PLAY MY FAVOURITE SONG (:

其实我现在头很痛。PPFFT!

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9.33pm. Certified. I have a dead brain. ZZZ. Even though it's 9.33pm, it feels like 12am. -.-

I think the flu bug has finally got me. And it's making me sleepy. My brain somehow stopped functioning but the factory must keep on going. Simply because the products are to be handed over to the clients a few days later. ): The client: ~~ElizaBIRD~~ Elizabeth. The product: FP Evaluations and Reflective Journals. The factory: My brain. Not forgetting the ITA assignment on Friday. I seriously wonder why ECH people wants us to do a video clip. All the cut and paste, adjust here and there. Add in effects and audios plus transitions. Hmm. Maybe they didn't tell us that we are getting a sub-diploma which is Film, Sounds and Videos when we enrolled into this course. HURHUR! Alright. I should stop sounding like a spoiled brat and finish up what have to be done. PPFFT! On a second thought, maybe they want us to be kids programme TV producer. Hahaha! OPPS!

Holidays is coming soon. LALALA~ Which means Exams are coming soon. FROWN.

It has been rather cold these few nights. My hands are freezing now, even if it is not raining outside. BRR.

I guess 许玮伦's death news really affected quite a lot of people. I was blog surfing just now and most blogs mentioned about her, in one way or another. Especially Nancy. ): I do hope she'll feel better soon. Nancy! Don't be sad anymore okay? *HUGS.

I guess I am really obsessed with blogging. TSKTSK!

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I've just changed my friendster profile. Doesn't make much difference though.

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time to change profile! hehs.

school has been taking up most of my time now. stress period, but it will be over soon. (:

i seldom eat ice-cream now. i dunno why. sometimes i missed it, sometimes i don't. but most of the time, because there's no one to eat with me.

i seldom go to pitstop now. neither minds cafe. i missed the times when mh, iL and others went together. it was so fun and with much love. <3

i still love songs.

i still love my voluntary group. they are a bunch of great people, trust me. (:

i still love my clique. though many things changed. but which relationship on earth doesn't change?

i still love tigger. hehs. i want to own all tiggers in the world! bleah. that's a second of daydream. nevermindd.

i still love simplicity.

i still love my boy. hehs. and i miss him. ((:

lalala~
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signs of liking someone.

Signs of liking someone

Seventeen
You look at their profile/picture constantly

Sixteen
When you are on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two mintues ago.

Fifteen
You read their texts over and over again.

Fourteen
You walk really slow when you are with them.

Thirteen
You feel shy whenever they are around.

Eleven
When you think about them, your heart beats faster and slower at the same time.

Ten
You smile when you hear their voice.

Nine
Whe you look at them, you can't see other people around you. All you see is him/her.

Eight
You start listening to songs that remind you of them.

Seven
They are all you think about.

Six
You love their hugs and kisses more than anything.

Five
You realise that you are always smiling to yourself when you think about them.

Four
You would do anything for them or anything to see them.

Three
While reading this, there was only one person on your mind the whole time.

Two
You were so busy thinking about that person that you didn't notice Number twelve missing.

One
You just scrolled up to check and now silently laughing at yourself.

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Monday, January 29, 2007

I want an early night.

I think I am obsessed with blogging these few days. LOL.

I think there is something missing in my heart, my mind and my life. ):

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It really feels sad and scared to see 许玮伦 pass away just like that. May she rest in peace always.

I was talking to Xu Zhen on the way home today. About 许玮伦. But mainly about losing your loved ones. Both of us felt the sudden fear and feel like crying. BLEAH. But we didn't of course.

School projects had made both of us rather short temper. May this period pass as fast as possible. But the other side of me don't want that. If time were to pass quickly, reality comes quickly too. I am scared. Scared of the fact/reality that happens after exams.

Sukuna showed Rain Man today. Nice show and I cried towards the end, when the brothers had to be separated. Raymond went back to the home. The show ended when Charlie sent Raymond to board the train with Dr. Bruner. *SOBS.

Some quotes that I came across just now:

A really tight friendship is when you start to really care about the person. If he gets sick, you kind of start worrying about him - or if he gets hit by a car. An everyday friend, you say, I know that kid, he’s all right, and you don’t really think much of him. But a close friend you worry about more than yourself. Well, maybe not more, but about the same.
- A five year old child

You can learn many things from children. How much patience you have, for instance. ~Franklin P. Jones

There was never a child so lovely but his mother was glad to get him to sleep. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

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PPFFT! I am having sore butt! >.< Must be played too much badminton yesterday, after stopping for so long. But yesterday was fun. All the fun and laughter, peace and joy. ((:

I am hungry. SIGH. Xu Zhen just went to take a jab. So I really wonder if there's a jab for people not to feel hungry or not. Then I wouldn't have to find food to eat every now and then. HAHAHA.

