you someone that you don't really know, Elizabeth is always the first name that pops out of my mind. I figured out Peishi or Peyshy is prolly a bit hard for Malays or people from other races to pronounce. LOL.
"KFC Delivery. May I have your name please?"
"Elizabeth."
LOL. Okay, not that I really like this name, but it's just a instinct thing to use this name when I needed. And I looked up the name meaning finder online, it says Elizabeth means God's oath. (:
I think to have a gf/bf is to incorporate that person in your life, not make the person as your life.
So that when you lose that person, you just lose part of your life, you don't lose your life.
...
"KFC Delivery. May I have your name please?"
"Elizabeth."
LOL. Okay, not that I really like this name, but it's just a instinct thing to use this name when I needed. And I looked up the name meaning finder online, it says Elizabeth means God's oath. (:
I think to have a gf/bf is to incorporate that person in your life, not make the person as your life.
So that when you lose that person, you just lose part of your life, you don't lose your life.
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'
Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.
The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.
She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.
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Poor mummy, she needs to listen to my cousin's ranting in the living room, while me, I have retreated to the balcony. Hahaha.
I reckon it has been a long time since I post pictures. So, I have decided to put some pictures here, pictures about Japan that I have researched. (: I love them. I think should I really go to Japan, I would love their temples, mountains and fountains very much. (:
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She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'
Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.
The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.
She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Poor mummy, she needs to listen to my cousin's ranting in the living room, while me, I have retreated to the balcony. Hahaha.
I reckon it has been a long time since I post pictures. So, I have decided to put some pictures here, pictures about Japan that I have researched. (: I love them. I think should I really go to Japan, I would love their temples, mountains and fountains very much. (:
Whee! We are getting a new car! But this time, no more Mercedes. Boo. Could be a seven seater. And my daddy figured out that a Mercs seven seater would look a lot like Mercs cab. Grr.
SHEESH! I missed Harris's book sale! @#$%&*@#$%!
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SHEESH! I missed Harris's book sale! @#$%&*@#$%!
Monday, March 24, 2008
Sigh. I can't bear to sit in front of the computer for 1 more second, because I kept thinking about not getting into university. The feeling is just so strong, and, sigh, I feel depressed.
That's the end of it.
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That's the end of it.
I think I am just feeling paranoid while waiting for application result. What if, what if... I didn't get in. ):
Argh. I cannot think anymore. ):
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Argh. I cannot think anymore. ):
鲨鱼与鱼
曾有人做过实验，将一只最凶猛的鲨鱼和一群热带鱼放在同一个池子，然后用强化玻璃隔开，最初，鲨鱼每天不断冲撞那块看不到的玻璃，耐何这只是徒劳，它始终不能过到对面去，而实验人员每天都有放一些鲫鱼在池子里，所以鲨鱼也没缺少猎物，只是它仍想到对面去，想尝试那美丽的滋味，每天仍是不断的冲撞那块玻璃，它试了每个角落，每次都是用尽全力，但每次也总是弄的伤痕累累，有好几次都浑身破裂出血，持续了好一些日子，每当玻璃一出现裂痕，实验人员马上加上一块更厚的玻璃。
后来，鲨鱼不再冲撞那块玻璃了，对那些斑斓的热带鱼也不再在意，好像他们只是墙上会动的壁画，它开始等着每天固定会出现的鲫鱼，然后用他敏捷的本能进行狩猎，好像回到海中不可一世的凶狠霸气，但这一切只不过是假像罢了，实验到了最后的阶段，实验人员将玻璃取走，但鲨鱼却没有反应，每天仍是在固定的区域游着它不但对那些热带鱼视若无睹，甚至于当那些鲫鱼逃到那边去，他就立刻放弃追逐，说什么也不愿再过去，实验结束了，实验人员讥笑它是海里最懦弱的鱼。
可是失恋过的人都知道为什么，它怕痛。
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曾有人做过实验，将一只最凶猛的鲨鱼和一群热带鱼放在同一个池子，然后用强化玻璃隔开，最初，鲨鱼每天不断冲撞那块看不到的玻璃，耐何这只是徒劳，它始终不能过到对面去，而实验人员每天都有放一些鲫鱼在池子里，所以鲨鱼也没缺少猎物，只是它仍想到对面去，想尝试那美丽的滋味，每天仍是不断的冲撞那块玻璃，它试了每个角落，每次都是用尽全力，但每次也总是弄的伤痕累累，有好几次都浑身破裂出血，持续了好一些日子，每当玻璃一出现裂痕，实验人员马上加上一块更厚的玻璃。
后来，鲨鱼不再冲撞那块玻璃了，对那些斑斓的热带鱼也不再在意，好像他们只是墙上会动的壁画，它开始等着每天固定会出现的鲫鱼，然后用他敏捷的本能进行狩猎，好像回到海中不可一世的凶狠霸气，但这一切只不过是假像罢了，实验到了最后的阶段，实验人员将玻璃取走，但鲨鱼却没有反应，每天仍是在固定的区域游着它不但对那些热带鱼视若无睹，甚至于当那些鲫鱼逃到那边去，他就立刻放弃追逐，说什么也不愿再过去，实验结束了，实验人员讥笑它是海里最懦弱的鱼。
可是失恋过的人都知道为什么，它怕痛。
"Honey, I think we're there. Go straight okay?"
