“... ...” 阿耕定了一下,似乎没想到我会那么问他。
“喜欢一个人,需要理由吗?” 他看着我。
“喜欢一个人不需要理由吗?” 我反问。
“我觉得不需要。”
“那岂不是只是单纯的被感觉牵着跑?!”
“这样不好吗?”
“那怎么去认定,我真的喜欢这个人,而不是一时的感觉而已?”
阿耕并没有说话,他只是一直很讶异我会这么问他。
“真的需要理由吗?” 在阿耕跑回家后,咪咪突然说话。
“嗯!” 我点点头。
“可是,我喜欢宜瑾,好像没什么理由啊!“
"一定是因为他吸引你,那他又是哪里吸引你,那一点让你觉得值得让你去牵他的手,是因为那些理由,所以你才会喜欢他的。”
咪咪点点头。
“你仔细想一想,一定可以想到很多的。”
咪咪有点了点头。
“那你想不到理由吗?”咪咪问我。
“啊?”
“有关雷振语。”
“我不知道。”
咪咪笑了一声,然后接着说:“你只不过害怕去想出那些理由罢了!”
“害怕?”
“因为害怕承认感情会改变关系,害怕一旦失去那层关系的失落。”
我就像被咪咪说中心深处的想法,只能保持着沉默,静静的听着她说。
不知道别人是不是跟我一样,可是从小,我就很害怕失落感。
一场热闹的party结束,客人走光的那一刹那,空虚好像就浮上心头,很难过,很难过...
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
今天,天气和我的心情一样 - 阴阴的。
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
请不要错放了那幸福温暖的手
往往许多人在抉择伴侣时,容易东想西想,不知所措,就是因为害怕一时做错决定,看错人,造成终生的遗憾。
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往往许多人在抉择伴侣时,容易东想西想,不知所措,就是因为害怕一时做错决定,看错人,造成终生的遗憾。
诺贝尔文学奖得主萧伯纳说:"此时此刻在地球上,约有两万个人适合当你的人生伴侣,就看你先遇到哪一个,如果在第二个理想伴侣出现之前,你已经跟前一个人发展出相知相惜、互相信赖的深层关系,那后者就会变成你的好朋友,但是若你跟前一个人没有培养出深层关系,感情就容易动摇、变心,直到你与这些理想伴侣候选人的其中一位拥有稳固的深情,才是幸福的开始,漂泊的结束。
爱上一个人不需要靠努力,只需要靠 "际遇",是上天的安排,但是 "持续地爱一个人" 就要靠"努力", 在爱情的经营中,顺畅运转的要素就是沟通、体谅、包容与自制 (面临诱惑有所自制)。有许多人总是被"际遇"所迷惑与苦恼,意念不停、欲念不断、争逐不散,而忘了培养经营感情的能力才是幸福的关键。
所以不要去追问到底谁才是我的 Mr.Right,而是问说在眼前的伴侣关系中,我能努力到什么程度、成长到什么程度,若没有培养出经营幸福的能力,就算真的Mr.Right出现在你身边,幸福依然会错过的,而活在犹疑与遗憾当中,这不就是许多 "爱情虚无症" 的遭遇与心态吗?