My arms sore too. I think basically my whole body aches. GRR. I can't move a single muscle, because if I did, other parts of the body hurts as well. So now I can only move the joints of my fingers. LOL.

Last week of school already! Okay. Nothing to blog about already.

Except that I am hungry. GRR.

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Sunday, January 28, 2007

Oh. I heard 许玮伦 passed about at 7+. How sad. She's a nice actress. ): And passed away just like that. It shows how fragile life is. )): And how many unreported such fragile life are there? SIGH. Anything can happen the next minute. I feel like hugging my loved ones, especially my special someone. ):

I saw someone who looked like my passed away grandfather today. And i missed him. )):

Badminton with EP today. (: Ate ice-cream too. Had a nice chit-chat with kaishin. (:

Just finished Interview transcript. Tired. I need to sleep now. ZZZZ.

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Yeah. Right on 11.59pm, before the day ends. (:

I promised some pictures right? Yeah, I certainly did! GRIN. The last time I had pictures on my blog was like last era ago. LOL.

Look at Xu Zhen's serious face. =S

While Nancy and Xu Zhen are working... (psss. I told XZ to smile.)

I am busy taking shots of myself! HEHS!

Smile Smile Smile! (:

Nancy and Me! I have messy hair, I know. SHHH!

I told you I am busy taking my own pictures. (:

We found a great spot in my room to take pics with! We tried looking like criminals though, but where got criminals looked so happy one? So Mission Failed. GAGAGA.

Alright. Enough of pictures. (: Did SF and ITA today. Almost finished SF already. Please look carefully, the word is ALMOST. SIGH. I feel like sleeping now. *YAWN.

I've post quite some entries today! This is probably the 5th one! LOL.

HUR. I think I've missed like don't know how many EP sessions already. And I feel kinda bad for that. Especially there's no volunteer going down for Group D today. NO VOLUNTEERS! Can you imagine? All the 7 volunteers coincidentally absented themselves from EP today! Not to mention the GL, which is me, who has not been going for EP the past few weeks. And dear all, I HOPE I'll remember that next week is Duckling's teabreak turn. RAHH!

Alright. 12.20am right now. Sunday. (: Going to hit the bed now! My warm and cosy bed, in the cold weather. <3

爱*转角

我伪装著不露痕迹的
想在你身边静静的陪著看著天边
骑著单车往前行进著
某个路口爱在等著

你往前走不回头看了
记忆的笑脸缓缓的敲著我的琴键
我不舍得让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂著

心不再拼命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎麽说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我就是我的美

心不再拼命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎麽说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
将寂寞孤单作陪让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我就是我的美

PS. Blogger cheated on me. My laptop's clock says 11.59pm, but Blogger puts 12.01am. PPFFT! ):

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Saturday, January 27, 2007

Xu Zhen just left, and I began to feel the tiredness in me. SIGH. ITA has yet to be done. I guess Xu Zhen and I felt kinda pissed off by ITA already. Give us the strength to move on PLEASEEEE...

Going bathing now. Shall update about today again later. With pictures! (:

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LOL. It seems like I am into horoscope. All because of Nancy and Wacky Starfish. (:

General Prediction in 2007

Your year begins, as usual, with attention to the practical matters of home, hearth and business. Once you feel organized, you will move on by the end of Jan. to romantic or creative interests. The first quarter is a good time to attend to your heart's need for beauty. A relationship which began or renewed in the fall 2006 arrives at the following significant power points of deepening or change: April 23, Aug 7 and Nov 19.

Your ruling planet, Venus, turns retrograde in late July which lasts through early Sep. It is imperative that you be aware of yourself and your behavior in significant relationship(s) during this period. Either you or the Other may need to back off for this period while you evaluate what you want together. If an otherwise good relationship becomes "cool" during this time, have patience and allow time for it to return to normal. One or the other of you may simply need a break while tending to other areas of importance.

Those who are employed will notice a change in the hierarchy around them in the fall. You are actually moving slowly out of the limelight, a project that may require a couple of years. It is not a good idea to try to hang onto things as they have been. Change is the inevitable outcome of your career path. It will come naturally, whether you struggle or not. So take it easy.

((:

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Question: Who is so dumb to spray the toner onto the face with wide eyes open?
Answer: Yours truly.

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How Bad Is Your Temper According To Your Horoscope

HAHAHA. I saw this on Nancy's blog, and I went online to look for it.

How Bad Is Your Temper According To Your Horoscope

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it's true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

It sounded horrible. LOL. And yes, I admit it. (: But like what the paragraph said, unless you are my family or those very close to me, I can say that you are safe. (:

Laura: YES! I am starting to use TEEVEE! ((:

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RAHH. I am pissed with changing my skin, partially because i still like my Alfred skin. ): Anyway, i thought this skin this nice though. light and colourful.

