im seriously tired. i hope that things will get better soon. it would. i know. maybe the next day. maybe the next hour. or maybe, the next min. i pray.
-pEiShi-
bad day.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
bad day
where is the moment we needed the most
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
they tell me your blue skies fade to grey
they tell me your passion's gone away
and i don't need no carrying on
you stand in the line just to hit a new low
you're faking a smile with the coffee you go
you tell me your life's been way off line
you're falling to pieces everytime
and i don't need no carrying on
'cause you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
the camera don't lie
you're coming back down and you really don't mind
you had a bad day
you had a bad day
well you need a blue sky holiday
the point is they laugh at what you say
and i don't need no carrying on
sometimes the system goes on the brink
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back
and you know that you could be well
oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
so where is the passion when you need it the most
oh you and i
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
'cause you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
you've seen what you like
and how does it feel for one more time
you had a bad day
you had a bad day.
oh boy! i had a bad day!! and i certainly need a blue sky holiday!!
munjee came over at 11.30am. he got kinda lost. XP. mum and bro still rems him. haa. he stayed for almost 2 hours and we went out together. and i guess he's kinda lucky, cuz everytime he come to my house, he'll get to taste my mum's great cooking. haa. =)) then he went back to cck and i met lixian at woodlands. only did i realised i forgot to bring my ez-link card out. >.<
she told me about her friend who is in icu now. kinda sad. actually, super sad. tears, you know, in the eyes. but didnt drop out lar. went to visit the friend in the hospital at tts. i dun like going to hospital. it's like, you only go there because someone is so ill that he/she must be admitted into hospital. and such cases are always bad. =( last time kw was in hospital too. =X
walked to united square after that. bought some things from ms oh's stall. haa. bought 2 balloons that was twisted into a bear too. but unfortunately (one of the bad thing that happened), one of it burst and the face of the bear kinda deflated. threw it away, and we decided to give the other one to lixian's friend to cheer her up. so we went back to the hospital again after having meal at subway. first time eating there. hmmm. not bad. but i cant finish it. and that was the only meal i had for the day.
the rose from the bear balloon. =))
took train to orchard after the 2nd hospital visit. went to far east. and gosh! lixian practially went into EVERY shop that we saw. and i was like, *diao~ so tired following her into the shops. haa. bought a shirt and a short. spent ard 70+ while lixian spent like 100+. =X shopping spree for us. and we didnt finish walking ard the whole far east. walked ard 1 floor only, and we've spent so much. =X
had milk tea from the basement. i LOVE it. =)) walked to scotts food court and lixian had her dinner there. everything's quite fun today. and i've just skipped those rotten parts of today out in the entry.
was talking to lixian about how stressed i was. about school. almost on the verge of giving up. sigh. but i think im quite fortunate to have so many friends ard me. =)) all my pri school friends like lixian, tianhui, meiteng, jason, yujun etc. secondary school friends like mh, iL, leechiu, jiahui, mel, yunjie, pm, cy etc. poly friends like laura, winnie, xz, jas, nancy, gladys, yx, wenfang, zhi ge etc. others like munjee, baohui, junrui, verna, grace etc. haha! this sounds very much like song dedication to them. haa. and thank goodness that i have friends to console me when i need them. =))
reached home and realised the sale person took the wrong size of the shorts for me. *grrr!
school holiday for the secondary school and jc students now. that means young bro is having a mth of holiday while i slog like hell in school. big bro also got his ns holiday till fri. -_-"
felt that i've wasted my weekend away. whole saturday's gone bacause of sandcastle training. and today, shopping day till 11+.
anyway, acid camp is confirmed on 9 - 11th of june. =)) at chinese high. im going to miss my home! =)) it sounds rather fun because grace, iL, munjee, gr and ernest will be there! haa. now, just hope mh can make it. =)) *cross my fingers.
got to finish up on my lesson plan now. attachment is at 9 tmr. have to sleep early too. =)) it's going to be a great day tmr (*self-dillusion).
-pEiShi-
...
where is the moment we needed the most
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
they tell me your blue skies fade to grey
they tell me your passion's gone away
and i don't need no carrying on
you stand in the line just to hit a new low
you're faking a smile with the coffee you go
you tell me your life's been way off line
you're falling to pieces everytime
and i don't need no carrying on
'cause you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
the camera don't lie
you're coming back down and you really don't mind
you had a bad day
you had a bad day
well you need a blue sky holiday
the point is they laugh at what you say
and i don't need no carrying on
sometimes the system goes on the brink
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back
and you know that you could be well
oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
so where is the passion when you need it the most
oh you and i
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
'cause you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
you've seen what you like
and how does it feel for one more time
you had a bad day
you had a bad day.
oh boy! i had a bad day!! and i certainly need a blue sky holiday!!
munjee came over at 11.30am. he got kinda lost. XP. mum and bro still rems him. haa. he stayed for almost 2 hours and we went out together. and i guess he's kinda lucky, cuz everytime he come to my house, he'll get to taste my mum's great cooking. haa. =)) then he went back to cck and i met lixian at woodlands. only did i realised i forgot to bring my ez-link card out. >.<
she told me about her friend who is in icu now. kinda sad. actually, super sad. tears, you know, in the eyes. but didnt drop out lar. went to visit the friend in the hospital at tts. i dun like going to hospital. it's like, you only go there because someone is so ill that he/she must be admitted into hospital. and such cases are always bad. =( last time kw was in hospital too. =X
walked to united square after that. bought some things from ms oh's stall. haa. bought 2 balloons that was twisted into a bear too. but unfortunately (one of the bad thing that happened), one of it burst and the face of the bear kinda deflated. threw it away, and we decided to give the other one to lixian's friend to cheer her up. so we went back to the hospital again after having meal at subway. first time eating there. hmmm. not bad. but i cant finish it. and that was the only meal i had for the day.
the rose from the bear balloon. =))
took train to orchard after the 2nd hospital visit. went to far east. and gosh! lixian practially went into EVERY shop that we saw. and i was like, *diao~ so tired following her into the shops. haa. bought a shirt and a short. spent ard 70+ while lixian spent like 100+. =X shopping spree for us. and we didnt finish walking ard the whole far east. walked ard 1 floor only, and we've spent so much. =X
had milk tea from the basement. i LOVE it. =)) walked to scotts food court and lixian had her dinner there. everything's quite fun today. and i've just skipped those rotten parts of today out in the entry.
was talking to lixian about how stressed i was. about school. almost on the verge of giving up. sigh. but i think im quite fortunate to have so many friends ard me. =)) all my pri school friends like lixian, tianhui, meiteng, jason, yujun etc. secondary school friends like mh, iL, leechiu, jiahui, mel, yunjie, pm, cy etc. poly friends like laura, winnie, xz, jas, nancy, gladys, yx, wenfang, zhi ge etc. others like munjee, baohui, junrui, verna, grace etc. haha! this sounds very much like song dedication to them. haa. and thank goodness that i have friends to console me when i need them. =))
reached home and realised the sale person took the wrong size of the shorts for me. *grrr!
school holiday for the secondary school and jc students now. that means young bro is having a mth of holiday while i slog like hell in school. big bro also got his ns holiday till fri. -_-"
felt that i've wasted my weekend away. whole saturday's gone bacause of sandcastle training. and today, shopping day till 11+.
anyway, acid camp is confirmed on 9 - 11th of june. =)) at chinese high. im going to miss my home! =)) it sounds rather fun because grace, iL, munjee, gr and ernest will be there! haa. now, just hope mh can make it. =)) *cross my fingers.
got to finish up on my lesson plan now. attachment is at 9 tmr. have to sleep early too. =)) it's going to be a great day tmr (*self-dillusion).
