hmmm... today is already Sunday le. and tmr is Monday, a public holiday tat is to be enjoyed. but... haiz~ actually tmr is supposed to have a outing for the few of us. but... big prob comes... no one seemed to like going. the guys left wilber only. den gurls only have me, chun yan and minhui... how to go? suan le. so tink have to cancel it.

haiz~ just wanted to like have the last outing before the few of us going to poly become very busy. but... suan le. its okiE. cuz we are actually not meant to go out together rite? just kinda disappointed. yeah, okie!! im really disappointed okie? just dun want to admit it only.

i missed the sea. i dun want to start school. i missed the sea. i dun want to start school. im just afraid of everything de dan xiao gui. coward!! =X haiz~ im so afraid tat the days of feeling low and helpless come again. i dun want those days. so negative, so pessimistic.

yEa, went back to m'sia today. went to see Brathen. haaa... he's okie now. can breathe on his own le. (^o^) heard from Gany jiE jiE tat he actually can be discharged today. but the senior doctor did not go for work. cuz today Vesak day and Sunday. watever... haaa... as long as he can be discharge from hospital can le. thank god.

went to play badminton the day before. and went to snowcity yesterday with EP. my body is like aching all over. hand pain, butt pain. okie lor. aching den can cancel the outing for tmr, since everyone dun want to go too... (x_x)

hmmm... missed the *ba Li Lian rEn* tat i've finished. especially Lee Dong-gun. haaa... so handsome. quite angry with cheng han. cuz he critise Dong-gun not handsome. i mean watever i put as my display picture, he will critise. esp guys. (x_x) im going to buy the soundtrack of *lOvErs in pAris* and of cuz, the vcds. but first, im going to buy *swEEt 18* - *xin niAng 18 shui* first. haaa.. cuz got Dong-gun. and going to watch *my bOyfrEnd blOOd type is B+* - *B xing nAn yOu*, cuz got him again, and Han Zhi Hui too. haaa~ actually *pu xin yang* oso not bad, but he 37 le. haaa...

listening to Avril Lavigne's Anything but Ordinary. very nice.

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby

Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

i dun want to be ordinary. not extra too. but... extra-ordinary? hmmm... maybe.... i need something to make me feel alive!! =X

-pEiShi-

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