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
Happy Easter Day! (:
Well, I went for the Saturday's Non-academic Achievement Interview at NTU, hoping that I can get a place in either Psychology or Social Science. I guess I was so nervous that I decided to use my ultimate, last resort lucky charm, or rather, ritual, that I would perform if I am really desperate for something that I want. LOL. I am going to skip the ritual part because it is supposed to be a secret. Hahaha. and then, after the ritual, I took out all my lucky charms and amulet, and set off from home to Boon Lay.
I must thank Sean for going with me. (: And I must say it's really nice to talk to him and go out with him again, after such long time. Guess who I saw at the interview waiting room? It's Chuanhui! (: Great to see her there! Well, there's still some other people waiting for their turn but when I was in the waiting room, some irritating people (to be exact, it's only one guy) started to be overly friendly, pretending that they are like Mr Popular and talked so loudly inside the room, trying to get everyone to talk. And another irritating person joined in the talk, wanting to become Miss Popular too. I can hear some notes of flirtatious in their conversation in facto and it totally disgusted me. I don't know why. LOL. But thank goodness that I had Sean with me, and I carried on to sip my hot Milo which he bought for me on the way to the interview from his hall.
I was forcing him to practice with me with all the interview questions that might come out. And the most important question I thought was, "Why did you choose NTU?" I swear that I kept practicing the 'perfect' answer for more than 50times! LOL. And even though I wasn't asked about it in the end, I was more than glad that I don't have to answer it. Heh hehs. I hope I did make a good impression and secure a course in the university. *cross fingers.
Job interview tomorrow too. Got to wake up early. ZZZ.
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Well, I went for the Saturday's Non-academic Achievement Interview at NTU, hoping that I can get a place in either Psychology or Social Science. I guess I was so nervous that I decided to use my ultimate, last resort lucky charm, or rather, ritual, that I would perform if I am really desperate for something that I want. LOL. I am going to skip the ritual part because it is supposed to be a secret. Hahaha. and then, after the ritual, I took out all my lucky charms and amulet, and set off from home to Boon Lay.
I must thank Sean for going with me. (: And I must say it's really nice to talk to him and go out with him again, after such long time. Guess who I saw at the interview waiting room? It's Chuanhui! (: Great to see her there! Well, there's still some other people waiting for their turn but when I was in the waiting room, some irritating people (to be exact, it's only one guy) started to be overly friendly, pretending that they are like Mr Popular and talked so loudly inside the room, trying to get everyone to talk. And another irritating person joined in the talk, wanting to become Miss Popular too. I can hear some notes of flirtatious in their conversation in facto and it totally disgusted me. I don't know why. LOL. But thank goodness that I had Sean with me, and I carried on to sip my hot Milo which he bought for me on the way to the interview from his hall.
I was forcing him to practice with me with all the interview questions that might come out. And the most important question I thought was, "Why did you choose NTU?" I swear that I kept practicing the 'perfect' answer for more than 50times! LOL. And even though I wasn't asked about it in the end, I was more than glad that I don't have to answer it. Heh hehs. I hope I did make a good impression and secure a course in the university. *cross fingers.