若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣,不要再随便三心二意地犹疑了,我们往往不易察觉感情中的一个陷阱,就是"近亲生慢侮",也就是经济学中的铁律"边际效益递减法则",跟你在一起越久的人,就越容易麻木与忽视,而新鲜的"际遇"总是那么动人可爱。
在感情对待中,难免有摩擦与无心的伤害,而且论得罪自己的次数累加起来最多的人,当然是跟我们在一起最久、最亲近的人。而新欢呢,又还没开始有得罪你的机会,再加上他的刻意讨好,所以新欢怎么看怎么可爱,旧爱怎么看怎么讨厌。但别忘了,新欢身上总是有不确定的未知数,旧爱身上就是有难得的熟悉感、确定感、信赖感。千万不要随便在偶然的"际遇"中迷失了自己,错放了幸福温暖的手。
所以萧伯纳的话,是要提醒情人不要太钻牛角尖于寻觅那唯一,应该把精神用在学会经营幸福的能力上,同时也提醒我们"弱水三千只取一瓢饮"若有幸遇到了难得的伴侣,就不要再三心二意了,为我们永远不知道一生何时会遇到两万个其中的几个,所以要知福惜福。
爱上一个人不需要靠努力,只需要靠 "际遇",是上天的安排
所以不要去追问到底谁才是我的 Mr.Right,而是问说在眼前的
若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣,不要再随便三心二意地犹疑了
在感情对待中,难免有摩擦与无心的伤害,而且论得罪自己的次数累
所以萧伯纳的话,是要提醒情人不要太钻牛角尖于寻觅那唯一
Whee! Boss is out of office. I finally understood how boring it is to be sitting in the office for the whole day on a great Saturday. Sadly, it's a retribution for enjoying myself on the previous two weekends. WHINE!
I had a great deal of fun going out with SEANderella, Xiaoniu and Pan-apple on Wednesday night. I realised that I haven't been going out with Sean for quite some time and I missed the days when we were out together! ): Anyhow, had Popeye and camwhored almost the whole night, in the restuarant, on the bus! Uploaded some pictures on Friendster already, hehs. (:


Boring boring Saturday. I wondered how I can waste my Saturday like this when I can do something even better, like playing with my Daniel?! Sigh. But it seemed like I've got no choice lor. GRRR.
Anyhow, I am thinking of changing job. LOL. I MIGHT go back to work in MINDS, but we'll see how. (:
I am seriously lacking of sleep ever since I returned from Batam. My dark circle had escalated far worse than I expected and the worst that I have seen so far.
Oh oh! I watched SEX AND THE CITY last night! lol. Some obscene scenes, other than that, it's a pretty good show. The friends are wonderful too. After the show, I was talking to Xiaoniu on getting another friend so that Pan-apple, Xiaoniu and I can form a SATC too. lol. Alright, I am just kidding. For the fact is, we cannot agree who wants to take up the role of the horny Samantha. Definitely not me! LOL!
Anyhow, talking about girls power. My colleague from Philipines was telling me how she broke up with her boyfriend, same nationality too. LOL. Because her ex went to Australia to work and she understand that he has to go. But when she wants to work in Singapore, he stopped her by saying that if she goes, they would have to breakup. YES! It's just so lame and dramatic! And then my colleague also super cool. She agrees. it's like, hmm, guys never understand our point of view when we always connive with them. =.=
*Yawn. Okay, I think I am too tired to blog anymore. zzz. 工作-ing....
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I had a great deal of fun going out with SEANderella, Xiaoniu and Pan-apple on Wednesday night. I realised that I haven't been going out with Sean for quite some time and I missed the days when we were out together! ): Anyhow, had Popeye and camwhored almost the whole night, in the restuarant, on the bus! Uploaded some pictures on Friendster already, hehs. (:
Boring boring Saturday. I wondered how I can waste my Saturday like this when I can do something even better, like playing with my Daniel?! Sigh. But it seemed like I've got no choice lor. GRRR.
Anyhow, I am thinking of changing job. LOL. I MIGHT go back to work in MINDS, but we'll see how. (:
I am seriously lacking of sleep ever since I returned from Batam. My dark circle had escalated far worse than I expected and the worst that I have seen so far.
Oh oh! I watched SEX AND THE CITY last night! lol. Some obscene scenes, other than that, it's a pretty good show. The friends are wonderful too. After the show, I was talking to Xiaoniu on getting another friend so that Pan-apple, Xiaoniu and I can form a SATC too. lol. Alright, I am just kidding. For the fact is, we cannot agree who wants to take up the role of the horny Samantha. Definitely not me! LOL!