-pEiShi-
sandcastle training!
hip-hip hurray! =)) sand castle training ended in the evening. =) so fun.
meet iL at woodlands interchange at 11.30 am (i was late of course. =X). anyway, took 168 to tampines and changed to 31. decided to abandon the bus halfway because it's taking too long to reach east coast park. took a cab instead. =) iL told me such a funny thing. samuel msg-ed her and ask if he could take a pic with her during the sandcastle training. and she told him if they meet. lOl! i was laughing like mad. it's funny to hear a guy asking that, esp when that guy is like 30 alrd. haa.
had mac for lunch and meet the rest of the myg at the beach. put ALOT of sunblock and thus, i didnt get dark at all!! XP then ice breaking games etc. wreako and posion ball. haa. had some fun playing. and unfortunately, our group was the second last team. and the forfeit is to use your butts and write out minds youth group, and more unfortunately, mr samuel is in our group. =X
sandcastle training briefing! =) a nice guy with a handsome son. lOl. took pics of the son too! he looked kinda like elson. haa. but he's not my type. just kinda like.. eye candy? lOl! anyway, it was really very fun. sandcastle building is not just a cone shape structure with a stick on top anymore. it really is a CASTLE now. a real sandcastle. haa. and im like crazily taking pics and more pics. haa.
took this pics when we went back after dinner. haa.
the sculpture the trainers did. so cool right?
lOl. me and iL behind the 'signboard'. haa!
working in process... you start by building a base.
working in process 2... and you construct your castle on top. with moulds of course!
working in process 3... almost done! touching up.
great pose by the son. lOl.
*snap snap.
that's him at the back. im tyring to act funny. haa.
yellow group's sandcastle. =)
the sandcastle that i did! haa. touched up by others. =)
lishan's group's sandcastle. =)) with a garden in the middle. haa.
backview of lishan's group's sandcastle.
yinhong and christine's sandcastle.
verna and i. =)) she's one of my darlings. haa.
lishan and me! =))
kaishin and me! =)
hui ngee and me! =))
iL and me!! =D
chuan ting and me! =))
oh yar. we saw this rainbow while running about to take pics. =))
jacky's turtle! =))
thats christine and yinhong infront of their sandcastle.
hui ngee and verna. =))
boy! i seriously took alots of pictures! haa. took off halfway to take a break. had a nice coconut drink, and then.... samuel came and destroy the whole relaxed mood. haa. went back, and he took pic with iL. lOl.
fast forward a lil, and it's dinner time. had it at the food centre at east coast. funny qns about the indian infra-red thing. haa. ate chicken wings, hokkien mee, satays, *da tou, and stingray. fabulous meal. haa. went to a beach pub nearby after finishing the food.
introduced the tapping of hand game and 7-up to the 'elderlys'. lOl. and they had so much fun! truth or dare as forfiets. most ppl choose truth of course. haa. some juicy secrets of course! esp from huafang. andrew did a pole dance too! lOl. =)) haa. was kinda told to tone down a lil by the owner of the pub, 'because there are other diners too'. yea! arent we your diners too?? >.<
walked to mac and digging juicy secrets on the way too. haa. from huafang and kaishin. haha! and i told them i wanna marry *da4 shu1* because they are so good! haa. see lar. the 'little bride' influencing me. haa.
took cab back home. =)) munjee's coming over at 11. gonna sleep now.
-pEiShi-
...
meet iL at woodlands interchange at 11.30 am (i was late of course. =X). anyway, took 168 to tampines and changed to 31. decided to abandon the bus halfway because it's taking too long to reach east coast park. took a cab instead. =) iL told me such a funny thing. samuel msg-ed her and ask if he could take a pic with her during the sandcastle training. and she told him if they meet. lOl! i was laughing like mad. it's funny to hear a guy asking that, esp when that guy is like 30 alrd. haa.
had mac for lunch and meet the rest of the myg at the beach. put ALOT of sunblock and thus, i didnt get dark at all!! XP then ice breaking games etc. wreako and posion ball. haa. had some fun playing. and unfortunately, our group was the second last team. and the forfeit is to use your butts and write out minds youth group, and more unfortunately, mr samuel is in our group. =X
sandcastle training briefing! =) a nice guy with a handsome son. lOl. took pics of the son too! he looked kinda like elson. haa. but he's not my type. just kinda like.. eye candy? lOl! anyway, it was really very fun. sandcastle building is not just a cone shape structure with a stick on top anymore. it really is a CASTLE now. a real sandcastle. haa. and im like crazily taking pics and more pics. haa.
took this pics when we went back after dinner. haa.
the sculpture the trainers did. so cool right?
lOl. me and iL behind the 'signboard'. haa!
working in process... you start by building a base.
working in process 2... and you construct your castle on top. with moulds of course!
working in process 3... almost done! touching up.
great pose by the son. lOl.
*snap snap.
that's him at the back. im tyring to act funny. haa.
yellow group's sandcastle. =)
the sandcastle that i did! haa. touched up by others. =)
lishan's group's sandcastle. =)) with a garden in the middle. haa.
backview of lishan's group's sandcastle.
yinhong and christine's sandcastle.
verna and i. =)) she's one of my darlings. haa.
lishan and me! =))
kaishin and me! =)
hui ngee and me! =))
iL and me!! =D
chuan ting and me! =))
oh yar. we saw this rainbow while running about to take pics. =))
jacky's turtle! =))
thats christine and yinhong infront of their sandcastle.
hui ngee and verna. =))
boy! i seriously took alots of pictures! haa. took off halfway to take a break. had a nice coconut drink, and then.... samuel came and destroy the whole relaxed mood. haa. went back, and he took pic with iL. lOl.
fast forward a lil, and it's dinner time. had it at the food centre at east coast. funny qns about the indian infra-red thing. haa. ate chicken wings, hokkien mee, satays, *da tou, and stingray. fabulous meal. haa. went to a beach pub nearby after finishing the food.
introduced the tapping of hand game and 7-up to the 'elderlys'. lOl. and they had so much fun! truth or dare as forfiets. most ppl choose truth of course. haa. some juicy secrets of course! esp from huafang. andrew did a pole dance too! lOl. =)) haa. was kinda told to tone down a lil by the owner of the pub, 'because there are other diners too'. yea! arent we your diners too?? >.<
walked to mac and digging juicy secrets on the way too. haa. from huafang and kaishin. haha! and i told them i wanna marry *da4 shu1* because they are so good! haa. see lar. the 'little bride' influencing me. haa.
took cab back home. =)) munjee's coming over at 11. gonna sleep now.