Job interview tomorrow too. Got to wake up early. ZZZ.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
One of my friends got attached! Congratulations! But I promised that person not to spread the words, TEMPORARY. LOL. And I shall keep my promise. Heh hehs. Treasure your love, will you? ((:
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
小蜗牛问妈妈：为什么我们从生下来，就要背负这个又硬又重的壳呢？
妈妈：因为我们的身体没有骨骼的支撑，只能爬，又爬不快。所以要这个壳的保护！
小蜗牛：毛虫姊姊没有骨头，也爬不快，为什么她却不用背这个又硬又重的壳呢？
妈妈：因为毛虫姊姊能变成蝴蝶，天空会保护她啊。
小蜗牛：可是蚯蚓弟弟也没骨头爬不快，也不会变成蝴蝶他什么不背这个又硬又重的壳呢？
妈妈：因为蚯蚓弟弟会钻土, 大地会保护他啊。
小蜗牛哭了起来：我们好可怜，天空不保护，大地也不保护。
蜗牛妈妈安慰他：「所以我们有壳啊！」
我们不靠天，也不靠地，我们靠自己。
今天，心有点累。
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妈妈：因为我们的身体没有骨骼的支撑，只能爬，又爬不快。所以要这个壳的保护！
小蜗牛：毛虫姊姊没有骨头，也爬不快，为什么她却不用背这个又硬又重的壳呢？
妈妈：因为毛虫姊姊能变成蝴蝶，天空会保护她啊。
小蜗牛：可是蚯蚓弟弟也没骨头爬不快，也不会变成蝴蝶他什么不背这个又硬又重的壳呢？
妈妈：因为蚯蚓弟弟会钻土, 大地会保护他啊。
小蜗牛哭了起来：我们好可怜，天空不保护，大地也不保护。
蜗牛妈妈安慰他：「所以我们有壳啊！」
我们不靠天，也不靠地，我们靠自己。
今天，心有点累。
Sigh. I am really really very scared for Saturday's interview. It really seemed like this is one of the few times that I feel really really timid and scared. ): I just hope I can get all the luck I can have in the universe.
Yesterday, I went back to Malaysia with Mummy. We had bitter gourd soup and went to Jusco with 2 aunts. And after shopping, we sat down at a Starbucks cafe. There we are, sitting at a semi high-class restaurant and the topic suddenly turned to vulgarities. If you were there, you would hear these aunties saying KNN, JB1, JB2, XF, NL, LG, etc. Many of which, are in Hakka. LOL. I was astonished by their marvellous spill of Hakka vulgarities. Haha.
Sigh. I am still nervous about the interview. But Sean is helping me as much as he can. (: I am so icky-wicky that I can't write anymore. Boo.
Thank you I-Lin and Sean. You guys are much loved. <3
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Yesterday, I went back to Malaysia with Mummy. We had bitter gourd soup and went to Jusco with 2 aunts. And after shopping, we sat down at a Starbucks cafe. There we are, sitting at a semi high-class restaurant and the topic suddenly turned to vulgarities. If you were there, you would hear these aunties saying KNN, JB1, JB2, XF, NL, LG, etc. Many of which, are in Hakka. LOL. I was astonished by their marvellous spill of Hakka vulgarities. Haha.
Sigh. I am still nervous about the interview. But Sean is helping me as much as he can. (: I am so icky-wicky that I can't write anymore. Boo.
Thank you I-Lin and Sean. You guys are much loved. <3
Monday, March 17, 2008
Whee! I am finally back from Malaysia! I had a great deal of fun with Liqi and I pray that her application for poly will be accepted soon. (:
Bleah. I had a flu after sleeping in air-con room for two nights.
Anyway, the first thing I did when I reached home was to check my result. Whee, the cranes group has got an A+ for our IEP project! Liqi was telling me that my mum told aunt I had been crying miserably when I was doing my work during the last semester. Well, I didn't okay! Hmm, alright, maybe just once. LOL. Result was pretty good. My last two semesters results were way much better than any of those in the past. (:
Anyhow, then after that, I went ahead to check my mails. And I've got an email from NTU! Whee! Okay, nothing great. LOL. But I was shortlisted for an interview with NTU. I had quite a big surprise when I read that email because my GPA was way too low for their courses. And the choice of courses that I filled in was like psychology, social work, communication and language. Oh well, I don't know. But I really do want to get into one of these courses. (:
Sidenote, this post was supposed to be done a few hours ago. But I went to the airport to deliver my Dad's shoes to him. And I had lunch at Ikea. I ate meatball till I feel suffocated! LOL. That's a bit exaggerating, but thank goodness that I didn't have their spaghetti for lunch because mummy is cooking it for dinner. LOL. Junrui is coming over too, after her interview. (:
Oh! I have an ugly scar on my hand because our family went to clean tombstone on last Saturday. Sheesh, and the joss stick fell onto my hand and chop an ugly scar and one big blister on my hand. ):
Alright, I am going to make springroll with my own ingredient today. LOL. Junrui is going to taste it! (:
给未来的自己
站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤寂的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由
阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞
找一个人心心相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙我是独一无二
没人能取代
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
一天一天 一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样
有一个人心心相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去我想认真去追寻
未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
未来的你会懂我的疯狂
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Bleah. I had a flu after sleeping in air-con room for two nights.
