wanted to reborn my hair on monday when i went back to msia. but unfortunately, my mum forgot to book appointment, and the saloon really damn many ppl, waiting for their hair to be done. so went back to grandma's house to sit for awhile before going to my cousin's house.
hmmm. now grandma's house has not much ppl left. i still rem when i was young, there used to be alot of family living there. my da bo mu's family, xiao shen's family, miao fu shu shu, fei gu shu shu, gu gu and my family. but as time goes by, one by one they moved out. and the big house now is a lonely and cold house. there are so many of my childhood memories there.
was talking in the night when my cousins came. we talked till near 5am in the morning. there was so many to talk about. our life, other people's life, gossiping and something that is long forgotten by everyone - our childhood.
our childhood. thats so long ago alrd. there are so many things we've alrd forgotten. they reminded of the game - bing bing aka hide and seek. it was so fun. i remembered there was once when nearly all our neighbours' children came and play *bing bing*. think ard 11 bah. my favourite hiding place is the *ba gu teh car. the car is somehow like a cargo lorry, all covered. and ah boy, same age as me, used to hold my hand and hide there together. it was so fun. another place was behind the *da be gong's statue. the others will hide in the second floor hotel of *si lou*(a building). wherever ah boy goes, i will follow him. there are also other boys whom im quite good with, but the funny thing is i only rem ah boy. how he looked like and how i played with him. =)
i still remembered that there was once ah boy and i quarrelled. like ard 5 or 6 years old. i forgot what happened which leads me to say him to be a *da pao xian* (someone who bluffs ppl everytime). and he was so sad. because we are the bestest friends, but yet i named him. i forgot what he said me in return. i only remed that i was so angey that i took the cup of plain water i was holding and splash him. bad right? i think so too. haa. everyone was shocked. because when i was still a lil girl, im a princess to everyone. they wouldnt think that i will have this kinda action. and after i splashed him, i cried. yeps. i was the one who cry. because i felt so sorry. but i was too stubborn to apologise. and so instead of being angry, he consoled me. and said if i stop crying, he will let me splash again. i wasnt angry with what he said about me, but im sad that i treated my bestest friend like this. and i was on cold war with him for like the whole day because i was too stubborn to let down myself. it was so stupid. =X
we were always together. but now, he's not the same person i used to know anymore. he has turned to a route which he cant change forever alrd. he's now involved in a court case, which pains me deeply to see him behaving like this. =( my bestest pal.
another one i still rem is zhou wei xian. he's one year older than me. haa. he's a optimistic boy. but because of his parents divorcing, he suffered quite alot. =( he's my good friend too. haa. rou qi's cousin too. he takes care of me very well, always afraid that i did not drink enough water. like a big brother even though he's one year older. 18 now. haa. but we lost contact alrd.
i know we wun be able to be like how we used to be in the past. everyone have changed. there's ppl walking in and out of your life, and both of them are bypassers in my life too. even if i want to hold on, i cant. so contridicting. i wanted to grow up faster when i was young, but when i finally grow up, i wanted to go back to the past. i never thought that anything will change when i wanted to grow up faster, but things will change. nothing will be the same forever.
nothing is the same anymore. i miss them. deeply.
-pEiShi-