-pEiShi-
BIG SOBS
Thursday, May 25, 2006
!@#$%& *BIG SOBS. i just realised i've lost my energy's last album!! *weep. i forgot if i have lend to someone or did i misplace it. =( anyway, if i cant find it within a week, im going to buy again. =(
yea. just lend my cam to munjee. =)
nothing much to blog about lately. just that the sandcastle training coming up on sat, and probably going out with lixian on sunday. =) school is quite hectic lately too. have yet to finish up my lesson plans. =(
grrr. i feel sad whenever i see the word 'energy'. =((( what a sad day.
edit: big mistake. my bro took the cd without my permission. it's back with me now. *grins. =)) haha! it's not a bad day afterall. =))
-pEiShi-
...
yea. just lend my cam to munjee. =)
nothing much to blog about lately. just that the sandcastle training coming up on sat, and probably going out with lixian on sunday. =) school is quite hectic lately too. have yet to finish up my lesson plans. =(
grrr. i feel sad whenever i see the word 'energy'. =((( what a sad day.
edit: big mistake. my bro took the cd without my permission. it's back with me now. *grins. =)) haha! it's not a bad day afterall. =))
-pEiShi-
only lonely
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
school ends at 12.45pm. went to meet iL and had a fabulous lunch with her, even though it's only a mos burger meal. haa.
lOl. and we were dreaming of marrying old man. as in really OLD, like 30+? haa! the influence of little bride and 'wo de xiao xiao xing niang'. yea. but everything is a dream. lOl. those 'zhi fu wei hun' will never happen on us. haa.
went to her house and took little bride's vcd for mummy. took 963 and went to cwp (yeah! again! been there 4 or 5 times this week alrd. and it's within 3 days only!=X). hmmm. anyway, helped big bro to return the vcd that he rented from mj. bought my file and returned home. so lonely. =(
watched the vcd with mum. and dinner. =X
yea. xiaoyi asked if i want to go east coast on monday with them anot. they are having holiday alrd. *hmmmppff. i still have school the next day. so think i gonna reject them.
kw talked to me last last night. went back to the old question again. he's still the same. i doubt he's going to change himself bah.
kw: can i ask you a question?
ps: (can i say no? kinda stupid to ask that right?) yea?
kw: did you... occassionally think of me?
ps: ... (how am i supposed to answer that? i was thinking of answering him 'yea. i think of you as a friend.')
ps: can i not answer the question? (the safest way.)
kw: why?
ps: ...! (*dOts man!) cuz i dun feel like answering?
kw: oh. okay. den you dun want to know if i got think of you?
ps: (-_-". actually i dun wish to know.) hmm. i guess im not in the position to ask le bah.
and... everything is back to the old conversation again. a lil dispute from his side. i really dunno how to communicate with him now. and whats more good is that his new nick is 'you will live more happily without me.' sigh.
sigh, tmr end school at 10 o'clock. that SO early! wonder what program the girls have after school. nancy's going to date her mum, so i guess i'll be dating my mum and my bed at the same time, at home. -_-"
going to 'visit' ms oh this sunday. with lixian. =)) fuyong not coming. tianhui not confirmed. havent ask malcolm. jason got to work. and when i asked him about yujun, he said that since he's not going, yujun would not want to go too. lOl! thats like... really so couple! haa. xP yeah. so now, only got lixian and me. *dOts.
-pEiShi-
...
lOl. and we were dreaming of marrying old man. as in really OLD, like 30+? haa! the influence of little bride and 'wo de xiao xiao xing niang'. yea. but everything is a dream. lOl. those 'zhi fu wei hun' will never happen on us. haa.
went to her house and took little bride's vcd for mummy. took 963 and went to cwp (yeah! again! been there 4 or 5 times this week alrd. and it's within 3 days only!=X). hmmm. anyway, helped big bro to return the vcd that he rented from mj. bought my file and returned home. so lonely. =(
watched the vcd with mum. and dinner. =X
yea. xiaoyi asked if i want to go east coast on monday with them anot. they are having holiday alrd. *hmmmppff. i still have school the next day. so think i gonna reject them.
kw talked to me last last night. went back to the old question again. he's still the same. i doubt he's going to change himself bah.
kw: can i ask you a question?
ps: (can i say no? kinda stupid to ask that right?) yea?
kw: did you... occassionally think of me?
ps: ... (how am i supposed to answer that? i was thinking of answering him 'yea. i think of you as a friend.')
ps: can i not answer the question? (the safest way.)
kw: why?
ps: ...! (*dOts man!) cuz i dun feel like answering?
kw: oh. okay. den you dun want to know if i got think of you?
ps: (-_-". actually i dun wish to know.) hmm. i guess im not in the position to ask le bah.
and... everything is back to the old conversation again. a lil dispute from his side. i really dunno how to communicate with him now. and whats more good is that his new nick is 'you will live more happily without me.' sigh.
sigh, tmr end school at 10 o'clock. that SO early! wonder what program the girls have after school. nancy's going to date her mum, so i guess i'll be dating my mum and my bed at the same time, at home. -_-"
going to 'visit' ms oh this sunday. with lixian. =)) fuyong not coming. tianhui not confirmed. havent ask malcolm. jason got to work. and when i asked him about yujun, he said that since he's not going, yujun would not want to go too. lOl! thats like... really so couple! haa. xP yeah. so now, only got lixian and me. *dOts.
-pEiShi-
tormenting or torturing?
Sunday, May 21, 2006
is he tormenting me, or am i torturing him?
-pEiShi-
suffering.
...
-pEiShi-
suffering.
18/19th of may
Saturday, May 20, 2006
promised to blog yesterday, but when i reached home, it's 12 alrd! =X
anyway, starting on the 18th of may. had school in the morning and went out with winnie, jasmine, laura, yixin, loon and terrence. went to have sakae at wheelock place first. it's fun. =)) took alots of pictures too.
yeah. this is cute laura! =))
loon and i! and my hair is messy. lOl.
terrence and i. =)
laura and i.
caught in the act! 2 girls fighting for a guy. =P just kidding.
yeah. some the 'emotion' pics now. this is xi3.
this is nu4. tried to glare, but i think i failed. haha!
err. this is supposed to be ai1. but i guess it dun look like.
thats why i didnt go for ming xing ou xiang right!! =P
yeah! this is le4. haa. i like this pic. =))
after somemore rounds of pic taking with jas's digicam, we left the place and move towards cineleisure. took neoprints. =)) and by the time we are done, it was too late for k-boxing alrd. haa. so we walked ard cine and decided to take a sip at burgur king. chatted a lil, took pics again. =P
went to laura's house to do proj after that! her house's internal design is rather unique. i like the petruding part of the area outside her room. and she had the second floor all by herself! =)) explored her room and got some books from her. talked alot. and everything's a secret! =))
i like her sis. she's really cute. you know what, she's got 3 other siblings. laura's the first one. den oliver. next is vince. lastly, emma. did you notice the first letter of their name? yeah! when you put them together, it's L.O.V.E. so sweet izznt it?! =)) anyway, i was teased by laura for sounding like a typical educator when talking to emma. lOl. i had fun that day. =)
19th of may, which is yesterday. school till 5. did a 'presentation', that is setting up stations and play games with 90 students. haa. it's was so tiring, yet satisfying. laura and i rate it 8/10, and winnie 7.5/10. haa. rebecca and the classes are happy with what we had done. oriel, esther's friend even said we had done very well, and thanked us for that! *grins.
met malcolm and fuyong after school. thanks laura for offering to bring me to ps. haa. but anyway, took cab to dobby gout because of change of plan. and gosh! i dun recognise fuyong! haa. malcolm is such a gentleman to take my heavy paper bag filled with books for me. =) walked to paradiz plaza and met up with lixian and tianhui. had dinner at food junction after walking to bugis. headed for minds cafe after fuyong left for home. i was so excited! haa.
we had such a great time there! *grins. hope to go back soon. we played cluedo, trading, the hand game and 2 0r 3 other more. it's so fun!! haa. i cant describe everything here, but you've got to try it out yourself. =)) in the end, the losers of 2 games got to pay for the other 2 drinks. tianhui and i lost the games! haa. and opps! i forgot to take pics with malcolm! haa.
a long talk with lixian on the train home. =)) i guess she knows about it long ago. and im tired alrd.
yea. going to ep later. kinda unwilling because grace and guirong are not coming today. nevertheless, i still have munjee right? =))
-pEiShi-
i give up.
