so i was browsing a 933 dj's blog. hmm. i think some things he said indeed reflects our society. lOl. but he's a christian. not that i have any ill remarks or thinking about christian, for i still believe in Jesus, just like i worship *guan yin* or any other god, but im more to the buddhism. XD
anyway, talking about religion, i heard a 'amazing' story from grace about her life. i mean the other grace from ep, not the grace lee. she was from catholic school, 10 years there since young. and she worship Him since schooltime then too. but apparently when she was 19, something happened. she dreamt of *guan yin* and she told grace to do things for her. hmm. fastforward a little, she found out that she's the disciple of guan yin and the god use her body and answer questions for ppl. something like *ji tong* i think. not too sure what izzit called.
hmmm. just find it quite amazing that guan yin can choose her disciple and what her disciples can do.
god is a believe, is a psychological console for pathetic human beings.
hmmm. total crap. i dunno what's the conclusion for my entry. mayb im just feeling bored. more than that? *scratch head*
hmm. i think there's a lot of things i want to do in life. a lot of ambitions, a lot of wishes, a lot of thinkings and a lot of everything. i wish to be a teacher, but i dun want to be a teacher. i wish to be a singer, but i dun want to be a singer. i wish to be a writer, but i dun want to be a writer. i wish to be a dj, but i dun want to be a dj. confusing enough? i think so too.
let's make it simpler. maybe i just want to try out the different kind of job, but i dun want the job to be my occupation. understand? so what's the ultimate last job that i would settle for, i dunno too. =(
hmmm. it's the same at the present phase of my life. for example in school, i want to try out different CCAs - dancesport, choir, lyrics writing, tennis, fencing etc. but it's impossible. so is it that im hard to please or satisfied? or am i simply too greedy? grr. i dunno.
i guess this holiday is going to be boring and meaningless one. feel like trying something new during this holiday. planned to bake cookies, or if possible, cakes. haa. or learnt some new skills. i've done my first cross stitches. feels great somehow. haa. other skills that i can pick up? hmm. no idea. like some new sports? or repicking up piano? haa. whatever. as long as i dun waste this good old holiday. before exam, i was thinking of going to stay in the temple. insane? haa. to calm myself and find a peaceful mind. or i might turn into a nun!
I DUN WANT TO WASTE MY HOLIDAY AWAY WITH TONS OF USELESS AND MEANINGLESS ACTIVITIES. i dun want to waste my time on computer. i dun want to waste my time on tv. i dun want to wish my time on not-so-important stuff. grr. how i wish ep last for the whole week, not just saturday. or i could probably find some other volunteer work? *grin
waiting for my handphone to make some noise. from who? heh. lOl. from... okay lar. any noise. pls. just any noise. im dying from isolation.!!!
anyway, the conclusion is... i should find something meaningful to do this term break for the leftover 49 days. *yawn. that's long! near two mth. unblocked cheng from msn alrd anyway. feel very wrong. *puzzled.
-pEiShi-
grew up in a small town
and when the rain would fall down
i just stared out my window
dreaming of what could be
and if i'd end up happy
i would pray
i would pray
trying not to reach out
but when i'd try to speak out
felt like no one could hear me
wanted to belong here
but something felt so wrong here
so i pray
i would pray
i could breakaway
i'll spread my wings
and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky
i'll make a wish
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
out of the darkness
and into the sun
but i won t forget all the ones that i loved
i'll take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
wanna feel the warm breeze
sleep under a palm tree
feel the rush of the ocean
get onboard a fast train
travel on a jet plane
far away I will
and breakaway
buildings with a hundred floors
swinging around revolving doors
maybe i don't know where they'll take me
but gotta keep moving on
moving on
fly away
breakaway
i'll spread my wings
and i'll learn how to fly
though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
out of the darkness
and into the sun
but i won't forget the place i come from
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
breakaway
breakaway
