why should i tell you about it anyway? not through msn and not even through phone too. what do you mean by hp? who do you think you are to me? i guess you are still not over the past. that's the PAST alrd. and you have still not wake up. 1 year? or 2 years alrd. i cant even remember. you are forever stuck at that period of time. you are still walking on the same spot even after everything is gone. only regret after you have lost it? too late. i can only tell you it's too late. if you cannot treasure what you have in the past, den i dun think you can do it now too. i've change but i doubt you have. i can only say you are not my cup of tea. it's cruel. i know. but im sure that in your heart, im not your cup of tea too. and i've faced it. why cant you? im sorry, but wake up would you? you still have a long way head of you.
-pEiShi-
ep
Sunday, February 26, 2006
ep yesterday. was looking quite forward. and i supposed minhui knows why. a lil disappointed though. 'cause what i expected wasnt there.
well. had commitee meeting in the morning. this time, we had a 3 hours meeting, 1 hr longer than usual. didnt mean to complain or what, just that it seems quite redundant for me and minhui to be there as we dont have anything to report. as the time passes, im getting more and more sleepy. and all i can see is the chair's mouth moving and moving.
hmm. i think i wasnt a good grp leader for the whole year. actually, i mean im doing pretty badly. i wasnt involved in much planning and action-taking of duckling's group. felt quite bad for verna. i rely on her too much. in fact, i think she looks like duckling's gl even more than i do. =X
i took up another year of gl, not because i want to torture my trainees and volunteers with my poor leading okay! it's just that i think i did not give my best, and some sort of make up to them for the past lousy year.
so the first thing i will do is to be more committed. yeah. and i will be. haa. i think duckling group needs a more systematic programme. and now, without lishan and verna with me, i will have to do it all by myself alrd. and may god be with me.
i understand that mh is feeling bad because she feels that she did not do a good job during her service year. well. i feel that it is not totally her fault. to be honest, we are still too young and not that sensible (but i dont mean that we are not sensible at all). and what can you expect from 16 years old girls then. professionalism? yeah. as if. thats explains why.
to mh: if you think you did not do well, give it a shot again? in my eyes, i dont think you have failed at all. at least we see progress in boon hao and mingyi. dont we? =) focus on your a level now. if you want to do something for angelfish, be an active member. you guys need strong volunteer strength right? =) we will always be there for you.
hmm. had quite an 'exciting' game of badminton with ep and bktg. realised that i have not been working out alrd. feels good to exercise. haa. yin hong and chuan hui told me that i have lose weight. *wahaha. think is because of the shirt that i wore yesterday. too bad he cant see it.....
hmm. on the escalator up onto the mrt platform, told mh that i like a guy. she started guessing, beginning with kranji guys first. haa. den i gave her a very big clue. 'guys that we both know not too long ago, that is, a few months.' she thought for awhile, and exclaim. it was so deafening. and the stupid mrt station had echo somemore. so embarassing.
well. i am still not sure why i wanted to tell mh. im still unsure of my feelings. lOl. yi shi chong dong ba. haa.
to iL: i will find sometime and tell you who he is. wanna be fair to you. haa. meanwhile, you can start guessing. lOl.
-pEiShi-
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well. had commitee meeting in the morning. this time, we had a 3 hours meeting, 1 hr longer than usual. didnt mean to complain or what, just that it seems quite redundant for me and minhui to be there as we dont have anything to report. as the time passes, im getting more and more sleepy. and all i can see is the chair's mouth moving and moving.
hmm. i think i wasnt a good grp leader for the whole year. actually, i mean im doing pretty badly. i wasnt involved in much planning and action-taking of duckling's group. felt quite bad for verna. i rely on her too much. in fact, i think she looks like duckling's gl even more than i do. =X
i took up another year of gl, not because i want to torture my trainees and volunteers with my poor leading okay! it's just that i think i did not give my best, and some sort of make up to them for the past lousy year.
so the first thing i will do is to be more committed. yeah. and i will be. haa. i think duckling group needs a more systematic programme. and now, without lishan and verna with me, i will have to do it all by myself alrd. and may god be with me.
i understand that mh is feeling bad because she feels that she did not do a good job during her service year. well. i feel that it is not totally her fault. to be honest, we are still too young and not that sensible (but i dont mean that we are not sensible at all). and what can you expect from 16 years old girls then. professionalism? yeah. as if. thats explains why.