...
anyway, starting on the 18th of may. had school in the morning and went out with winnie, jasmine, laura, yixin, loon and terrence. went to have sakae at wheelock place first. it's fun. =)) took alots of pictures too.
yeah. this is cute laura! =))
loon and i! and my hair is messy. lOl.
terrence and i. =)
laura and i.
caught in the act! 2 girls fighting for a guy. =P just kidding.
yeah. some the 'emotion' pics now. this is xi3.
this is nu4. tried to glare, but i think i failed. haha!
err. this is supposed to be ai1. but i guess it dun look like.
thats why i didnt go for ming xing ou xiang right!! =P
yeah! this is le4. haa. i like this pic. =))
after somemore rounds of pic taking with jas's digicam, we left the place and move towards cineleisure. took neoprints. =)) and by the time we are done, it was too late for k-boxing alrd. haa. so we walked ard cine and decided to take a sip at burgur king. chatted a lil, took pics again. =P
went to laura's house to do proj after that! her house's internal design is rather unique. i like the petruding part of the area outside her room. and she had the second floor all by herself! =)) explored her room and got some books from her. talked alot. and everything's a secret! =))
i like her sis. she's really cute. you know what, she's got 3 other siblings. laura's the first one. den oliver. next is vince. lastly, emma. did you notice the first letter of their name? yeah! when you put them together, it's L.O.V.E. so sweet izznt it?! =)) anyway, i was teased by laura for sounding like a typical educator when talking to emma. lOl. i had fun that day. =)
19th of may, which is yesterday. school till 5. did a 'presentation', that is setting up stations and play games with 90 students. haa. it's was so tiring, yet satisfying. laura and i rate it 8/10, and winnie 7.5/10. haa. rebecca and the classes are happy with what we had done. oriel, esther's friend even said we had done very well, and thanked us for that! *grins.
met malcolm and fuyong after school. thanks laura for offering to bring me to ps. haa. but anyway, took cab to dobby gout because of change of plan. and gosh! i dun recognise fuyong! haa. malcolm is such a gentleman to take my heavy paper bag filled with books for me. =) walked to paradiz plaza and met up with lixian and tianhui. had dinner at food junction after walking to bugis. headed for minds cafe after fuyong left for home. i was so excited! haa.
we had such a great time there! *grins. hope to go back soon. we played cluedo, trading, the hand game and 2 0r 3 other more. it's so fun!! haa. i cant describe everything here, but you've got to try it out yourself. =)) in the end, the losers of 2 games got to pay for the other 2 drinks. tianhui and i lost the games! haa. and opps! i forgot to take pics with malcolm! haa.
a long talk with lixian on the train home. =)) i guess she knows about it long ago. and im tired alrd.
yea. going to ep later. kinda unwilling because grace and guirong are not coming today. nevertheless, i still have munjee right? =))
-pEiShi-
i give up.
running alone
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
hmmm. it's tiring to talk to an old man like guan wee. =X and he's getting married next month! =))
talked to cheng han. finally. haa. =)) missed him and everyone else.
was looking at cheongkeat's blog. still so crappy.
went jogging this evening. ALONE. sounded pathetic right? haa. you see, the feeling of running comes so suddenly. and there's so lil friend of mine living ard me. so i decided to go run before it rains. not going to try running alone anymore. so lonely.
-pEiShi-
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talked to cheng han. finally. haa. =)) missed him and everyone else.
was looking at cheongkeat's blog. still so crappy.
went jogging this evening. ALONE. sounded pathetic right? haa. you see, the feeling of running comes so suddenly. and there's so lil friend of mine living ard me. so i decided to go run before it rains. not going to try running alone anymore. so lonely.
-pEiShi-
waiting for fri
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
lixian keep teasing me abt mal and gl! grrr. gonna get even with her someday. haa.
sunshine after the rain for me and iL. *grins. dun really wish to elaborate, but we're just fine alrd, like a couples fighting. =) she's still my darling, and im still her honey. =))
laura asked if i've changed my blog url. but i told her i've took the whole blog away. yups. i didnt lie okay! i took the whole blog away, and brought it to somewhere else. lOl. =X so evil.
thanks for you-know-who-you-are, for giving advice on what to do with iL and me. thanks! and did you console me? lOl. cant rem! but thanks for listening and the advice anyway. *muacks! *big grins.
talked to lixian on the phone couples of hours before. talked for an hour plus again. gosh. girls are really talkative. lOl! =P decided to meet on fri. she suggested. =) but now have to see who's going. waiting for tianhui's reply. not sure if im asking malcolm or fuyong they all anot. either for a dinner or dinner plus movie bah. =) missed her.
gonna do my fm homework now. grrr. help! *fainting.
-pEiShi-
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sunshine after the rain for me and iL. *grins. dun really wish to elaborate, but we're just fine alrd, like a couples fighting. =) she's still my darling, and im still her honey. =))
laura asked if i've changed my blog url. but i told her i've took the whole blog away. yups. i didnt lie okay! i took the whole blog away, and brought it to somewhere else. lOl. =X so evil.
thanks for you-know-who-you-are, for giving advice on what to do with iL and me. thanks! and did you console me? lOl. cant rem! but thanks for listening and the advice anyway. *muacks! *big grins.
talked to lixian on the phone couples of hours before. talked for an hour plus again. gosh. girls are really talkative. lOl! =P decided to meet on fri. she suggested. =) but now have to see who's going. waiting for tianhui's reply. not sure if im asking malcolm or fuyong they all anot. either for a dinner or dinner plus movie bah. =) missed her.
gonna do my fm homework now. grrr. help! *fainting.
-pEiShi-
loser
Monday, May 15, 2006
looking at iL's mail, i've suddenly realised how i've changed. it's so scary, and i cant stop crying.
what had happened to me? wasnt i always so rational? wasnt i always so just? since when did i got so superficial? since when did i got so tipped-headed??!!!
pls. dun say how sensible, how strong i've been all this while. im not sensible at all! im not strong at all! i need someone to listen to me too. i need a shoulder to cry on, to listen to me cry too. why was i always dun dare to cry infront of others? why cant i be like other ppl, be true to themselves and cry as and when they like? i dun like to hide, but i felt a need to. why is it so??!!!! why is it that i am so afraid to show my weaknesses to others?
i've always lied to myself. lied to myself for so long. about what a strong girl i am. always prepared and able to take whatever it comes. but im lying. that makes me a liar right? im not as perfect as i seemed. even if grace and others said how princess im, so lady-liked, etc, but deep down, i know, im not.
im trying to be very honest with myself now. im extremely afraid and frightened of myself now. what have i become? how have i changed?? do i always have to live in ppl's expectations?? i've live in that far too long.
-pEiShi-
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what had happened to me? wasnt i always so rational? wasnt i always so just? since when did i got so superficial? since when did i got so tipped-headed??!!!
pls. dun say how sensible, how strong i've been all this while. im not sensible at all! im not strong at all! i need someone to listen to me too. i need a shoulder to cry on, to listen to me cry too. why was i always dun dare to cry infront of others? why cant i be like other ppl, be true to themselves and cry as and when they like? i dun like to hide, but i felt a need to. why is it so??!!!! why is it that i am so afraid to show my weaknesses to others?
i've always lied to myself. lied to myself for so long. about what a strong girl i am. always prepared and able to take whatever it comes. but im lying. that makes me a liar right? im not as perfect as i seemed. even if grace and others said how princess im, so lady-liked, etc, but deep down, i know, im not.
im trying to be very honest with myself now. im extremely afraid and frightened of myself now. what have i become? how have i changed?? do i always have to live in ppl's expectations?? i've live in that far too long.