Anyway, the first thing I did when I reached home was to check my result. Whee, the cranes group has got an A+ for our IEP project! Liqi was telling me that my mum told aunt I had been crying miserably when I was doing my work during the last semester. Well, I didn't okay! Hmm, alright, maybe just once. LOL. Result was pretty good. My last two semesters results were way much better than any of those in the past. (:
Anyhow, then after that, I went ahead to check my mails. And I've got an email from NTU! Whee! Okay, nothing great. LOL. But I was shortlisted for an interview with NTU. I had quite a big surprise when I read that email because my GPA was way too low for their courses. And the choice of courses that I filled in was like psychology, social work, communication and language. Oh well, I don't know. But I really do want to get into one of these courses. (:
Sidenote, this post was supposed to be done a few hours ago. But I went to the airport to deliver my Dad's shoes to him. And I had lunch at Ikea. I ate meatball till I feel suffocated! LOL. That's a bit exaggerating, but thank goodness that I didn't have their spaghetti for lunch because mummy is cooking it for dinner. LOL. Junrui is coming over too, after her interview. (:
Oh! I have an ugly scar on my hand because our family went to clean tombstone on last Saturday. Sheesh, and the joss stick fell onto my hand and chop an ugly scar and one big blister on my hand. ):
Alright, I am going to make springroll with my own ingredient today. LOL. Junrui is going to taste it! (:
给未来的自己
站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤寂的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由
阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞
找一个人心心相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙我是独一无二
没人能取代
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦
给未来的自己
一天一天 一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样
有一个人心心相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去我想认真去追寻
未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
未来的你会懂我的疯狂
Saturday, March 15, 2008
704.
Ketsuegata
Type B
B-gata or blood type B personalities are the cheerful, adventurous egocentrics.
People with Type B Blood are curious about and interested in everything. That's may be good, but they also tend to have too many interests and hobbies, and they tend to get all excited about something suddenly and then later drop it again just as quickly. But they do manage to know which of their many interests or loved ones are the ones that are really important, the ones they should hold on to.
B Types tend to excel in things rather than just be average. But they tend to be so involved in their own world or become so carried away with something that they neglect other things. They have the image of being bright and cheerful, full of energy and enthusiasm, but some people think that they are really quite different on the inside. And it can also be said about them that they don't really want to have much real contact with others.
People with blood type B are the most practical of the blood groups. They are specialists in what they do. When they start a project, they spend extra time understanding and trying to follow directions than others might. When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it. They tend to stick to a goal and follow it through to the end, even if it seems impossible. They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas. They are individualists.
B type people pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.
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Ketsuegata
Type B
B-gata or blood type B personalities are the cheerful, adventurous egocentrics.
People with Type B Blood are curious about and interested in everything. That's may be good, but they also tend to have too many interests and hobbies, and they tend to get all excited about something suddenly and then later drop it again just as quickly. But they do manage to know which of their many interests or loved ones are the ones that are really important, the ones they should hold on to.
B Types tend to excel in things rather than just be average. But they tend to be so involved in their own world or become so carried away with something that they neglect other things. They have the image of being bright and cheerful, full of energy and enthusiasm, but some people think that they are really quite different on the inside. And it can also be said about them that they don't really want to have much real contact with others.
People with blood type B are the most practical of the blood groups. They are specialists in what they do. When they start a project, they spend extra time understanding and trying to follow directions than others might. When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it. They tend to stick to a goal and follow it through to the end, even if it seems impossible. They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas. They are individualists.
B type people pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.
703.
HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY, I-LIN LAOGONG!
I know I'm two days late, but that's because I wasn't in Singapore! Nothing I say is going to describe our relationship and what we had went through these 7 years! I LOVE YOU! <3
When I Need You
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hand and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be traveling forever
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you baby
it's only a heart beat away
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out so hold out and do like I do
When I need you
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
When I need you
I close my eyes
I hold out my hand and I've got you darlin'
It's only a heart beat away
Now listen
When I need you darlin'
I hold you, feel ya
Give it to me baby
And I miss ya baby
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And I need you tonight
You know it's only a heart beat away
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HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY, I-LIN LAOGONG!
I know I'm two days late, but that's because I wasn't in Singapore! Nothing I say is going to describe our relationship and what we had went through these 7 years! I LOVE YOU! <3
When I Need You
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hand and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be traveling forever
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you baby
it's only a heart beat away
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out so hold out and do like I do
When I need you
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
When I need you
I close my eyes
I hold out my hand and I've got you darlin'
It's only a heart beat away
Now listen
When I need you darlin'
I hold you, feel ya
Give it to me baby
And I miss ya baby
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And I need you tonight
You know it's only a heart beat away
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
702. What's your name's hidden meaning?
You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
LOL. I think this is so true. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. Haha. Maybe this is true. =P
Try it!