to mh: if you think you did not do well, give it a shot again? in my eyes, i dont think you have failed at all. at least we see progress in boon hao and mingyi. dont we? =) focus on your a level now. if you want to do something for angelfish, be an active member. you guys need strong volunteer strength right? =) we will always be there for you.
hmm. had quite an 'exciting' game of badminton with ep and bktg. realised that i have not been working out alrd. feels good to exercise. haa. yin hong and chuan hui told me that i have lose weight. *wahaha. think is because of the shirt that i wore yesterday. too bad he cant see it.....
hmm. on the escalator up onto the mrt platform, told mh that i like a guy. she started guessing, beginning with kranji guys first. haa. den i gave her a very big clue. 'guys that we both know not too long ago, that is, a few months.' she thought for awhile, and exclaim. it was so deafening. and the stupid mrt station had echo somemore. so embarassing.
well. i am still not sure why i wanted to tell mh. im still unsure of my feelings. lOl. yi shi chong dong ba. haa.
to iL: i will find sometime and tell you who he is. wanna be fair to you. haa. meanwhile, you can start guessing. lOl.
-pEiShi-
shi jie shang zhui yuan de ju li
Friday, February 24, 2006
the 150th post. decided to have a new blogskin. but i prefer the old one. so sad that i've lost the html.
found this website. the furthest distant in the world. *shi jie shang zhui yuan de ju li*
shi jie shang zhui yuan de ju li.
-pEiShi-
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found this website. the furthest distant in the world. *shi jie shang zhui yuan de ju li*
shi jie shang zhui yuan de ju li.
-pEiShi-
blood donation
went for blood donation on wednesday with shirley. wanted to ask shih lei along, but she's still not yet 16. lOl.
the process was quite alright. just a lil *er xin*. it's not the poking of needle, but the feeling when the blood passes through the tube. because the blood is warm, den... hmmm. cant describe it. but there's a great sense of satisfaction after the blood donation. =) i think anyone who has the condition to help, it will be good to do so. next donation date will be 17 may. =) anyone interested to join me?
well. after that went for a feast. haa. ate seoul garden with my cousin. saw wilber. hmm. it's second time in a week that i ate seoul garden. getting fatter and fatter now.! =X
had child development 1.3 exam today. im failing alrd. just want to stop studying now. end everything and im freed.
-pEiShi-
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the process was quite alright. just a lil *er xin*. it's not the poking of needle, but the feeling when the blood passes through the tube. because the blood is warm, den... hmmm. cant describe it. but there's a great sense of satisfaction after the blood donation. =) i think anyone who has the condition to help, it will be good to do so. next donation date will be 17 may. =) anyone interested to join me?
well. after that went for a feast. haa. ate seoul garden with my cousin. saw wilber. hmm. it's second time in a week that i ate seoul garden. getting fatter and fatter now.! =X
had child development 1.3 exam today. im failing alrd. just want to stop studying now. end everything and im freed.
-pEiShi-
family joy
Friday, February 17, 2006
back from the wake on monday night. was damn sad that day. im not going to see my grandfather anymore. no more the sight of him whenever i go back to the house.
but at least one good thing happened during the funeral. weipeng's family came back. there's not much differences as we are in the past, after some good years. im just glad that i still have these 3 cousins.
had a family meeting before coming back with the rest of the extended family. what da jiu said is true, life is full of challenges, it's exciting, just that how you live it.
finally handed the last assignment today. *relieved.
exam is just 1 week away, next friday.
looking forward to go back to m'sia this weekend, 'cause everyone is going back. i like the feeling when everyone is staying in the same place. the feeling of being together under one roof is very nice, esp during the funeral days. i really hope that we have chance to stay together again. and i dun mind staying in m'sia too. lOl.
well. i think i have to conduct sing-a-long tmr. let's see how i die bah.
-pEiShi-
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but at least one good thing happened during the funeral. weipeng's family came back. there's not much differences as we are in the past, after some good years. im just glad that i still have these 3 cousins.
had a family meeting before coming back with the rest of the extended family. what da jiu said is true, life is full of challenges, it's exciting, just that how you live it.
finally handed the last assignment today. *relieved.
exam is just 1 week away, next friday.
looking forward to go back to m'sia this weekend, 'cause everyone is going back. i like the feeling when everyone is staying in the same place. the feeling of being together under one roof is very nice, esp during the funeral days. i really hope that we have chance to stay together again. and i dun mind staying in m'sia too. lOl.
well. i think i have to conduct sing-a-long tmr. let's see how i die bah.