-pEiShi-
silly mummy
Sunday, May 14, 2006
mummy's so silly. haa. she woke up from the nap, and tell me that she had a dream. today, which is mothers' day, all of us were supposed to go out for dinner. but she dreamt that i dun want to go. lOl. she was like, hmmm. rather frightened? haa. =X
then i told her dream is usually different from reality. and i said im most willing to go out for dinner with her. guess when she dreamt that, she thought that she's losing her daughter. nah. i'll be with you forever okay? =) haa.
had a fabulous dinner. not because of the food, but with the ppl and of course, plus mothers' day! =) sent her a msg in the after by telling her i love her and wished her happy mothers' day. haa. she told us the 3 of us, as in we, her children, are supposed to buy presents for her and have dinner on mothers' day after we worked. haa. and she wanted things like rings, necklaces, watches, earings and etc. haa. i know she's joking. so i said i would draw her one after we go home. haa. =P
mummy, i really love you okay? although i didnt give present to you, but my love is deep from my heart. =)) *grins.
-pEiShi-
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then i told her dream is usually different from reality. and i said im most willing to go out for dinner with her. guess when she dreamt that, she thought that she's losing her daughter. nah. i'll be with you forever okay? =) haa.
had a fabulous dinner. not because of the food, but with the ppl and of course, plus mothers' day! =) sent her a msg in the after by telling her i love her and wished her happy mothers' day. haa. she told us the 3 of us, as in we, her children, are supposed to buy presents for her and have dinner on mothers' day after we worked. haa. and she wanted things like rings, necklaces, watches, earings and etc. haa. i know she's joking. so i said i would draw her one after we go home. haa. =P
mummy, i really love you okay? although i didnt give present to you, but my love is deep from my heart. =)) *grins.
-pEiShi-
ironic
i felt so ironic on sat. to be celebrating and grieving on the same day.
went back on fri afternoon. got the ball from tianhui. and shun bian watched 'when a stranger calls' with him. hmm. thats what i feel lar. shun bian...
supposed to meet munjee after that. but decided to meet grace instead. went back home. hmm. guess mum and dad really changed. lOl. if it's in the past, they will scream at me for coming home late esp when i know that we are going back to m'sia. but they didnt. mum just told me to pack my bag. cant rem when was the last time that i've got scoldings from both of them alrd. mths or even a yr le bah. o.o
steamboat at night. the priest came over on sat morning. went to the graveyard and visit my grandfather. watched project superband with the others. den mum came out with cutted pineapple. i dun eat that. but mum said it's the last pineapple that grandfather grew, and she insisted that i would take one piece. of course, i took the smallest piece. it's more than 10 years since my last pineapple. i took one bite and big bro finished up the rest for me. grandfather, i ate your pineapple le okay? =)
cant rem what i did after that. went back to father's side house. had an afternoon nap. a wonderful mother's day meal and had bbq after that.
oh yeah. a new baby this year. and another one next year! =) shen shen is pregnant alrd. haa. shu shu is so 'powderful'. haa. just married 2 mths and they've got pregnant alrd. =)
it's mother's day. mummy, happy mothers' day okay? =) i love you, mummy.
-pEiShi-
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went back on fri afternoon. got the ball from tianhui. and shun bian watched 'when a stranger calls' with him. hmm. thats what i feel lar. shun bian...
supposed to meet munjee after that. but decided to meet grace instead. went back home. hmm. guess mum and dad really changed. lOl. if it's in the past, they will scream at me for coming home late esp when i know that we are going back to m'sia. but they didnt. mum just told me to pack my bag. cant rem when was the last time that i've got scoldings from both of them alrd. mths or even a yr le bah. o.o
steamboat at night. the priest came over on sat morning. went to the graveyard and visit my grandfather. watched project superband with the others. den mum came out with cutted pineapple. i dun eat that. but mum said it's the last pineapple that grandfather grew, and she insisted that i would take one piece. of course, i took the smallest piece. it's more than 10 years since my last pineapple. i took one bite and big bro finished up the rest for me. grandfather, i ate your pineapple le okay? =)
cant rem what i did after that. went back to father's side house. had an afternoon nap. a wonderful mother's day meal and had bbq after that.
oh yeah. a new baby this year. and another one next year! =) shen shen is pregnant alrd. haa. shu shu is so 'powderful'. haa. just married 2 mths and they've got pregnant alrd. =)
it's mother's day. mummy, happy mothers' day okay? =) i love you, mummy.
-pEiShi-
poseidon
Thursday, May 11, 2006
2 hours of school today actually, but extra lesson for sam. grr. till 3.
for 1st hour of financial mgmt, i TOTALLY dun understand what the lecturer is talking abt. and thats really bad! what debit, credit, expenses, revenue, liabilities etc. bad headache this morning. 2nd hour was much better. worksheets. =)
nancy told me she almost weep when looking at my entries! nancy nancy. dun cry okay? it's alright. just some of my thoughts. im feeling sad because i care. and you feel the same too? =) just rem to treasure the ones beside you. =) love ya!
decided to go to ubi to have lunch. at winnie's parents' shop. eat yong tau fu. winnie's parents' treat. so long in the first time that i almost finish a bowl of something. haa. did aw discussion with nancy. quite nice working with her. lOl. went back to sch again.
felt quite sick on the bus. stomach turning upside down. got down at one of the stop and took cab back to sch. =) and thanks laura, jasmine whom keep finding seats and wanting me to sit down. lOl.
met mh after sch at cck. almost got drenched. can imagine that my flu is getting worse. anyway, met the others, like siying, munjee, darrell, xiaoyi, yong hwee and silvia at jp. dinner at kfc. so heaty! and i forgot all abt my fever. grrr.
poseidon was not bad. a lil crappy. and i cried during the first 15 mins when the ship sank. so useless. lOl. watching when a stranger calls tmr! yeah! *grin. =)
had a long talk with lixian. =) so long since our last call. haa. and darrell tay sent xiao yi home! haa. till her house. so nice! lOl. guess xiaoyi must be flying over the moon alrd. haa. =D
super tired. got to buy frisbees, goodie bags and get balls for ep anniversary. sometimes i wonder why do i work so hard? thanks for guirong who helped me ALL THE WHILE. i need a break.
-pEiShi-
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for 1st hour of financial mgmt, i TOTALLY dun understand what the lecturer is talking abt. and thats really bad! what debit, credit, expenses, revenue, liabilities etc. bad headache this morning. 2nd hour was much better. worksheets. =)
nancy told me she almost weep when looking at my entries! nancy nancy. dun cry okay? it's alright. just some of my thoughts. im feeling sad because i care. and you feel the same too? =) just rem to treasure the ones beside you. =) love ya!
decided to go to ubi to have lunch. at winnie's parents' shop. eat yong tau fu. winnie's parents' treat. so long in the first time that i almost finish a bowl of something. haa. did aw discussion with nancy. quite nice working with her. lOl. went back to sch again.
felt quite sick on the bus. stomach turning upside down. got down at one of the stop and took cab back to sch. =) and thanks laura, jasmine whom keep finding seats and wanting me to sit down. lOl.
met mh after sch at cck. almost got drenched. can imagine that my flu is getting worse. anyway, met the others, like siying, munjee, darrell, xiaoyi, yong hwee and silvia at jp. dinner at kfc. so heaty! and i forgot all abt my fever. grrr.
poseidon was not bad. a lil crappy. and i cried during the first 15 mins when the ship sank. so useless. lOl. watching when a stranger calls tmr! yeah! *grin. =)
had a long talk with lixian. =) so long since our last call. haa. and darrell tay sent xiao yi home! haa. till her house. so nice! lOl. guess xiaoyi must be flying over the moon alrd. haa. =D
super tired. got to buy frisbees, goodie bags and get balls for ep anniversary. sometimes i wonder why do i work so hard? thanks for guirong who helped me ALL THE WHILE. i need a break.