Anyhow, talking about girls power. My colleague from Philipines was telling me how she broke up with her boyfriend, same nationality too. LOL. Because her ex went to Australia to work and she understand that he has to go. But when she wants to work in Singapore, he stopped her by saying that if she goes, they would have to breakup. YES! It's just so lame and dramatic! And then my colleague also super cool. She agrees. it's like, hmm, guys never understand our point of view when we always connive with them. =.=
*Yawn. Okay, I think I am too tired to blog anymore. zzz. 工作-ing....
Friday, June 20, 2008
第三天。
我破功了!):
真扫兴。
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我破功了!):
真扫兴。
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
第二天
我还是忘记喝水。比昨天更惨,半瓶都不到。
想要那一对汤匙和叉,却拿到了两只叉。
明明做了的事,却以为还没有做好。花了整整半个早上才发现原来已经做好了。
一整天多没做成什么事。
慢慢戒掉你。
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我还是忘记喝水。比昨天更惨,半瓶都不到。
想要那一对汤匙和叉,却拿到了两只叉。
明明做了的事,却以为还没有做好。花了整整半个早上才发现原来已经做好了。
一整天多没做成什么事。
慢慢戒掉你。
I didn't know why people still have the America time to blog about things in the midst of working. And by the time I knocked off from work, I am already dead and still dying, dragging my feet back home.
Well, yesterday, I had a short game of badminton with my cousins and brother. Yeah yeah, I think it's nice to have the 3 of us staying in the same room, because they can be so lame until I just keep laughing. And there are always nice stories to listen to. :D
Oh, based on Minhui's blog entry, so coincidentally, the other day I was telling Jeff about the reason for liking a person. Hmm. Unlike mh, last time I used to think that there is no reason for liking a person. Whatever the person is, you will like his good points and not-so-good points (it is mean to say bad points lar. lol). That is, you will accept him for who he is. Up till now, I still feel that loving someone is to accept who he/she is, but there is a reason for loving this particular person. However, it is not neccessary that everyone knows the reason of loving someone.
Let me give you a scenerio. Boy A and Boy B. They are twins. By right, they have the same features, same family background, same living environment. To make it easier, we will let this two boy stay in the same room, go to the same school, attend the same class. But by left, no matter how similar the external factor may be, we understand that they will be different based on the internal factor, which is the character or emotional issues of particular self. HURHUR.
So, the question is, why did you like Boy A but not Boy B? Or why did you like Boy B and not Boy A? There must be a particular reason to it. You may brush it off by saying, "Haiya, they are different mar. Twins also got difference one mar!" But what is the characteristics that differentiate the two of them? For example, Boy A could be more attentive to your needs than Boy B. This particular difference could be the reason you like either Boy A or Boy B.
Now, let's try another scenerio. This time round, Boy Y and Boy Z comes into picture. They are not twins, they do not have the same living environment and they are just total strangers. But you just happen to know both of them. And right now, you are fretting over who to choose. They have a vast difference in characters, one of them is intellectual and one of them is more musculine. but something similar in them is that they are both gentle. Then finally one day, you think you like Boy Z more. Why? You don't know. But the reason is very simple, because his gentleness suits you, but Boy Y's doesn't. Just that you didn't know. The amount of 'gentleness' that he 'supplies' you is the amount that you need, whereas Boy Y's could be too much, or too little. And that could be the reason why people can love a particular person to the core, even if she/he knows that their lover is the most irresponsible, not gentle or violent person among their other choices.
While I write until here, something to add on. Because we seldom analyse a person's character, that is why very often, we do not realise why we like that person. Therefore, we do not have an insight or analysis of his character, how gentle he is, how loving he is or how intellectual he is. And why do we see some people date people with different characters? Because they might have the same trait that the girl is looking for, or the different traits just simply meet her 'right amount'. So the conclusion is, I think liking or loving a person, there is a reason to it. You might not agree, but this is purely based on my own thoughts and understanding. (: And after saying so much, you might have no idea of what I am talking about. But it's okay, because I know I am not good in words. LOL.