-pEiShi-
grandfather (maternal)
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
now is ard 5.53am in the morning. mum called not long ago. to tell us that grandfather had just passed away, not long ago. she sound calm. too calm to be true. i was hoping that there was still some hope. but none came.
the house phone rang at ard 1 am in the morning. i have a hunch the something is going to happen. mum picked up the phone. then after she hung up. a short moment of silent, followed by some open and close of cupboard sound. the ring of the phone broke the night's silent. i didnt watch the clock. but i thought it was around 4 or 5 in the morning alrd.
on the 3rd phone call, i decided to wake up and take a look. what calls could be so urgent that it must be make in the middle of the night? i opened my room's door and saw my mum. she looked worried. what have happened, i asked. she ended the call by saying kulai hospital. kulai hospital? is that the hospital where grandma passed away? bad feeling. very bad. mum told me grandfather is in the hospital. why, i asked. he's sick was the reply. then she and dad went back to msia. i pray that he can pull through.
if i told you that when i saw him during the chinese new year period, i alrd have bad feelings. would you believe? i felt extremely uneasy when i saw him. but when i heard that his astma is acting up again too.
im going to the childcare centre for my last attachment later. den dad's going to pick me and my younger brother up. i wanted to tell my older brother about this, but im scared that this will affect him in the camp.
exam is around the corner. at feb 24. i cant cope. too fast. faster than i expected.
-pEiShi-
who will come and save me?
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-pEiShi-
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the house phone rang at ard 1 am in the morning. i have a hunch the something is going to happen. mum picked up the phone. then after she hung up. a short moment of silent, followed by some open and close of cupboard sound. the ring of the phone broke the night's silent. i didnt watch the clock. but i thought it was around 4 or 5 in the morning alrd.
on the 3rd phone call, i decided to wake up and take a look. what calls could be so urgent that it must be make in the middle of the night? i opened my room's door and saw my mum. she looked worried. what have happened, i asked. she ended the call by saying kulai hospital. kulai hospital? is that the hospital where grandma passed away? bad feeling. very bad. mum told me grandfather is in the hospital. why, i asked. he's sick was the reply. then she and dad went back to msia. i pray that he can pull through.
if i told you that when i saw him during the chinese new year period, i alrd have bad feelings. would you believe? i felt extremely uneasy when i saw him. but when i heard that his astma is acting up again too.
im going to the childcare centre for my last attachment later. den dad's going to pick me and my younger brother up. i wanted to tell my older brother about this, but im scared that this will affect him in the camp.
exam is around the corner. at feb 24. i cant cope. too fast. faster than i expected.
-pEiShi-
who will come and save me?
driving a car!
Monday, February 06, 2006
woo!! i drove a car yesterday!!! can you believe it! yeah! haa. im not telling lies okay! yesterday my parents and i plus my brother went back to m'sia. went to pray. and we went to eat ba kut teh. so nice. it's been awhile since i last ate it alrd. and so after we ate it, my mum went to do facial. and i asked my dad to teach my how to drive. and so... i drive! okay lar. only in my uncle's big patch of land lar. cant possibly go on the road right? *wahaha!
yeah. i think i forgot to mention something that happened in genting. my cousin, liqi, is usually those kinda *si wen* type one. but day when we went for the movie, geisha, something shocking happened.! haa. you wouldnt have thought of it. there was this stupid idiot row sitting behind us. a bunch of kids. they were so so so noisy. and there was this guy behind me. he keep sneezing and moving forward. and i doubt that he covered his mouth. shirley told her that she glared at him before he could even sneezed. so unhygienic. so i sat at the edge of my chair for quite sometime because he keep sneezing. and chitchat behind all the way. about the show. what they said were quite lame too. like, "hey. that girl pick up the food from the floor." pls lar. the movie is showing right? unless his friends are blind and cannot see for themselves lor.
den the powderful thing happened. liqi saw that i was sitting till so uncomfortable, so she turned to the back and somewhat shouted, "hey. can you guys stop talking?" wow.! i think she meant to say it in a nice way, like can you guys talk softly please. but dunno what happened that when she said out, it becomes liddat. but so thankful of her. they did stop for awhile. den after that talk softer alrd.