And anyway again, I've realised that I've been in defensive mode as easy as a snap of the fingers. And i don't like it. I admit that I am conscious of it. And I'm going to switch back to my old self.

Though school term is coming to an end, but the workload didn't seemed to lessen. It felt as if I still have tons of projects to finish up. SF, ITA, Maths Evaluations, FP Journal Questions ~~and AST~~. Though it looked less, but enough for me to sit down and mourn over my dead brain cells. And sometimes I am wondering why am I trying to make a movie in my course when I remembered that I've enrolled myself in Early Childhood Education Course. Anyway, did I mention next week is the last week of school? Arh. Yes. Everything has to be done by next week. Nevertheless, it did console me a little bit whenever I remembered that everyone else is stressing over these few projs too. HEEHEE. (:

Eh. I ate mushroom cheese sandwich again today. it's as delicious as ever. And like what McDonald said, 'I'M LOVING IT' HEH. Mostly because almost everyone in the clique is eating, except for Xu Zhen, Jasmine and Yi Xin. 4 out of 7 ate. That's not bad already. (: Alright. I am craving for it right now. Haha.

Oh. I thought I could blog about this. I was in the living room with Mummy, watching TEEVEE just now. And I was asking her how come some people can have their legs over their heads. And so, as I was asking her, I tried to do it too. Of course, yours truly failed lar. Stop laughing alright! Then I tried having my two feets shoulders' length apart, then bend down to touch the floor. Unfortunately, yours truly failed again. And my dearest mummy showed me how to do it. And I was like "WOW! MUMMY! YOU CAN DO IT?!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!" And I tell you! She was darn proud just now alright! You should have seen her face. TSK TSK. Anyway, she said she can even bend down and stretch her hands behind her legs. But that was like don't know how many months (or maybe even years =P) ago. LOL. I was like "What's the big deal?", and argh, I forgot that I can't even reach the floor. She laughed at me of course! PPFFT! So she told me if I really want to do it, stretch myself everyday. And I tried stretching, bending, yoga-ing and whatsoever just now. And now to come and think of it, my back hurts very much. RAHH!

Valentines' Day. Sigh.

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To my Wacky Starfish Thursday, January 25, 2007

Dear Wacky Starfish,

I'm surprised to see an additional post in my blog. By my dear wacky starfish. Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for being so encouraging. Thanks for being so kind to me. Thanks for eating our favourite mushroom cheese sandwiches with me. Billions and billions of more thanks that are kept in my heart silently.

I don't know if I am a sunshine in the group or not. I don't know if I can cheer the group up when everyone feels stressed and feels like keeling over and die or not. I don't know if I matters to the group or not. But I certainly know that I will always be in your heart. Once again, thanks a ~~billion~~ zillion times.

No one has told me how much they like my smile. (or maybe there's one. whom said i had a beautiful smile. *SMILE) No one has told me how much my smile matters to them. No one has told me how much my happiness matters to them. But you did. Thanks for making me feel important and worthy. <3

If only our mushroom cheese sandwiches are free everyday, we will have endless mere minutes to spare for each other. And I am glad we did have private time on tuesday to have a small talk while purchasing our sandwiches. It's you who make the sandwich tasted nicer, do you know that? And all your 'HEHEHE' makes me smile too. (:

And yes, I too feel that we have reached the stage whereby words are not necessary to tell how much we care for each other. Because deep down in our heart, we know that we have a delicate yet strong friendship. If you know what I mean. (: I am bad in words, you always know that. HEE.

Alright. Thats all for my wacky starfish. I do ~~hope~~ want you to have the best thing. Be happy and have the 'HEHEHE' in your smile always. *HUGS.

With love,
Smelly Starfish.

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To my Smelly Starfish. Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Dear Smelly Starfish,

I could say that I hate you for having had neglected me, I could say that I feel hurt that you choose not to confide in me. But I choose not to, because I don't feel that way at all so don't worry about me feeling that way because seriously, I don't (: I don't mind that you don't tell me stuffs (or maybe it's just that you don't have the time and I've not been coming online).

Sometimes, you don't have to talk to let me know that I am still on your mind and vice versa. I guess we've come to the stage where we don't really have to talk or be together 24/7 just to let each other know that we care. Unlike in the past, there was this feeling that I always have to be there for you or be with you so that you know I care. I guess I always have that morbid fear of the opposite party not knowing how much I care about them. But for us, I guess, we've progressed on from there with leaps and bounds (:

I don't mind having to stand by one side to look on at you as long as you are still smiling. Nothing matters more than your happiness because you are everyone's sunshine. You are always there to cheer the group up (especially after your ice-creams) and encouraging all of us when we are just about to keel over and die. You matter to the group, you matter to ME, your wacky starfish. So dear, you don't have to feel bad or guilty for having had neglected me (I admit, it's my bad too since I do not come online as much and I have been rather busy of late - not with homework, teehee) because really, at the end of the day, all that matters is your smile.