Just now my colleague was telling me that she cannot work while her table is tidy. lol. As much as I wanted to have a neat table, you will see my table in a mess very often. LOL. Especially when invoices came, it's like a tornado swept through my territory. HURHUR.
And so, I helped Moulee to create a blog and she has yet to post any entry yet! (: And I think Moulee, Eric and I are moody these few days. LOL. I think this is a pretty long entry, prolly the longest in these two months. And I completed it amidst my work. LOL.
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Well, yesterday, I had a short game of badminton with my cousins and brother. Yeah yeah, I think it's nice to have the 3 of us staying in the same room, because they can be so lame until I just keep laughing. And there are always nice stories to listen to. :D
Oh, based on Minhui's blog entry, so coincidentally, the other day I was telling Jeff about the reason for liking a person. Hmm. Unlike mh, last time I used to think that there is no reason for liking a person. Whatever the person is, you will like his good points and not-so-good points (it is mean to say bad points lar. lol). That is, you will accept him for who he is. Up till now, I still feel that loving someone is to accept who he/she is, but there is a reason for loving this particular person. However, it is not neccessary that everyone knows the reason of loving someone.
Let me give you a scenerio. Boy A and Boy B. They are twins. By right, they have the same features, same family background, same living environment. To make it easier, we will let this two boy stay in the same room, go to the same school, attend the same class. But by left, no matter how similar the external factor may be, we understand that they will be different based on the internal factor, which is the character or emotional issues of particular self. HURHUR.
So, the question is, why did you like Boy A but not Boy B? Or why did you like Boy B and not Boy A? There must be a particular reason to it. You may brush it off by saying, "Haiya, they are different mar. Twins also got difference one mar!" But what is the characteristics that differentiate the two of them? For example, Boy A could be more attentive to your needs than Boy B. This particular difference could be the reason you like either Boy A or Boy B.
Now, let's try another scenerio. This time round, Boy Y and Boy Z comes into picture. They are not twins, they do not have the same living environment and they are just total strangers. But you just happen to know both of them. And right now, you are fretting over who to choose. They have a vast difference in characters, one of them is intellectual and one of them is more musculine. but something similar in them is that they are both gentle. Then finally one day, you think you like Boy Z more. Why? You don't know. But the reason is very simple, because his gentleness suits you, but Boy Y's doesn't. Just that you didn't know. The amount of 'gentleness' that he 'supplies' you is the amount that you need, whereas Boy Y's could be too much, or too little. And that could be the reason why people can love a particular person to the core, even if she/he knows that their lover is the most irresponsible, not gentle or violent person among their other choices.
While I write until here, something to add on. Because we seldom analyse a person's character, that is why very often, we do not realise why we like that person. Therefore, we do not have an insight or analysis of his character, how gentle he is, how loving he is or how intellectual he is. And why do we see some people date people with different characters? Because they might have the same trait that the girl is looking for, or the different traits just simply meet her 'right amount'. So the conclusion is, I think liking or loving a person, there is a reason to it. You might not agree, but this is purely based on my own thoughts and understanding. (: And after saying so much, you might have no idea of what I am talking about. But it's okay, because I know I am not good in words. LOL.
Just now my colleague was telling me that she cannot work while her table is tidy. lol. As much as I wanted to have a neat table, you will see my table in a mess very often. LOL. Especially when invoices came, it's like a tornado swept through my territory. HURHUR.