thats all. =)yeah. i think i forgot to mention something that happened in genting. my cousin, liqi, is usually those kinda *si wen* type one. but day when we went for the movie, geisha, something shocking happened.! haa. you wouldnt have thought of it. there was this stupid idiot row sitting behind us. a bunch of kids. they were so so so noisy. and there was this guy behind me. he keep sneezing and moving forward. and i doubt that he covered his mouth. shirley told her that she glared at him before he could even sneezed. so unhygienic. so i sat at the edge of my chair for quite sometime because he keep sneezing. and chitchat behind all the way. about the show. what they said were quite lame too. like, "hey. that girl pick up the food from the floor." pls lar. the movie is showing right? unless his friends are blind and cannot see for themselves lor.
den the powderful thing happened. liqi saw that i was sitting till so uncomfortable, so she turned to the back and somewhat shouted, "hey. can you guys stop talking?" wow.! i think she meant to say it in a nice way, like can you guys talk softly please. but dunno what happened that when she said out, it becomes liddat. but so thankful of her. they did stop for awhile. den after that talk softer alrd.
-pEiShi-
chinese new year
Friday, February 03, 2006
yEah! it's chinese new year again.! did you miss me? haa. got alot of hong bao. didnt drink enough water, got sick alrd. flu, cough, sore throat and fever. sianz.
went back to m'sia on the day before chinese new year eve. i mopped the floor of the whole big house there. chatted with my cousins den went to sleep.
New Year Eve
went back to singapore the next day to fetch my brother from his camp and went to mail my homework to winnie. den prepare for the reunion dinner. this year's dinner we ate at the restuarant. first time eating outside. okay lar. didnt really like the food. after that went to xiao jiu mu's house to play. watched tv and waited for the dancing dragon - *wu long*
counting down time. quite fun lar. with my fav cousin - leek key (liqi).
played *yan hua* firework. other houses also lit firework, it was so beautiful. i rem one that holds on for ard 2 - 3 mins. played a lil mahjong with my cousins and watched andy lau's show, the gu lu gu lu gou xin nian. or something liddat lar. a mahjong movie.
New Year Day
went to house visit on *chu yi*. went to xiao jiu mu's house first. waited for the dancing lion *wu shi* den jiu gong's house den another house that we will go every year. his house is damn big. 3 or 4 storey i forgot alrd. his hong bao is quite big too. (yawn. feel like sleeping. 'cause just ate the flu medicine.) the house has a basketball court too. a private property. before we went to his house, we had a tour ard the house in that estate. wow~ we saw one that look like a palace. so cool.! haa. i wish i can live in there too.! lOl.
listening to lee hom's kiss goodbye. so nice. (went to sleep.)
(coming back after a sleep) well, stay at the house for a while and went back.
Chu Er
went to jiu gong's house. as usual, ate *lei cha* and wine chicken. quite nice. den went straight up to genting. took alot of time to pursude liqi to go. and her sis too.
on the way up to KL, da jiu's car broke down. is the car battery's fault. dad did a u-turn and help out while xiao jiu went to buy battery. cousin's car was alrd there. while they are fixing, we girls had nothing to do so we sang song. haa. fixed for like an hour plus before the car can start again. my dad fixed it one okay.! haa. den reached genting highland at ard 6+ 7 alrd. hmm. i shall not go into details what i did there. cuz im lazy to blog about it.
so overall, these few days there, sang twice of karaoke. played arcade games. watched 2 movies - fearless and geisha. slack. play card games, murderer, animal games. ate alot of good food. fall sick on the last day before coming back. had fever, cough, sore throat and flu.
hmm. and i had a chit-chat with my cousins. we talked about friends. and i told them about the you-know-who woman. weiwei told me to tell her straight in the face and stop doing any project with her. dada's gf, a graduated ech student told me that so. well. winnie told me that she and xuzhen told her alrd. and it turn out quite bad.
i didnt go to school on friday. went to see doctor. went to the polyclinic initiatly. but after that mum called and asked if i got go school anot. i told her i didnt go and was waiting for a doctor. she asked how long do i have to wait. and i told her the thing that says 'waiting time' wrote 2+1/2 hrs. that's insane.! i have to wait there for so long. so mum told me to go to li ling (a private clinic which i went to usually). so i went off. went back home to take money and go off.
you-know-who called while i was about to go out. it was the last ring when i saw it, 'cause i put it on silent mode. and i didnt bother to call back. den she msg me in the night, but i slept early because of the medicine i took. so it's not i intentionally not picking up her call, but it seems so accidentally that i missed it, but i doubt she knows. she might even think that i did it on purpose. but who cares. winnie called on friday too. to tell me what happened. about she and xz telling you-know-who about her attitude. i kinda not like her attitude when she told xz that she need not explain anything to her. yar. it might be that xz is saying in the wrong tone, but does she need to say this kinda of thing. once it's said, things cannot be turned back. and i hate her for that. so now everything's like turning worse. separating into 2 groups now. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?!!!!! i wanna run away from all this mess.