-pEiShi-
orchard today!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
skipped dinner today. =X ate really lil today. one siew mai, one shao bao, half pancake-noddle (shared with mh) and half a cup of ice-cream shared with mh too. pray hard that i wun get gastric. sigh.
initiae plan for today after school is going to bugis with mh. haa. actually, i called her in the morning only. 'cause feel like going out. hmmm. financial mgmt tutorial today. not that bad. all i can say is that accounting is making my mind in a whirl. =S lynn heng class after that. felt that she wasnt feeling great today. as in a lil pms lar. haa.
hmmm. met baohui to get back my vcds. and idiot. supposed to meet yw to get back my money. but he got no school today. originally was to get from him yesterday. but shuay shuay, the atm spoiled. super pissed. he ask me to get my money back from jason they all first. like he no need to pay me back izzit? *pissed.
anyway, mh msg and told me she got to take a retest. grrr. the mood went down even more. went to lot 1 library and look ard while waiting for time to pass. not long lar. just half an hour only. thanks goodness. bought 2 hairband before that. and i dunno what's the use of buying 2 hairbands when i only have 1 head. haa. =X den took bus to her school and off we went to orchard tgt with xiao yi.
xiao yi was still troubled by dt in the afternoon. lOl. so we walked ard. went to adidas shop, nike shop etc. went pacific plaza, hereen and taka. well. haa. i bought 2 shirts! almost bought a super short skirt. but decided that i wun wear that skirt out of my house. lOl. and mh bought a nike water bottle for me. haa. supposed to pay for it myself, but she's soooooo kind to me! *wahaha.
i've realised i've got 2 very very bad habit when im sad. haa. mayb not habit lar, more towards behaviour that i will display bah. not going tell you unless you know me very well lar. haa.
going out with mh, xiao yi again tmr. with munjee, siying and most prob darrell tay. haa. xiao yi was so excited when she heard dt is going tmr. and she practically screamed at orchard. mh's something liddat too. felt so embarrassed. haa. =P and i forbid them to come close to me until they switch back to normal mode. lOl.
im tired.
-pEiShi-
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initiae plan for today after school is going to bugis with mh. haa. actually, i called her in the morning only. 'cause feel like going out. hmmm. financial mgmt tutorial today. not that bad. all i can say is that accounting is making my mind in a whirl. =S lynn heng class after that. felt that she wasnt feeling great today. as in a lil pms lar. haa.
hmmm. met baohui to get back my vcds. and idiot. supposed to meet yw to get back my money. but he got no school today. originally was to get from him yesterday. but shuay shuay, the atm spoiled. super pissed. he ask me to get my money back from jason they all first. like he no need to pay me back izzit? *pissed.
anyway, mh msg and told me she got to take a retest. grrr. the mood went down even more. went to lot 1 library and look ard while waiting for time to pass. not long lar. just half an hour only. thanks goodness. bought 2 hairband before that. and i dunno what's the use of buying 2 hairbands when i only have 1 head. haa. =X den took bus to her school and off we went to orchard tgt with xiao yi.
xiao yi was still troubled by dt in the afternoon. lOl. so we walked ard. went to adidas shop, nike shop etc. went pacific plaza, hereen and taka. well. haa. i bought 2 shirts! almost bought a super short skirt. but decided that i wun wear that skirt out of my house. lOl. and mh bought a nike water bottle for me. haa. supposed to pay for it myself, but she's soooooo kind to me! *wahaha.
i've realised i've got 2 very very bad habit when im sad. haa. mayb not habit lar, more towards behaviour that i will display bah. not going tell you unless you know me very well lar. haa.
going out with mh, xiao yi again tmr. with munjee, siying and most prob darrell tay. haa. xiao yi was so excited when she heard dt is going tmr. and she practically screamed at orchard. mh's something liddat too. felt so embarrassed. haa. =P and i forbid them to come close to me until they switch back to normal mode. lOl.
im tired.
-pEiShi-
wished that he's there
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
ended call with mh just now. hmm. supposed to be me consoling her, but ended up the other way round.
she's feeling sad. all because of that *********. kinda dislike him for being wishy washy. what does he really want? cant he be more precise and straightforward? lousy guy. yup yups. mh must be feeling *xing teng to see me scolding him. but i more xing teng my best friend okay? so mh, be strong. =)
hmm. how did it end up being her consoling me? haa. you see... we talked for about more than an hour. and suddenly brought up being used to something. xi guan. and i told her xi guan doesnt mean that the wound wun tear up someday. and suddenly, i felt my wound tearing... i missed my grandfather. and of course, i cried. terribly. like a small kid. gosh. feel like crying when typing this entry. =(
i thought i was xi guan to not having him around. like we went to kuantan, we went through yi's marriage registration. but, he wasnt there with us. he didnt get to see his beloved daughter getting married. he wun get to enjoy the joy of family again. he didnt get to see his grand-children for the last time. we didnt get to say goodbye to him. we didnt get to hug him for the last time. we cant talk to him anymore. it's so heartbreaking. it's was only like 2 days earlier that we just came back from new year holiday with him. we were enjoying ourselves happily for new year. we even had a new year trip. but 2 days later. what happened? he's gone! and it's still within the new year period. he's gone forever.
i didnt want to think that he's gone after his funeral. i tried to numb myself and stop thinking about it. but it just came back to me suddenly that i realise my grandfather is not going to be there for us anymore. the lively, strong and knowledgeable grandfather. so xi guan is not a good thing. when it comes back to you, it will hit you like you've never felt before. i miss him dearly. i cant imagine im still crying after so long. maybe not that long. it's his 100th day this week. everyone tried to hold back their tears when we went back to the place that we last went with him during the new year trip. and even stayed in the same room. i wish i could reverse time.
so, mh ended up consoling me instead. im sad. wish that he's there.
-pEiShi-
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she's feeling sad. all because of that *********. kinda dislike him for being wishy washy. what does he really want? cant he be more precise and straightforward? lousy guy. yup yups. mh must be feeling *xing teng to see me scolding him. but i more xing teng my best friend okay? so mh, be strong. =)
hmm. how did it end up being her consoling me? haa. you see... we talked for about more than an hour. and suddenly brought up being used to something. xi guan. and i told her xi guan doesnt mean that the wound wun tear up someday. and suddenly, i felt my wound tearing... i missed my grandfather. and of course, i cried. terribly. like a small kid. gosh. feel like crying when typing this entry. =(
i thought i was xi guan to not having him around. like we went to kuantan, we went through yi's marriage registration. but, he wasnt there with us. he didnt get to see his beloved daughter getting married. he wun get to enjoy the joy of family again. he didnt get to see his grand-children for the last time. we didnt get to say goodbye to him. we didnt get to hug him for the last time. we cant talk to him anymore. it's so heartbreaking. it's was only like 2 days earlier that we just came back from new year holiday with him. we were enjoying ourselves happily for new year. we even had a new year trip. but 2 days later. what happened? he's gone! and it's still within the new year period. he's gone forever.
i didnt want to think that he's gone after his funeral. i tried to numb myself and stop thinking about it. but it just came back to me suddenly that i realise my grandfather is not going to be there for us anymore. the lively, strong and knowledgeable grandfather. so xi guan is not a good thing. when it comes back to you, it will hit you like you've never felt before. i miss him dearly. i cant imagine im still crying after so long. maybe not that long. it's his 100th day this week. everyone tried to hold back their tears when we went back to the place that we last went with him during the new year trip. and even stayed in the same room. i wish i could reverse time.
so, mh ended up consoling me instead. im sad. wish that he's there.