I am glad for having had that small talk while we were purchasing our sandwiches. Even a mere few minutes is more than enough and sometimes, mere few minutes are better treasured than when you spend so much time together because then, everything would be taken for granted.

Love you babe, and you know that (:

Xoxo
Wacky Starfish.

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无泪的天使

if you can't see the words, go to view>text size>increase. (:

第一次她在你面前流眼泪，肩膀轻轻的抖动，纯真的脸庞和长长的睫毛上沾满了晶莹的泪水，幽怨的眼睛看着你。你觉得这是一幅异常动人的画面。你忽然有点激动有点兴奋，内心中更是隐约的充斥某种莫名的快感。因为这是她第一次在你面前失去自我，这是她第一次为你流眼泪。短暂的快感后你感觉到心痛，这个女孩子的眼泪好像流到了你的心里让你不可抑制的酸楚。此刻，她在你眼里成了世界最无助的女孩，就像一只受伤的小兽需要你安慰。你顿时慌了手脚。你摸出面纸，毛手毛脚的擦去她的眼泪，把纸巾放在她鼻子上温柔的哄她擤鼻涕，然后楼她入怀，不许任何东西伤害到她，可是她还是哭，于是泪水流进你的胸膛。

第二次她在你面前流眼泪，眼泪大滴大滴的落下。她不动手去擦它们，就孤独的站的那里。你悄悄的从侧面看她，她就像背负了一世的伤痛，泪水清冽的淌下。你的心因之震颤。你揽住她瘦弱的身体，在她耳边轻轻的说：乖，别哭。” 她把脸贴在你的脸上，于是你的脸上沾上她的泪水。你偷偷伸出舌头舔了一下唇角，有她的眼泪，是咸的…

第三次她在你面前流眼泪，你暗自思忖女人的泪水果然多，这个女孩的承受力好差。你无语的递上纸巾，看她自己把脸上的泪水擦干净，然后低头说对不起。她红着眼睛哽咽的回答没事。你平静的对上她的眼睛，注视她。你的心平静如水…

她依旧在你面前哭泣，你不晓得她究竟在想什么，你以为没有伤害到她，你不明白她的疼痛。她打电话的时候会哭，睡觉的时候会哭，坐在车里也会哭。她哭的次数越多你越无动于衷。你不说一句话，平静的等待她哭完。后来你的脑子里出现一个念头，她的眼泪不代表疼痛…

你只看到她在你面前流眼泪你。可知道在无人的地方，在家里的床上… 她孤独的为你流眼泪？她坐在地板上，她用被子蒙住脸。她不会把泪水流进心里，因为心只会滴血…

你可知道她无数次的告诫自己最后一次为你流眼泪？可知道无数个哭泣的夜晚过后她用冷水洗脸把冰块放在红肿的眼皮上？别人问她眼睛为什么肿了她的回答是睡觉前喝了太多的水…

她曾经哭着对你说不会有第二个男人拥有她的泪水，你一笑置之。你以为是气话，你错了。无论别的女人怎样，只能真正痛彻的爱一个男人，她没有精力没有足够的泪水给生命中每一个陪伴她的男人。

如今她还是会哭泣，只不会像以前那样放肆的流眼泪。因为她已经知道泪水在你的眼里是多么的廉价，她极力的控制自己，在心里反复的念着别哭。

她是一个情绪化的女孩子。不懂得如何不让眼泪流出。

她为你哭仅仅是因为爱你，她流眼泪是因为感觉疼痛。

终于有一天，你不再拥有她。她离开你。你终于失去她。多少年过去，年少的情感伤痛鲁莽轻狂都被你封锁在记忆的最深处。当你躺在病榻上回忆过去… 你不经意的再次打开尘封的记忆不期然的想起她，想起曾经陪伴她的岁月，想起她的笑靥和你拥抱过的柔软年轻的身体，想起她笑着把一条领带戴在你的脖颈上。想起你们的欢笑和争执。终于你想到她泪眼婆娑的明眸，想起她的眼泪。你忽然发现那竟是她留给你的最清晰，最真实的回忆。

有人说，每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到了真爱就坠入了人间。所以请别让爱你的女孩流泪，因为她已经为你放弃了整个天堂…

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

ULCERS! PAIN! ):

hope xu zhen is feeling fine now. seriously, i think her hair looks alright after a while. (: maybe just the colour. pink! haha. but it's kinda not worth the money to rebond and the hair is not straight at all.

13 FEB is coming soon. then 14. VALENTINES' DAY. i want a rose that day, can?

i think i kind of neglected my dear wacky starfish for quite some time and i really feel quite bad about it. both of us have been busy with our projs, and we are in different groups most of the time. but i'm sure she'll be looking at this entry right now. (: so my wacky starfish, i sure love you alright? update you soon. (:

i love you or i like you?

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Monday, January 22, 2007

im very very tired right now. tsk tsk. should have started ec earlier. ARGGHH! The worst is, i skipped dinner, and am VERY HUNGRY right now! ):

bought a dress today. ((: brown one. have been buying brown, green and gold for my new year clothes. haha. ((:

entry getting shorter and shorter each day. i like this song.

无条件为你

爱你等于拥有一片天空
任何风吹草动
都有你存在其中
自然而然的轻松

一路到夏天的尾声
无所谓到过於激动
我们有笑容
我们曾心动
不再是无动於衷

无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能

无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人

喜欢复杂还是习惯单纯
我愿尽力完成
你在我心中几分
难以形容的责任

爱一个人付出才会完整
无条件越爱就越深
永远不分啊

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I really want a mp3. badly. an Ipod?

I really want my ENERGY Cd. badly. soon?

I really want a new bag. badly. tote bag?

I really want a runaway holiday. badly. batam?

I really want more money. badly. mummy? (:

heard this over the radio. with much LOVE. <3

不在乎有没有以后

独自在房间的角落
点根烟让寂寞飘走
说起来失眠也不错
至少可以不作梦

难道爱会渐渐折旧
连回忆也变成折磨
真心的想给你一切
你偏偏只想要自由

现在几点钟
风知不知道你睡了没有
抬头仰望着天空
一起拥有过的快乐
像断了线的气球

不在乎有没有以后
爱你是活着的理由
紧紧的抱住跟你有关的一切
包括想着你的心痛

我们还有没有以后
牵着手幸福的以后
在你的心中千万记得还有我
永远守着我的承诺
在等候

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i skipped the ep last comm meeting yesterday for sf cum dpip meeting. heard that it's a long 3.5hrs meeting. =S

my life is as boring as plain water, as spicy as hot chilli and as aimless as headless flies.

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

i bought a new shirt yesterday! and i LOVE it! ((: it's red too! haha. first red shirt of my life. LOL. it's an off-shoulder anyway. HEH.

sigh. projects. i guess i have been mentioning projects for so many times these few weeks. 2 more weeks and exams are coming. then... SEMESTER BREAKK! Grin. i still have yet to think of what to do during holidays. 2 months. i guess i'll be dead bored.

-pEiShi-
i fear but i hope, that you'll be back soon.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

i really want an mp3! ): PPFFT!!!

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

ZZZ.

sometimes, or rather most of the time, im thankful for those by my side.

10 years of regret is long. and yet it still traumatised me now and then when i see some things that remind me of it. thats my biggest regret. and i think im still not ready to talk about it.

-pEiShi-

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

*BOO!

headache still didnt go off today. on and off. so kinda cranky today. i think it's time to cut my nails. have a little difficulty typing on my laptop. ):

TSKTSK. it's jan17 only. new year is still one month plus one day away and mummy is playing her new year song in the living room alrd. LOL.

anyway, school's still alright. SIGH. but i still hope holiday will fast fast come. and i told 洪老师 that if got part time job in the centre can call pamela and me. LOL. HEH.

and talking about childcare centre and 洪老师, i remembered that i forgot to blog about my fp field supervision on monday.

side note: i'm having stomachache right now. ):

eh. field supervision. passed. GRIN. though still dunno the marks, but at least passed. so dun have to redo. the sroya came into the centre at near 9.30am. prepared everything and started my lesson. i warned my kids to better behave themselves because "teacher's teacher is coming here to look at teacher." LOL. i am not even sure if they understood what i am saying or not. but they did behave better lar. and when sroya went to take a look at the learning centre while the kids played inside, one of the two kids there stared at sroya and kind of shouted "what?" i was damn shocked. i dunno which one is kaichong and which one is gabriel, so i shouted both names.
TSK TSK.

overall, they behaved quite well during the whole supervision. did i said i was doing salad making with them? ah. yes. fruits salad. (:

side note 2: i think my mummy's vcd is scratched and it jumped. LOL. now it's back to normal. 大年初一头一天... HAHAHA.

project works still kill. they seemed to be never ending. SIGH. and i am supposed to be doing syc last night, when sebastian cancelled his tuition last minute. but i fell sick and slept as early as 7+ so did nothing last night. what a waste. PPFFT! how could i have fell sick and asleep when the group paper is supposed to be handed in on thurs. ):

alright. tuition later at 7. have yet to print nor type out the contract that i had with sebastian and teren. i do hope that the rules and regulations set with them helps me during lesson time.

GRR. i really hate projects that have deadlines SQUEEZE together. HURRRRR!

只因为你

从清晨露出微笑的金黄
我知道我不会再孤单
看你为我绽放的脸庞
放在心上
有了你我的世界不一样

童话里幸福终结了忧伤
你是我最靠近的坚强
有你陪我自在地遨翔抬头仰望
天空变成一座游乐场
世界更明亮

只因为你
我情不自禁闭上眼睛
心里想了想还是你
不让你离开我的手心
呵护着你幻想着
紧抱在我怀里

只因为你
我情不自禁这样为你
证明我不再孩子气
如果有一天我们老去寸步不离
回忆里如镜子都是你

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Monday, January 15, 2007

HUR. im having headache the whole day. but thank goodness that it only starts after my fp supervision. nevertheless, it still hurts quite bad. PPFFT!

alright. i took super long to write this entry. now it's 1.46am alrd. lseeping now. goodnights! (:

-pEiShi-

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winzip

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
anyway on fri i went with a few classmates to buy food for them, e whole class

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
so had to wait very long, n e aunty gave us 1 plastic bag at a time la, with 8 packets inside

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
we ordered 30 packets

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
so e 1st plastic bag had 8

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
then my friend asked me, all here already ah?

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
i was a bit shocked

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
then another person said

（信） | perfect score & no less, whatever it takes ; i fight! ; believe! says:
"so few packets how can, u think this is what, winzip ah?"

alright. i find this funny and dumb. from ernest. (:

-pEiShi-

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ARGH. i'm very tired right now. going to bed soon, after attaching the powerpoint slides and send it to gladys, nancy and xu zhen. i hope they'll like it, or at least appreciate it. =P i spent quite a long time doing it. the file is kinda big so it's taking its time to load onto the mailbox. took this time to write an entry. (:

will be fighting with the assignment paper tomorrow. half of the assignment down already. SMILE. but i'm half dead too. LOL. field pract supervision today! in a few hours time. SIGH SIGH SIGH. give me luck pleaseeeeee.

the file has loaded for 5 minutes already and more to count.

-pEiShi-

城外

你的爱情像是一座堡垒
好多士兵在防卫
这样的和平太狼狈
难道你不觉得累

城外面我就快要崩溃
城里你不了解
狂风中飘着我的眼泪
你有没有感觉

我的伤口早已经无所谓
醒了依然继续追
前线上绝对不撤退
尽管寂寞太漆黑

城外面我被重重包围
会不会闭上眼
战火里我没有了知觉
也忘了你是谁

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碎碎念 Sunday, January 14, 2007

我的胃真的很痛很痛！it really hurts till i feel like vomitting.

still doing syc powerpoint. need to finish by tonight. went laminating my papers and just finished my learning corner not long ago. fp field supervision tomorrow. SIGH. im really scared. my hands are cold now. kinda first time THAT scared for a test/assessment.

PPFFT! i really dun feel well. ):

i hope this highly stressed period will end soon. and i hope my dear will be back soon too. oh. forgot. cannot use hope. my dear will be back soon. (:

-pEiShi-
i did not cry yesterday, i am not crying today, i will not cry tomorrow.

碎碎念

阳光闪过你的笑脸
那画面已设定在手机桌面
录下你的蜜语甜言
来电铃声播着你的碎碎念
你说我衣服要穿多一点
吃东西的时候不可以狼吞虎咽
我脸上挂着微笑不知不觉
幸福的滋味我终于能体验
每一天期待你的话在耳边
碎碎念嘴巴一直动却不累
红着脸喘着气速度没有减
把你世界存在心里面每天
你一语一言听不厌倦
给我能源让我想念
不在身边
我会重复跟着一起碎碎念
直到舌头打结
oh oh-(love'll be there)

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YEAPS! im back from m'sia. (: now super tired.

went childcare in the morning after sleeping at 3 and waking up at 7. was supposed to go back to msia at 12, but stayed back to talk to mrs lim and hong lao shi about my lesson plan. thanks to them! i think i've fine-tuned quite alot about it. it really touched me to see them going extra miles to do things for me. MUAACCKS! (: so i still have to do learning corner and buy ingredient for monday's lesson. having ast assement on monday too! wish me good luck yeah? (:

just now i was looking at ECH's ppl's nick. all so depressing! like 'kill me', 'shoot me', 'i want to die now' etc. 4 more weeks to go before exam and semester break. PPFFT! i hope it comes faster. and the last day of paper is on 13 Feb, one day before Valentines' day. HUR.

yeaps. went back to m'sia, had lunch, wash my face and buffet. (:

and yeah. i've just sent sroya the lesson plan. o.o

HAPPY 21 ST BIRTHDAY SOON JUN, DEAREST COUSIN! (:

goodnight everyone! i'm going to sleep till i wake up naturally tomorrow. LOL!

-pEiShi-
ps. i have been fighting my tears quite well these few days. i didnt cry! HEH ((:

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

im kinda like sick and tired of things right now. i think things around me is happening too fast. TOO FAST TOO FURIOUS. okay. i've still can joke around, so it doesnt seemed that bad. but it doesnt matter.

i dunno why these few days when i look at this entry typing page, my mind practically went blank. probably like what laura said, it's hard to put feelings down into words. i have limited vocab you know? (: okay. i dun really feel like smiling, so shant put anymore smiley face already. and more than one person said that i looked and feel depressed during this period of time. hmm. i thought i hid it quite well. i really thought i did. 原来心情是不能隐藏的。

i lost my ez-link card today. first time in my life. i almost lost it the other day. forgot to zip my wallet and it dropped out. was on the way to kemb to meet ep vols for dinner. did i said i skipped ep last sat anyway? thats beside the point. okay. and this nice uncle picked it up for me when i was looking furiously inside my bag, blaming myself for the carelessness. yet today, or rather yesterday, i really lost it. maybe it's meant to be. or is it that i didnt treasure it after the first time it's almost lost? i dunno. SIGH.

met up with mh after school. went to jurong and meet her. took bus to bp and i dropped the card. i've got this bad feeling that it wouldnt be back. ARH. i'm kind of overwhemled by the things happened these few months. feel like crying now. PPFFT.

went cafe cartel for dinner. had teriyaki pasta. dun really like it. i wanna go those real pasta restuarant that only sell pasta and nothing else. or maybe drinks.

went body shop and bought my $18.90 toner, called SBS to check for my ez-link card and went back home.

for now i wouldnt say my life is bad or what. but more of i'm tired of handling things and i need a break. things are not what i expected and i have to deal with it as it comes. there is no security that i look for in things. i have the urge to be nun some days ago. the quiet and solemn monastery. i'm fine with endless project works. all the powerpoint, research papers, interviews and many more. but the hiccups that come along the way. TSK TSK. thanks for so much. thinking back, i have been sleeping like at 2 almost everynight. those that are not, i slept at 1. whats the big diff? anyway, im just kidding about the nun part.

mum just changed the metal door. or rather, she asked the contractor to change it lar. and it look so different now. instead of more safe, it seemed to me that it is more vulnerable than what we last had. i missed my old door.

and sometimes i wonder i update my blog for the sake of myself or for others.

-pEiShi-
这个无力感还会持续多久呢？

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Friday, January 12, 2007

Gastric pain.

PPFFT!

-pEiShi-

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it felt as if i have a lot to blog about. but once i reached this entry typing page, my mind just go blank. i hope things will get better soon. ERR. cannot use hope, cuz elizaBIRD will ask me to continue hoping for it to happen. things WILL get better. (: *i pray.

today, my kids are like angels. i mean sebastian and teren. (: and sebastian really worked hard and made an effort to attempt the questions. (: i'm so proud of him. and i promised him a lollipop. coca-cola flavour i will buy. i know he'll like it. GRINS.

alright. i'm sleepy already. going to bed now, 8.30am lesson tmr. HUR. so early. and i finally bought my printer ink. so there's lecture notes for me for tmr's cd lecture. *BEAMS*

and i will do my maths learning corner tonight. Thanks Ms Tini and Hong Lao Shi! ((:

and i haven't even send my lesson plan to gurmit kaur to evaluate. SIGH.

-pEiShi-

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Thursday, January 11, 2007

yeah yeah! i just recovered my laptop today, and now, it felt as if it's brand new. ((:

proj really kills. so many deadlines to meet. and sometimes, when your group members don't do their work up to standard, you'll really die i tell you. doing syc powerpoint right now. (:

yesterday blogger really freaked me out. couldnt access at all. and i was praying so hard that my files aint lost somewhere in the internet outer space. thank goodness it didnt. (: im going to back it up soon. ((:

-pEiShi-
KELVIN LIM! I LOVE YOU! =P

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categories Monday, January 08, 2007

I KEEP SPELLING cateRgories! i hope i'll stop that! i'll eat the R up the next time i do it, i promise. *cross fingers. (:

-pEiShi-

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全世界的人都知道 Sunday, January 07, 2007

alright. im crazy over 微笑 pasta now. haha. ((:

and this afternoon, i watched the 阿旺新传! 黄宗泽 is so cute! ((: made me think of *lalala* whenever i see him. they really looked so alike! ((: if anyone know who i am talking about, yes! it's HIM! ((: SHH! dun argue anymore. they really look alike. the more i see, the more they look the same. (:

alright. so i slept at 3+ last night, andrew called at 9+ to ask if im going for badminton or not. of course not. im having such a nice sleep and he interupted. HUR. so he was desparately (not that desparate though. hahaha) looking for people to play badminton, because yinhong and kaishin didnt go for it. they were sick. poor thing.

anyway, left with overview for dpip proj. thats a THANK GOODNESS thing you know? it's so irritating with projs going near the deadline and everyone still havent finish their part. so for now, only editing the overview and touching up! ((: and i've thought of my 3 lesson plans alrd! okay! im so DELIGHTED! ((:

craving for cheesecakes right now. new york cheesecake. and oreo dunk in milk. hahaha.