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You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
LOL. I think this is so true. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. Haha. Maybe this is true. =P
Try it!
Monday, March 10, 2008
#701 post! (:
Extracted from a email sent to me.
We make them cry, who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life, it's strange but true.
Once you realise this, it's never too late to change.
Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you don't need it,
and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.
Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life.
Relationships work best when they are balanced.
Don't write your name on sand, waves will wash it away.
Don't write your name in sky, wind may blow it away.
Write your name in hearts of people you come in touch with.
That's where it will stay.
Whatever you gives to life, it gives you back.
Do not hate anybody.
The hatred which comes out from you will someday comes back to you.
Love others. And love will come back to you.
For everything you missed, you have gained something else.
And for everything you gained, you lose something else.
It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you;
It is when you don't understand yourself.
Arrow goes forward only after pulling in to backward.
Bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward.
Every human being will get happy only after facing the difficulties in their life path.
So do not afraid to face your difficulties.
They will push you forward.
Remember you are born to live.
Don't live because you are born.
Don't go the way life takes you.
Take life the way you go.
What we are today is the results of our own past actions.
Whatever we wish to be in the future depends on our present actions.
Decide how you have to act now.
We are responsible for what we are, whatever we wish ourselves to be.
We have the power to make ourselves.
Yawn. I feel sleepy at 9.55pm. Something is wrong.
...
Extracted from a email sent to me.
We make them cry, who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life, it's strange but true.
Once you realise this, it's never too late to change.
Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you don't need it,
and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.
Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life.
Relationships work best when they are balanced.
Don't write your name on sand, waves will wash it away.
Don't write your name in sky, wind may blow it away.
Write your name in hearts of people you come in touch with.
That's where it will stay.
Whatever you gives to life, it gives you back.
Do not hate anybody.
The hatred which comes out from you will someday comes back to you.
Love others. And love will come back to you.
For everything you missed, you have gained something else.
And for everything you gained, you lose something else.
It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you;
It is when you don't understand yourself.
Arrow goes forward only after pulling in to backward.
Bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward.
Every human being will get happy only after facing the difficulties in their life path.
So do not afraid to face your difficulties.
They will push you forward.
Remember you are born to live.
Don't live because you are born.
Don't go the way life takes you.
Take life the way you go.
What we are today is the results of our own past actions.
Whatever we wish to be in the future depends on our present actions.
Decide how you have to act now.
We are responsible for what we are, whatever we wish ourselves to be.
We have the power to make ourselves.
Yawn. I feel sleepy at 9.55pm. Something is wrong.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
There are so many things to complain about everyday, don't we?
I am having sore feet!
This things are making me headache!
The internet connection is so slow!
The weather is so hot!
I think he is so noisy!
Can't he ever do things by himself!
Well, there are so many things that people feel irritated about. I don't know how thing post will end up, because I am typing this entry without any objectives in mind. LOL. I wonder when do people ever stop complaining. I must confess, I am one of them too. =X
I went back to the other blog that I had in conjunction to this one. And I found this post:
what if the world comes to an end tmr? have you ever thought about it? honestly, i have not.
who do you want to spend with in the last moment of your life? your boyfriend, or family, or even yourself. the end you are facing, is also faced by the others. does human needs time alone to reflect and think about what they have done in their life, or should they make use of the last moment to be with your loved ones?
last day of the world, would you want to watch a movie? go to the arcade and have fun? sit at the roller coaster? sleep the whole day? or just live the way you are naturally?
would you be scared when the end of the world is just a day ahead? would you be brave enough to face it? would you hide in your blanket and pretend that it is not coming? or would you cry like a baby to show how frightened you are?
i doubt i can face it bravely. who wouldnt want to live for as long as you want? and be with your loved ones forever and ever? and i believe i wouldnt bury my head in the sand and pretend nothing is going to happen. i just want to live normally, even till the last day of the world.
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If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.
- Isaac Asimov
I think I wrote this after watching The Day After Tomorrow. Hahaha. I guess it's just a 'out-of-the-blue' mood to write this out. Right till now, I am pondering if I still want to live normally till the last day of the world or not. Maybe I wouldn't. Because if I really did, and end of the world suddenly arrives, I reckon I might be shocked to death. Tsktsk. Scary thoughts. And I think more than half of the time, when I looked back at my older posts, those names wrote in acronyms, I do not remember who they are. Gagaga. Sounds bad huh? Maybe I DO have short term memory. And most of the time, I can't recall what happened at that point of time. ): so much for writing those things down when I cannot remember even after reading the anecdotes. HURHUR.