And so, I helped Moulee to create a blog and she has yet to post any entry yet! (: And I think Moulee, Eric and I are moody these few days. LOL. I think this is a pretty long entry, prolly the longest in these two months. And I completed it amidst my work. LOL.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
第一天
我想你想到忘记喝水,做什么事情都不对。
想要传真却按到对方的电话号码。
每次电话响就会期待是你的简讯。
一件事明明可以一次做完却分成两三次。
吃饭完全没有胃口,连最爱的鸡腿都没吃完。
交待事情都不知道在讲什么,连同事都第一次看到这样做事的我。
做事情做到一半就会突然幌神,不知道自己在干什么。
看到你的网上的绰号就很感动也很忧郁。因为你写着“宝贝你不是一个人哦,你还有我! 记得吃早餐,午餐,和晚餐。还要喝多多水,不要让自己太累!要照顾自己哦。”
可是,我要戒掉你。
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我想你想到忘记喝水,做什么事情都不对。
想要传真却按到对方的电话号码。
每次电话响就会期待是你的简讯。
一件事明明可以一次做完却分成两三次。
吃饭完全没有胃口,连最爱的鸡腿都没吃完。
交待事情都不知道在讲什么,连同事都第一次看到这样做事的我。
做事情做到一半就会突然幌神,不知道自己在干什么。
看到你的网上的绰号就很感动也很忧郁。因为你写着“宝贝你不是一个人哦,你还有我! 记得吃早餐,午餐,和晚餐。还要喝多多水,不要让自己太累!要照顾自己哦。”
可是,我要戒掉你。
相信
突然觉得我只是一个人
有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝
而云很白 风很凉
今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作 不想困扰自己
不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来
就算挑战 我不走开
一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持
正好让我 学会去爱
我曾经看见困难
变得胆小 不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉 相信 简单
有一天
等我懂得事实也许更会幸福
至少现在让我去相信
我还是会相信
相信感觉
相信简单
Sometimes, I think I am disappointed with myself. For being so indecisive and so weak in will power.
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突然觉得我只是一个人
有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝
而云很白 风很凉
今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作 不想困扰自己
不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来
就算挑战 我不走开
一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持
正好让我 学会去爱
我曾经看见困难
变得胆小 不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉 相信 简单
有一天
等我懂得事实也许更会幸福
至少现在让我去相信
我还是会相信
相信感觉
相信简单
Sometimes, I think I am disappointed with myself. For being so indecisive and so weak in will power.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Well well, I realised that I didn't blogged about Graduation Day! Haha. I only remember after seeing the photos that Xuzhen and Terrence sent. (: It has been a fun and lame day, and I am glad that I actually took leave to go. (:
ACID Camp this year! It took place the last weekend. Even though it does not have tedious activities, but somehow, it had been my most tiring, most dirtiest and most messy acid camp ever. LOL. Something significant, after 5 years in EP, it's my first time to bathe a trainee. And I gave my first time to Choon Kee! :D Heh hehs. And alright, something worth mentioning too, she actually poo-poo on her double layer pampers before I bathed her lor. I almost fainted when she took off her pampers, abd ta-ta, the next time I know, I am alone in the bathroom with her, with no one to help me already. LOL.
And then, I brought her back to the classroom (we were camping at PJC) after bathing her. The next moment, Gerald dragged me to help Brent change into his outing clothes again. Well well, changing ain't seemed so bad though, but very soon, he vomited! So I spent my last day of camp with him, collecting his vomits. And mind you, I think he vomitted more than 10times before he was sent back home and diagnosed with stomach flu at night. I let him lie on my lap before he was transferred to the classroom, I sacrified my sleeping bag for him to lie on while waiting for him to get better and I lend him my hand to collect his source of output from his mouth. Including my shirt, none was mercifully granted clean. Sigh.
And so, I wore my shorts stained with vomit (thank goodness that he didn't eat anything since the night before, so there's only hydrochloric acid and there's not much smell) and went for a late lunch with Minhui. LOL. The funny thing is that we only have 30bucks and we still insist on going to the new New York New York branch in cck. So in the end, we ordered a Rotiserrie Whole chicken and a glass of root beer float to share. It costed us 28bucks, with 2dollars nicely tuck back into our purse. Haha.
Meet up with Junrui after lunch and waited sian-ly for her while she did her rebonding. After that, I seriously shopped super long for Jeff's brithday present. I almost felt like dying and gave up, until I saw.... lol. that's a secret. Hahaha.