-pEiShi-
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went back to m'sia on the day before chinese new year eve. i mopped the floor of the whole big house there. chatted with my cousins den went to sleep.
New Year Eve
went back to singapore the next day to fetch my brother from his camp and went to mail my homework to winnie. den prepare for the reunion dinner. this year's dinner we ate at the restuarant. first time eating outside. okay lar. didnt really like the food. after that went to xiao jiu mu's house to play. watched tv and waited for the dancing dragon - *wu long*
counting down time. quite fun lar. with my fav cousin - leek key (liqi).
played *yan hua* firework. other houses also lit firework, it was so beautiful. i rem one that holds on for ard 2 - 3 mins. played a lil mahjong with my cousins and watched andy lau's show, the gu lu gu lu gou xin nian. or something liddat lar. a mahjong movie.
New Year Day
went to house visit on *chu yi*. went to xiao jiu mu's house first. waited for the dancing lion *wu shi* den jiu gong's house den another house that we will go every year. his house is damn big. 3 or 4 storey i forgot alrd. his hong bao is quite big too. (yawn. feel like sleeping. 'cause just ate the flu medicine.) the house has a basketball court too. a private property. before we went to his house, we had a tour ard the house in that estate. wow~ we saw one that look like a palace. so cool.! haa. i wish i can live in there too.! lOl.
listening to lee hom's kiss goodbye. so nice. (went to sleep.)
(coming back after a sleep) well, stay at the house for a while and went back.
Chu Er
went to jiu gong's house. as usual, ate *lei cha* and wine chicken. quite nice. den went straight up to genting. took alot of time to pursude liqi to go. and her sis too.
on the way up to KL, da jiu's car broke down. is the car battery's fault. dad did a u-turn and help out while xiao jiu went to buy battery. cousin's car was alrd there. while they are fixing, we girls had nothing to do so we sang song. haa. fixed for like an hour plus before the car can start again. my dad fixed it one okay.! haa. den reached genting highland at ard 6+ 7 alrd. hmm. i shall not go into details what i did there. cuz im lazy to blog about it.
so overall, these few days there, sang twice of karaoke. played arcade games. watched 2 movies - fearless and geisha. slack. play card games, murderer, animal games. ate alot of good food. fall sick on the last day before coming back. had fever, cough, sore throat and flu.
hmm. and i had a chit-chat with my cousins. we talked about friends. and i told them about the you-know-who woman. weiwei told me to tell her straight in the face and stop doing any project with her. dada's gf, a graduated ech student told me that so. well. winnie told me that she and xuzhen told her alrd. and it turn out quite bad.
i didnt go to school on friday. went to see doctor. went to the polyclinic initiatly. but after that mum called and asked if i got go school anot. i told her i didnt go and was waiting for a doctor. she asked how long do i have to wait. and i told her the thing that says 'waiting time' wrote 2+1/2 hrs. that's insane.! i have to wait there for so long. so mum told me to go to li ling (a private clinic which i went to usually). so i went off. went back home to take money and go off.
you-know-who called while i was about to go out. it was the last ring when i saw it, 'cause i put it on silent mode. and i didnt bother to call back. den she msg me in the night, but i slept early because of the medicine i took. so it's not i intentionally not picking up her call, but it seems so accidentally that i missed it, but i doubt she knows. she might even think that i did it on purpose. but who cares. winnie called on friday too. to tell me what happened. about she and xz telling you-know-who about her attitude. i kinda not like her attitude when she told xz that she need not explain anything to her. yar. it might be that xz is saying in the wrong tone, but does she need to say this kinda of thing. once it's said, things cannot be turned back. and i hate her for that. so now everything's like turning worse. separating into 2 groups now. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?!!!!! i wanna run away from all this mess.
-pEiShi-