Anyhow, coming back to today. EP went to East Coast Park, and not to my liking, I went darker by 1 shade. (Whine!) Today was supposed to celebrate the twin brothers birthday in advance, since there isn't school next week due to MYG AGM. So fortunately and unfortunately that the school was not open today, we had an outing cum celebration. (:
And WHEE! I managed to taught Ili how to cycle today! Lalala~ I am proud, I know. Haha. But somehow, I like to teach others how to cycle. Haha. And soon after 20 minutes of coaching, Ili can cycle on her own! Heh hehs.
Oh, I'll prolly take up a language class with Junrui and Huiping. (: Of course, prior to that I have found a job. Haha. Now that having finish my Harry Potter 1-6, I have started on my cousin's Deathnote comics which I have finished half of the set. Isirius seriously want to read my Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows as soon as possible. but I had just checked both Popular and Kinokuniya. They either do not have the stock, if not, they only have it in hard cover version. ): I want a soft cover version. ):
Sigh sigh. I think I have been such a sinister in teasing Gerald and Jillyn. Of course, teasing without them knowing. I really should learn how to be kinder (on the appearance), LOL. Just kidding. Be kinder on the whole, I mean.
Kenji is going to release his new album! (:
为你写诗
爱情是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
爱情是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘记你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘记你的样子
...
I am having sore feet!
This things are making me headache!
The internet connection is so slow!
The weather is so hot!
I think he is so noisy!
Can't he ever do things by himself!
Well, there are so many things that people feel irritated about. I don't know how thing post will end up, because I am typing this entry without any objectives in mind. LOL. I wonder when do people ever stop complaining. I must confess, I am one of them too. =X
I went back to the other blog that I had in conjunction to this one. And I found this post:
what if the world comes to an end tmr? have you ever thought about it? honestly, i have not.
who do you want to spend with in the last moment of your life? your boyfriend, or family, or even yourself. the end you are facing, is also faced by the others. does human needs time alone to reflect and think about what they have done in their life, or should they make use of the last moment to be with your loved ones?
last day of the world, would you want to watch a movie? go to the arcade and have fun? sit at the roller coaster? sleep the whole day? or just live the way you are naturally?
would you be scared when the end of the world is just a day ahead? would you be brave enough to face it? would you hide in your blanket and pretend that it is not coming? or would you cry like a baby to show how frightened you are?
i doubt i can face it bravely. who wouldnt want to live for as long as you want? and be with your loved ones forever and ever? and i believe i wouldnt bury my head in the sand and pretend nothing is going to happen. i just want to live normally, even till the last day of the world.
---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"--"---"
If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.
- Isaac Asimov
I think I wrote this after watching The Day After Tomorrow. Hahaha. I guess it's just a 'out-of-the-blue' mood to write this out. Right till now, I am pondering if I still want to live normally till the last day of the world or not. Maybe I wouldn't. Because if I really did, and end of the world suddenly arrives, I reckon I might be shocked to death. Tsktsk. Scary thoughts. And I think more than half of the time, when I looked back at my older posts, those names wrote in acronyms, I do not remember who they are. Gagaga. Sounds bad huh? Maybe I DO have short term memory. And most of the time, I can't recall what happened at that point of time. ): so much for writing those things down when I cannot remember even after reading the anecdotes. HURHUR.
Anyhow, coming back to today. EP went to East Coast Park, and not to my liking, I went darker by 1 shade. (Whine!) Today was supposed to celebrate the twin brothers birthday in advance, since there isn't school next week due to MYG AGM. So fortunately and unfortunately that the school was not open today, we had an outing cum celebration. (:
And WHEE! I managed to taught Ili how to cycle today! Lalala~ I am proud, I know. Haha. But somehow, I like to teach others how to cycle. Haha. And soon after 20 minutes of coaching, Ili can cycle on her own! Heh hehs.
Oh, I'll prolly take up a language class with Junrui and Huiping. (: Of course, prior to that I have found a job. Haha. Now that having finish my Harry Potter 1-6, I have started on my cousin's Deathnote comics which I have finished half of the set. I
Sigh sigh. I think I have been such a sinister in teasing Gerald and Jillyn. Of course, teasing without them knowing. I really should learn how to be kinder (on the appearance), LOL. Just kidding. Be kinder on the whole, I mean.
