well. had commitee meeting in the morning. this time, we had a 3 hours meeting, 1 hr longer than usual. didnt mean to complain or what, just that it seems quite redundant for me and minhui to be there as we dont have anything to report. as the time passes, im getting more and more sleepy. and all i can see is the chair's mouth moving and moving.
hmm. i think i wasnt a good grp leader for the whole year. actually, i mean im doing pretty badly. i wasnt involved in much planning and action-taking of duckling's group. felt quite bad for verna. i rely on her too much. in fact, i think she looks like duckling's gl even more than i do. =X
i took up another year of gl, not because i want to torture my trainees and volunteers with my poor leading okay! it's just that i think i did not give my best, and some sort of make up to them for the past lousy year.
so the first thing i will do is to be more committed. yeah. and i will be. haa. i think duckling group needs a more systematic programme. and now, without lishan and verna with me, i will have to do it all by myself alrd. and may god be with me.
i understand that mh is feeling bad because she feels that she did not do a good job during her service year. well. i feel that it is not totally her fault. to be honest, we are still too young and not that sensible (but i dont mean that we are not sensible at all). and what can you expect from 16 years old girls then. professionalism? yeah. as if. thats explains why.
to mh: if you think you did not do well, give it a shot again? in my eyes, i dont think you have failed at all. at least we see progress in boon hao and mingyi. dont we? =) focus on your a level now. if you want to do something for angelfish, be an active member. you guys need strong volunteer strength right? =) we will always be there for you.
hmm. had quite an 'exciting' game of badminton with ep and bktg. realised that i have not been working out alrd. feels good to exercise. haa. yin hong and chuan hui told me that i have lose weight. *wahaha. think is because of the shirt that i wore yesterday. too bad he cant see it.....
hmm. on the escalator up onto the mrt platform, told mh that i like a guy. she started guessing, beginning with kranji guys first. haa. den i gave her a very big clue. 'guys that we both know not too long ago, that is, a few months.' she thought for awhile, and exclaim. it was so deafening. and the stupid mrt station had echo somemore. so embarassing.
well. i am still not sure why i wanted to tell mh. im still unsure of my feelings. lOl. yi shi chong dong ba. haa.
to iL: i will find sometime and tell you who he is. wanna be fair to you. haa. meanwhile, you can start guessing. lOl.
-pEiShi-