-pEiShi-
ah-choo!
Monday, May 08, 2006
*sniff. im sneezing. it's cold tonight. *sneeze!
-pEiShi-
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my darling and i during the kuantan trip. *wahaha.
lOl. firstly, apologies to the error of last entry. haa! it's AW quiz, not SAM! haa! =X so sorry to nancy that i scared you. haa! =P
anyway, first day of attachment for the academic year. hmmm. not that bad lar. haa. get to know some really cute kids, like alicia, you chun, dawn etc. lOl. =) 2hrs of allowance was enough for me to go back home den go to school. but for the rest, the time is tight. so i guess there's always advantage if the centre is near your house. haa. think the centre is 1/2 hr away from pam's house. =X
aw quiz today. about 'the little prince'. not that bad. haa. think so far got 1 answer wrong only? =X the stupid snake part. why lil prince dun want to meet fox first before meeting the stupid snake. one mark gone. =S
super tired today.
-pEiShi-
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the newly weds!
how sweet! look at the bride's smile. *grin.
arent this chubby kid cute? haa!
my cousins. sweet lil angels. =)
what a sweet bouquet of flowers! haa. but i would prefer a bouquet of tulips. =)
liqi and me. with my weird hair. =(
me and my new shirt. =) without my head. and with my piano. haa.
ta-ta! xiao ah yi (yi) is finally married to zheng xiao long today! *grin. cute name right? haa.
anyway, starting from sat. went back in the noon. cutted my hair. gosh. that woman cutted till so short! i mean my fringe. grrr. and i look so silly with the short fringe. =(
went to gu-gu's new house. had a nice afternoon nap. =) and it's buffet time! haa. and guess what? zhou wei xian came! lOl. my childhood playmate! haa. missed him so much. his face looked kinda chubby now. haa. but still so cute. and he looked smart in his specs. =)
went over to xiao jiu mu's house in the later night. watched the news for the election and talked a lil with yi and shirley. =)
sunday morning time! haa. it's yi's big day! woke up quite late and prepare to go for the registration. videoed da-jiu's speech and their vows. so sweet! haa. yi smiled sweetly and held hands with the newly-wed husband. haa. she simply looked contented and xing fu. =) i helped yi hold her bouquet and they said i looked like a bride! haa. =X probably because i was wearing white lar. haa.
home sweet home after that. =)
first attachment of the sem tmr. new centre. near the american school at 300+. =) hope it turns out well. SAM quiz tmr. *pray hard. new blogskin. words are kinda small. in fact, very small. =X
-pEiShi-
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-pEiShi-
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my darling and i during the kuantan trip. *wahaha.
lOl. firstly, apologies to the error of last entry. haa! it's AW quiz, not SAM! haa! =X so sorry to nancy that i scared you. haa! =P
anyway, first day of attachment for the academic year. hmmm. not that bad lar. haa. get to know some really cute kids, like alicia, you chun, dawn etc. lOl. =) 2hrs of allowance was enough for me to go back home den go to school. but for the rest, the time is tight. so i guess there's always advantage if the centre is near your house. haa. think the centre is 1/2 hr away from pam's house. =X
aw quiz today. about 'the little prince'. not that bad. haa. think so far got 1 answer wrong only? =X the stupid snake part. why lil prince dun want to meet fox first before meeting the stupid snake. one mark gone. =S
super tired today.
-pEiShi-
happily married =)
Sunday, May 07, 2006
the newly weds!
how sweet! look at the bride's smile. *grin.
arent this chubby kid cute? haa!
my cousins. sweet lil angels. =)
what a sweet bouquet of flowers! haa. but i would prefer a bouquet of tulips. =)
liqi and me. with my weird hair. =(
me and my new shirt. =) without my head. and with my piano. haa.
ta-ta! xiao ah yi (yi) is finally married to zheng xiao long today! *grin. cute name right? haa.
anyway, starting from sat. went back in the noon. cutted my hair. gosh. that woman cutted till so short! i mean my fringe. grrr. and i look so silly with the short fringe. =(
went to gu-gu's new house. had a nice afternoon nap. =) and it's buffet time! haa. and guess what? zhou wei xian came! lOl. my childhood playmate! haa. missed him so much. his face looked kinda chubby now. haa. but still so cute. and he looked smart in his specs. =)
went over to xiao jiu mu's house in the later night. watched the news for the election and talked a lil with yi and shirley. =)
sunday morning time! haa. it's yi's big day! woke up quite late and prepare to go for the registration. videoed da-jiu's speech and their vows. so sweet! haa. yi smiled sweetly and held hands with the newly-wed husband. haa. she simply looked contented and xing fu. =) i helped yi hold her bouquet and they said i looked like a bride! haa. =X probably because i was wearing white lar. haa.
home sweet home after that. =)
first attachment of the sem tmr. new centre. near the american school at 300+. =) hope it turns out well. SAM quiz tmr. *pray hard. new blogskin. words are kinda small. in fact, very small. =X
-pEiShi-
roller coaster ride
Saturday, May 06, 2006
my life is like a roller coaster ride now. sometims high, sometimes low.
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aunt is getting married! =)
Friday, May 05, 2006
ta-ta! im back! haa.
went to esther auntie house yesterday. lOl. her model for the day for her make-up project. haa. it was like thick make-up, i dun dare to take pics of it! lOl.
nothing much this 2 days. but xiao ah-yi is finally getting married this sunday! *wahaha! could have gone back only on sunday, since she's only going for registration, not dinner or what. but gu-gu's house warming on sat. den have to go back. lOl.
*grin. cant stop smiling. it's like a week since we last met? haa. kinda missed it. =) anita asked me if i had a bf now. and i told her no. =X and she had one for 3 mths alrd! haa. imagine anita!!! haa. and she sounded so xin fu. lOl. =)
sock ruan is married and has a 2 yrs old baby girl. how great! and she's only 19 this year? *gosh! =)
-pEiShi-
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went to esther auntie house yesterday. lOl. her model for the day for her make-up project. haa. it was like thick make-up, i dun dare to take pics of it! lOl.
nothing much this 2 days. but xiao ah-yi is finally getting married this sunday! *wahaha! could have gone back only on sunday, since she's only going for registration, not dinner or what. but gu-gu's house warming on sat. den have to go back. lOl.
*grin. cant stop smiling. it's like a week since we last met? haa. kinda missed it. =) anita asked me if i had a bf now. and i told her no. =X and she had one for 3 mths alrd! haa. imagine anita!!! haa. and she sounded so xin fu. lOl. =)
sock ruan is married and has a 2 yrs old baby girl. how great! and she's only 19 this year? *gosh! =)
-pEiShi-
im sorry
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
1 same question asked by 2 person. 2 diff answer were given to them. now den i know 'do you miss me?'s answer can be so subjective. i always thought it was rather, hmm, like a standard answer to that standard question. that is, saying 'yes' is the best thing? but i couldnt lie to him, so i told him no. and he sounded disappointed...
lying is not a good thing. even if disappointment is the end result of the honest output to the question. at least im being honest? but izzit worth being honest when it includes hurting someone with your simple answer?
im sorry.
i truely am.
jason's nick's really cute. and sweet. 'i dont want you, cause i need you.'