Kenji is going to release his new album! (:
为你写诗
爱情是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
爱情是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘记你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘记你的样子
Saturday, March 08, 2008
BLANK.
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Thursday, March 06, 2008
生命中仅有的三种爱情你拥有哪种
当我们远行那天，试想有3人送行。
1，第一个人从一大早就哭着不要你走，一直拉着你的手说会一直想你，约好每天联系若干次，把你送至门口，然后回屋子里去继续看他崇拜的偶像的电视演唱会。
2，第二个人帮你收拾行李，替你做好早饭，开车送你到机场，说：保重！然后回去工作。
3，第三个人默默地坐在离你很远的地方看着你，什么也没说什么也没做，你几乎感觉不到他的存在。可是他思念你，时时刻刻为你担心 ，每天早中晚三次向他的上帝祈祷你的平安，并在祈祷中得到平静。
当我们回来的时候，我们：
1，给第一个人买很多可爱的礼物，带他去吃饭，去游乐场，看到他我们很快乐，感觉清安，连天空的色彩也变得透明。
2，给第二个人一个拥抱，帮他倒垃圾，为他这个月可以拿很多奖金而高兴，为有他的陪伴而庆幸。
3，给第三个人一个礼貌的微笑，说：嗨！然后不知道如何表达。
当我们失去他们的时候：
1，失去第一个人，我们失去了生活的色彩，灰暗了一段时间后，突然在街角遭遇新的色彩，开始新的旅程。
2，失去第二个人，我们失去臂膀，无力举起未来的重担，吃过很多补品后，终于恢复原状。
3，失去第三个人，开始没有感觉，终于有一天发现从失去的那一天开始自己的灵魂也随之而去，发现失去了无形的堡垒，永远无法填补 。
第一种感情是情人的，子女的，朋友的，年轻的。
第二种感情是丈夫的，妻子的，朋友的，中年的。
第三种感情是父母的，爱人的，知己的，永远的。
第一种付出的是语言。
第二种付出的是时间。
第三种付出的是生命。
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当我们远行那天，试想有3人送行。
1，第一个人从一大早就哭着不要你走，一直拉着你的手说会一直想你，约好每天联系若干次，把你送至门口，然后回屋子里去继续看他崇拜的偶像的电视演唱会。
2，第二个人帮你收拾行李，替你做好早饭，开车送你到机场，说：保重！然后回去工作。
3，第三个人默默地坐在离你很远的地方看着你，什么也没说什么也没做，你几乎感觉不到他的存在。可是他思念你，时时刻刻为你担心 ，每天早中晚三次向他的上帝祈祷你的平安，并在祈祷中得到平静。
当我们回来的时候，我们：
1，给第一个人买很多可爱的礼物，带他去吃饭，去游乐场，看到他我们很快乐，感觉清安，连天空的色彩也变得透明。
2，给第二个人一个拥抱，帮他倒垃圾，为他这个月可以拿很多奖金而高兴，为有他的陪伴而庆幸。
3，给第三个人一个礼貌的微笑，说：嗨！然后不知道如何表达。
当我们失去他们的时候：
1，失去第一个人，我们失去了生活的色彩，灰暗了一段时间后，突然在街角遭遇新的色彩，开始新的旅程。
2，失去第二个人，我们失去臂膀，无力举起未来的重担，吃过很多补品后，终于恢复原状。
3，失去第三个人，开始没有感觉，终于有一天发现从失去的那一天开始自己的灵魂也随之而去，发现失去了无形的堡垒，永远无法填补 。
第一种感情是情人的，子女的，朋友的，年轻的。
第二种感情是丈夫的，妻子的，朋友的，中年的。
第三种感情是父母的，爱人的，知己的，永远的。
第一种付出的是语言。
第二种付出的是时间。
第三种付出的是生命。
Over the tee-vee, I heard that there will be two kind of friends whom you will meet throughout your life.
The first one: The longer you know them, the more you understand how they think. Therefore, for the entire life of yours, you two share the bond that no one will have.
The second one: The longer you know them, the more you don't understand them. Which often is the way for people in modern days. Many people seemed too complicated for others to understand them, or should we say that they preferred not to be understood?
Of course, I reckon people would prefer the first kind of friends. But think back, how often have you yourself played the role of the second kind of friend? Maybe you did it unknowingly, or maybe the friendship just, you know, cracked. Sigh.
May I be the first kind of friend to everyone. (:
I think badminton is a more civilised sport than basketball.
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The first one: The longer you know them, the more you understand how they think. Therefore, for the entire life of yours, you two share the bond that no one will have.