Okay, just when I thought I can finally go back home at about 9plus, I remembered that my beloved cousin came over to stay overnight for two weeks. And there you see, I enjoyed talking to her, so we stayed up until 12plus when we both have to wake up as early as 5 and 6plus the next day. I think the funny part is that when I wanted to sleep and she didn't let me, I told 苗苗 about it and he asked me to tell her that if she dun let me sleep, he wouldn't give her a nice haircut the next time. LOL. And I guess the threatening really works because very soon after, both of us fell asleep. Hahaha.
It's good to have you.
苗苗,HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
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ACID Camp this year! It took place the last weekend. Even though it does not have tedious activities, but somehow, it had been my most tiring, most dirtiest and most messy acid camp ever. LOL. Something significant, after 5 years in EP, it's my first time to bathe a trainee. And I gave my first time to Choon Kee! :D Heh hehs. And alright, something worth mentioning too, she actually poo-poo on her double layer pampers before I bathed her lor. I almost fainted when she took off her pampers, abd ta-ta, the next time I know, I am alone in the bathroom with her, with no one to help me already. LOL.
And then, I brought her back to the classroom (we were camping at PJC) after bathing her. The next moment, Gerald dragged me to help Brent change into his outing clothes again. Well well, changing ain't seemed so bad though, but very soon, he vomited! So I spent my last day of camp with him, collecting his vomits. And mind you, I think he vomitted more than 10times before he was sent back home and diagnosed with stomach flu at night. I let him lie on my lap before he was transferred to the classroom, I sacrified my sleeping bag for him to lie on while waiting for him to get better and I lend him my hand to collect his source of output from his mouth. Including my shirt, none was mercifully granted clean. Sigh.
And so, I wore my shorts stained with vomit (thank goodness that he didn't eat anything since the night before, so there's only hydrochloric acid and there's not much smell) and went for a late lunch with Minhui. LOL. The funny thing is that we only have 30bucks and we still insist on going to the new New York New York branch in cck. So in the end, we ordered a Rotiserrie Whole chicken and a glass of root beer float to share. It costed us 28bucks, with 2dollars nicely tuck back into our purse. Haha.
Meet up with Junrui after lunch and waited sian-ly for her while she did her rebonding. After that, I seriously shopped super long for Jeff's brithday present. I almost felt like dying and gave up, until I saw.... lol. that's a secret. Hahaha.
Okay, just when I thought I can finally go back home at about 9plus, I remembered that my beloved cousin came over to stay overnight for two weeks. And there you see, I enjoyed talking to her, so we stayed up until 12plus when we both have to wake up as early as 5 and 6plus the next day. I think the funny part is that when I wanted to sleep and she didn't let me, I told 苗苗 about it and he asked me to tell her that if she dun let me sleep, he wouldn't give her a nice haircut the next time. LOL. And I guess the threatening really works because very soon after, both of us fell asleep. Hahaha.
It's good to have you.
苗苗,HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
我知道心满满是什么感觉了。(:
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Thursday, June 05, 2008
I am jealous. ):
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Monday, June 02, 2008
还好他回答得出我的问题,不然就会被三正出局了。(:
很好
下雨也好 迷路也好
空气里有种相依为命的味道
爱你很好 连风都知道
第一次心甘情愿不想逃
当爱相随 能完美一切不完美
当你皱眉 我陪你留在天黑的世界
我们是座城堡
爱情放在里面很好
就算没有人看好
幸福是因为互相依靠
爱情是座城堡
牵着手才能找到
当我们彼此微笑
请不要打扰
I am a happy girl. (:
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很好
下雨也好 迷路也好
空气里有种相依为命的味道
爱你很好 连风都知道
第一次心甘情愿不想逃
当爱相随 能完美一切不完美
当你皱眉 我陪你留在天黑的世界
我们是座城堡
爱情放在里面很好
就算没有人看好
幸福是因为互相依靠
爱情是座城堡
牵着手才能找到
当我们彼此微笑
请不要打扰
I am a happy girl. (:
