it's like.. haiz~ nothing i say can describe how i feel rite now. so helpless... *givE up*
wat actually happened is tat i'm supposed to post this 'i lOvE yOu' poem into the friendster bulletin:
"I cant be in love,
I cant be happy,
I cant stand myself,"
Thats what i used to say.
But now i know,
it wasnt true.
Ever since i met you,
my dreams are fufilled with love and happiness.
i may not know you,
that well,
I know i havent met you,
but i cant stop thinking of you.
I dont mind what you look like,
What you dress like,
or even how you act,
as long as you love me i will love you too,
And thats all you need in life.
Just to suceed with you,
Would be enough for me,
I dont know if i am strange,
to write this to you,
I guess i was too scared to tell you.
I guess or i suppose
no one has ever done this for you before,
But change is everything,
not only to me,
but maybe to you too.
I wish sometimes,
you would hold me tight,
though you may not know me.
It's strange for me to feel this way
when i know nothing about you.
you might not have such a
good impression of me,
since you heard about my past.
sometimes i want to call you up,
but i dont have the nerve,
i wouldnt know what to say,
I cant say i hope you feel the same,
Cause you know nothing about me.
Sometimes when i cant sleep,
i sit up and wonder what you are doing,
or what you look like,
Or even what it would be like
to feel you close to me.
you might think i'm obsessed,
I'm not.
Thought i might let you know,
i may love you so,
i would like you to love me so.
maybe it will be so one day,
i hope so!
I cant be happy,
I cant stand myself,"
Thats what i used to say.
But now i know,
it wasnt true.
Ever since i met you,
my dreams are fufilled with love and happiness.
i may not know you,
that well,
I know i havent met you,
but i cant stop thinking of you.
I dont mind what you look like,
What you dress like,
or even how you act,
as long as you love me i will love you too,
And thats all you need in life.
Just to suceed with you,
Would be enough for me,
I dont know if i am strange,
to write this to you,
I guess i was too scared to tell you.
I guess or i suppose
no one has ever done this for you before,
But change is everything,
not only to me,
but maybe to you too.
I wish sometimes,
you would hold me tight,
though you may not know me.
It's strange for me to feel this way
when i know nothing about you.
you might not have such a
good impression of me,
since you heard about my past.
sometimes i want to call you up,
but i dont have the nerve,
i wouldnt know what to say,
I cant say i hope you feel the same,
Cause you know nothing about me.
Sometimes when i cant sleep,
i sit up and wonder what you are doing,
or what you look like,
Or even what it would be like
to feel you close to me.
you might think i'm obsessed,
I'm not.
Thought i might let you know,
i may love you so,
i would like you to love me so.
maybe it will be so one day,
i hope so!
well... you see... it's such a mushy mushy poem... declaring my love... gosh... worst is tat i dunno how it ended up in his friendster inbox. can go bang the wall and die on the spot le~ haiz~ dunno how to face him. den he still ask me how i am doing now. really dunno how to explain to him. haiz~ imagining if someone send me this. i mean it might be touching... but... i will tink tat the person like me very very much. but i dun tink so for him. you understand wat i mean?!!
den yesterday com suddenly not working. just when i'm about to send the explanation to him. den now dunno if he got receive it anot~ sighz~
and... am i too *ji duan*, i mean extreme to *** cuz i blocked him. haiz~ i really dunno.
-pEiShi-