The second one: The longer you know them, the more you don't understand them. Which often is the way for people in modern days. Many people seemed too complicated for others to understand them, or should we say that they preferred not to be understood?
Of course, I reckon people would prefer the first kind of friends. But think back, how often have you yourself played the role of the second kind of friend? Maybe you did it unknowingly, or maybe the friendship just, you know, cracked. Sigh.
May I be the first kind of friend to everyone. (:
I think badminton is a more civilised sport than basketball.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
When was the last time you saw your mother pout at you when she thought that you forgot to buy her favourite dessert home? I did, today. Somehow, my mother tried to charm me with her pouts, and I think she looked cute. Er, cute to describe a 44 years old woman? LOL. Sounds kind of weird.
I watched L today with Junrui and Huiping! :D I think L is seriously cute even though he does not fit into the category of handsome. But somehow, I know Junrui will think the little Thailand boy is cuter. LOL. Come to think of it, I don't even remember someone fits into MY category of 'handsome'. I don't know why. Hahaha.
The other day I was thinking, why are most of the people in EP singles? And even if some of the lucky ones who are attached, they would want to bring their the other half into EP. Maybe this is a good way of having both wants without neglecting the other. I guess there's really no other way of you want to have these two things in your life in conjunction. Well, maybe I would do that too. Like they want to spend their time together but at the same time, they did not want to give up volunteering altogether. But what if the couple split up? That's what happen to Charles and Christine isn't it? Sheesh, maybe this is a curse. Maybe volunteering makes people stays single. LOL. I am just kidding.
Anyhow, I have taken up the post for Volunteer Administrative, VA in short. People have to go through me for interview and I'm their host when newcomers, that is the new volunteers, first arrive in EP. I have stringent views on new volunteers though, like regular commitment. And I really mean STRINGENT. So if you are interested in volunteering, heh heh. Look for me. (:
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I watched L today with Junrui and Huiping! :D I think L is seriously cute even though he does not fit into the category of handsome. But somehow, I know Junrui will think the little Thailand boy is cuter. LOL. Come to think of it, I don't even remember someone fits into MY category of 'handsome'. I don't know why. Hahaha.
The other day I was thinking, why are most of the people in EP singles? And even if some of the lucky ones who are attached, they would want to bring their the other half into EP. Maybe this is a good way of having both wants without neglecting the other. I guess there's really no other way of you want to have these two things in your life in conjunction. Well, maybe I would do that too. Like they want to spend their time together but at the same time, they did not want to give up volunteering altogether. But what if the couple split up? That's what happen to Charles and Christine isn't it? Sheesh, maybe this is a curse. Maybe volunteering makes people stays single. LOL. I am just kidding.
Anyhow, I have taken up the post for Volunteer Administrative, VA in short. People have to go through me for interview and I'm their host when newcomers, that is the new volunteers, first arrive in EP. I have stringent views on new volunteers though, like regular commitment. And I really mean STRINGENT. So if you are interested in volunteering, heh heh. Look for me. (:
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Well, the last post was 11 days before. Tsktsk.
I am just a blessed kid who can sit around (or should I say lazing around) in my house and satisfy my gratification by reading my books word-by-word, without Daddy and Mummy nagging in my ears for looking for a job. (:
I have been indulging in my Harry Potter series. And guess what, the person I fancy is not the lead of the story, Harry Potter, but one of his best friends, Ronald Weasley. He is just superb cute and I don't deny that I am head over heels into him. LOL. Of course, I know this is a fantasy story that was made up, and well-written by J. K. Rowling, but at some point of time, I wish I was Hermione. Hahaha.
I have been wanting to do something different from what I already have been doing for almost 20years of my life. What?! 20 YEARS ALREADY?! I didn't know time passed so fast. ): But anyhow, I want something different in my life, like I've always said. Something more than ordinary. (:
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I am just a blessed kid who can sit around (or should I say lazing around) in my house and satisfy my gratification by reading my books word-by-word, without Daddy and Mummy nagging in my ears for looking for a job. (:
I have been indulging in my Harry Potter series. And guess what, the person I fancy is not the lead of the story, Harry Potter, but one of his best friends, Ronald Weasley. He is just superb cute and I don't deny that I am head over heels into him. LOL. Of course, I know this is a fantasy story that was made up, and well-written by J. K. Rowling, but at some point of time, I wish I was Hermione. Hahaha.
I have been wanting to do something different from what I already have been doing for almost 20years of my life. What?! 20 YEARS ALREADY?! I didn't know time passed so fast. ): But anyhow, I want something different in my life, like I've always said. Something more than ordinary. (:
