anyway, i was thinking for the whole day. when you find a boyfriend or a husband, are you going to find someone that you have a liking towards and feel peaceful and comfortable when you are with him, or do you find someone who can make your heart skip a beat? i was suddenly confused by this. and i fear for those relationship that comes too easily. so afraid that they will slipped away as easy as they come. =(
anyway, was supposed to meet kaishin, andrew and cat for tennis today. but unfortunately, it rained. andrew called and tell me that it's cancelled at 5.50pm and he called me again and said it was resumed at 6.50pm, asking me if i still want to join them. *gek. haa. but no use rushing down. it's at bedok. i will need to take an hour of train, and only reach at ard 8, which means i will only have less than an hour to play, den i will have to take an hour of train back home. which is rather lame. so i told them to call me next time bah. kaishin's so funny. i mean his sms. haa.
hmmm. mum cooked *zhu jiao mian xian* okay lar. is it supposed to be dry one? *curious. hmmm. talked on the phone with mh and iL. 2 of my best friends. lOl. mh is always capable of making me face something that i will not want to face in the past. i think i've ought to accept that failure is normal and neccessary in life. but sometimes, thinking of failure makes me back out, be it anything. im too much of a perfectionist. cant tolerate any of the failure in MYSELF. that'a very bad. i dun want to be a perfectionist! sigh. i know even if i admit where the prob is, i dunno how to help myself too! think i should go back to school and ask susan to psycho me. haa. susan~ help!
was quite impressed by what i saw in nineballs. *duanzhi is teaching *youli about failure. accept failure readily. sigh, sigh, sigh.
anyway, cousins are coming this afternoon. they wanted to have sushi buffet. should be accompanying them bah. going to be fatter again. >.<
-pEiShi-