-pEiShi-
全世界的人都知道

在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼写给你的纸条
幸福划上星星记号

你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好

在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼写给你的纸条
幸福划上星星记号

你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好

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Love is...

it's 3.06am now. and im finally going to sleep. (:

GOODNIGHTS!

i cant open my eyes any longer! PPFFT!

and well, did i said i like my new specs? okay, i love it actually. ((:

-pEiShi-
Love is when two person who care about each other get confused.

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

things arent going right for me. but i'll survive. (: i hope so.

it's 2.06am now. took me so long to post this entry. HUR. been busy editing and reformating the lesson plans. made me want to shout out BLOODY HELL, but i wouldnt of course, so rude. (: and i didnt even have time to go toileting and suppering. ERR. what kind of words are they? SIGH.

i'll blog again. too busy right now. busy DPIP-ING. haha. i like the new term, though not what it suggest that i have to do. projs projs, when will you go away?? PPFFT!

didnt go ep today. ):

alright. thats all. my laptop have been good tonight. (:

and last note: if you see my picture on the obituary in tmr's newspaper, come alright? though most probably the funeral will be held im m'sia. (:

-pEiShi-

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Thursday, January 04, 2007

alright. this is so irritating and im EXTREMELY pissed off. my laptop has been silenced! GRR. there's no sound coming out. someone must have posioned it! SOBS. so pissed. shall reformat everything this weekend. GRR.

-pEiShi-

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

im still working on my SYC proj. ): 2.18am in the morning. and there's school tmr. i hope i dun fall asleep in class. if there's one person to tell me to work hard now and everything will be worthwhile after this sem, i'll be grateful, and willing to marry him. hahaha. nah, just kidding.

im having a little flu now. let's just hope that it dun escalate into something big, because my flu usually comes with cough and fever. HUR.

yeah! minhui said she will be praying for me every night! HAHA. (: thats what good friends are for. heh. i'll be praying for her too. for her and jerison! LOL. i think she's going to kill me if she sees this. HAHA. alright. i shall clear her name for her. THERE'S NOTHING BETWEEN HER AND JERISON. clear enough? =P haha. it was so funny the day before. she was telling me that her mum brought her to 算命。and the 师父 said that it will be good if she can find a guy whose zodiac is rat, monkey, bull, rabbit and dunno what's more. and just nice! JERISON is a rat! ((: GRIN. but 蔡敏惠小姐本身表示因为杰利笙先生在今年的十月即将前往日本留学，不想和爱人分隔两地的她，决定另寻目标。但由于蔡敏敏小姐的择偶范围已被大幅度的缩小，所以本人还是觉得杰利笙先生仍然占有优势。那么，就请大家拭目以待吧。老蔡啊老蔡，要加油哦！(: LOL. maybe i should try going for a 算命 session too. hahaha.

alright. 2.30am now. supposed to be writing my last part of personal reflection but i am right here writing for my blog. why cant the lecturers set one of the assignments as writing blogs? it'll be a hell lot easier for me. i promise to blog everyday. PPFFTT!

anyway, 微笑pasta is nice! haha. im kind addicted. GRR. at this bad time of the year. exams is only in 5 weeks time, and YET! im addicted to shows that doesnt help in my schoolwork. SIGH. and laura helped me change my msn personal message too. from Big car, Bang me, Pleaseeeee. to Big LORRY, Bang me (and Laura), Pleaseeeee. TSK TSK. i do hope that it really happen. GRR.

for goodness seek! i should be writing my personal reflection and lesson plan closure right now. and arh, i wanna go MANICURE, PEDICURE, whatever cure cure cure. maybe CURE-ME? LOL. not funny.

GREAT. it's 2.40am now. HOW GREAT. HA-HA.

-pEiShi-
Big LORRY, Bang me, Pleaseeeeee.

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bored Monday, January 01, 2007

IM BORED. DATE ME WILL YOU? SAVE ME FROM MY PROJECTS. PLEASEEEEEEE.

-pEiShi-

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2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

it's 2007 alrd. no more 2006. hmm. may all the unhappiness be forgotten and have a fulfilling year ahead!

yeaps. though it's 2007, but kinda sad. im home alone it should be a time to spend with your LOVE ONES! but they are all somewhere enjoying, leaving me alone at home. PPFFT! this year is a lonely new year. and i hate that feeling. SIGH.

shall say no more. and GRR. people dun reply to emails! cant finish the cd proj now. ):

-pEiShi-
he's back. (: it's felt as if i can feel his presence. nah. just kidding. sounds spooky. =P

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