-pEiShi-
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shirley and me.
yeah. finally back from the not-so-long holiday. =)
rushed out my ppt slides for ep anniversay on fri night. till 3. broke down right after talking to someone. and when that person offline, it seems like the world left me only. felt that the stress is getting too much alrd. ernest just talked to me too. he heard that im too stressed out alrd. keep telling me that i can count on him. lOl.
woke up at 5, after a less than 2 hours of sleep. the first day begun! =) sit for 5 hours of car ride to kuantan. thats so long! check in at the resort, and went to search for lunch. the whole place was so peaceful. not much ppl on the road, and you can smell the salty wind because it's so near the sea! =)
went to the beach. built a sandcastle with my cousins and cousin's friends whom we met there. got dunk into the sea by MR NG JUN WEI while trying to dig hole to bury my dad. lOl. they were so rough! my cousins, jun wei, weipeng, shirley, shih lei and my beloved bro pulled, tugged and throw me into the sea! *ouch! butt pain. lOl. soon, everyone got dunk into the pool one by one. haa. it's fun, and the sea is clean. the beach has alot of hermit crab! small ones. haa.
dinner time. shirley was quite irritated by xiao jiu mu's maid. =X the food was not bad, but i didnt eat the prawns. =( scared allergic.
wanted to buy vodka and beers to play games in the night. but they didnt sell beer in petrol station. haa. instead, went back to the resort and took tons of pics. shall upload it next time. haa.
2nd day. woke up for buffet breakfast and set off for genting. another 3 hours of car ride before we reach there. haa. didnt go theme park this time. didnt have enough time. feeling kinda excited because this is the first time so long that er jiu's family came with us. and there were like 20+ of us! *grin. but, without grandfather. it's such an coincidence that we took back the same room that he stayed in during the new year time, before he passed away a few days later. and iactually slept in that room! not that i feel close to him or what, but i missed him. everyone got kinda emotional while talking about it. =(
walked ard, sing karaoke, shopping, watch *yan hua and played arcade that night. played animal games with my cousins and i got forfeited! =X went out in the cold night and ate some supper. bought starbucks and everyone gathered back in my room. and.... we started gossiping about anita, xiao jiu mu's maid. haa. and! we talked a lil bit of ghost story! i was lying on the bed, shirley was telling it and jun wei suddenly jumped onto the bed to beside me. because i din realised it, so when i turned and saw him so close to me, i screamed! he freaked out by my scream, and everyone was too! =S lOl. didnt mean too lar. everyone started running towards me and hug one another! lOl.
suddenly, we heard the doorbell. it was real. and the guys went to see who was it. and no one was there! freaked out again. everyone started screaming and panic. talked a lil bit more and everyone dispersed because they didnt want to stay in that room. jun wei wanted to tell me abt the np scary stories. but i shut him up. cuz im going to there for 2 more years! haa. and shih lei didnt want to sleep. shirley and i talked abt it later and feels that she is probably afraid that everything will turn back to square one when either her mum or my mum explode. =(
slept at shirley's room because mummy and dad were not back. it was ard 4 near 5 then. =X at casino until dunno how to come back. went back the next day afternoon. had a feast lunch and 4 hours of ca ride back to m'sia's home. another feast dinner. i think i've gained back some of the weight after this trip. we are eating really good food whenever we are out as a family. imagined every meal cost us at least 500 bucks. =X fishes, prawns, crabs and chicken/duck every meal. =S
shirley, shih lei and i were feeling kinda sad at the dinner just now because it seems like everything is going to end, and we are back to our own lifes again. =( and even week time table was like hell! =(
-pEiShi-
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lying is not a good thing. even if disappointment is the end result of the honest output to the question. at least im being honest? but izzit worth being honest when it includes hurting someone with your simple answer?
im sorry.
i truely am.
jason's nick's really cute. and sweet. 'i dont want you, cause i need you.'
-pEiShi-
kuantan trip
Monday, May 01, 2006
shirley and me.
yeah. finally back from the not-so-long holiday. =)
rushed out my ppt slides for ep anniversay on fri night. till 3. broke down right after talking to someone. and when that person offline, it seems like the world left me only. felt that the stress is getting too much alrd. ernest just talked to me too. he heard that im too stressed out alrd. keep telling me that i can count on him. lOl.
woke up at 5, after a less than 2 hours of sleep. the first day begun! =) sit for 5 hours of car ride to kuantan. thats so long! check in at the resort, and went to search for lunch. the whole place was so peaceful. not much ppl on the road, and you can smell the salty wind because it's so near the sea! =)
went to the beach. built a sandcastle with my cousins and cousin's friends whom we met there. got dunk into the sea by MR NG JUN WEI while trying to dig hole to bury my dad. lOl. they were so rough! my cousins, jun wei, weipeng, shirley, shih lei and my beloved bro pulled, tugged and throw me into the sea! *ouch! butt pain. lOl. soon, everyone got dunk into the pool one by one. haa. it's fun, and the sea is clean. the beach has alot of hermit crab! small ones. haa.
dinner time. shirley was quite irritated by xiao jiu mu's maid. =X the food was not bad, but i didnt eat the prawns. =( scared allergic.
wanted to buy vodka and beers to play games in the night. but they didnt sell beer in petrol station. haa. instead, went back to the resort and took tons of pics. shall upload it next time. haa.
2nd day. woke up for buffet breakfast and set off for genting. another 3 hours of car ride before we reach there. haa. didnt go theme park this time. didnt have enough time. feeling kinda excited because this is the first time so long that er jiu's family came with us. and there were like 20+ of us! *grin. but, without grandfather. it's such an coincidence that we took back the same room that he stayed in during the new year time, before he passed away a few days later. and iactually slept in that room! not that i feel close to him or what, but i missed him. everyone got kinda emotional while talking about it. =(
walked ard, sing karaoke, shopping, watch *yan hua and played arcade that night. played animal games with my cousins and i got forfeited! =X went out in the cold night and ate some supper. bought starbucks and everyone gathered back in my room. and.... we started gossiping about anita, xiao jiu mu's maid. haa. and! we talked a lil bit of ghost story! i was lying on the bed, shirley was telling it and jun wei suddenly jumped onto the bed to beside me. because i din realised it, so when i turned and saw him so close to me, i screamed! he freaked out by my scream, and everyone was too! =S lOl. didnt mean too lar. everyone started running towards me and hug one another! lOl.
suddenly, we heard the doorbell. it was real. and the guys went to see who was it. and no one was there! freaked out again. everyone started screaming and panic. talked a lil bit more and everyone dispersed because they didnt want to stay in that room. jun wei wanted to tell me abt the np scary stories. but i shut him up. cuz im going to there for 2 more years! haa. and shih lei didnt want to sleep. shirley and i talked abt it later and feels that she is probably afraid that everything will turn back to square one when either her mum or my mum explode. =(
slept at shirley's room because mummy and dad were not back. it was ard 4 near 5 then. =X at casino until dunno how to come back. went back the next day afternoon. had a feast lunch and 4 hours of ca ride back to m'sia's home. another feast dinner. i think i've gained back some of the weight after this trip. we are eating really good food whenever we are out as a family. imagined every meal cost us at least 500 bucks. =X fishes, prawns, crabs and chicken/duck every meal. =S
shirley, shih lei and i were feeling kinda sad at the dinner just now because it seems like everything is going to end, and we are back to our own lifes again. =( and even week time table was like hell! =(
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