I think my room really looked like a world war scene that happened everytime I work on my assignments. Papers scattered everywhere. On the bed, on the floor, on the table, on my piano. And everytime I finish my assignment, I dislike my laptop because there were so many tabs with titles like 'Music and movement for Young Children', 'Supporting physical growth and development in Young Children', 'Early Childhood Music and Movement Association', 'Music and Movement - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia' and many more. And I also get sick of my phone for quite some time, say a few weeks, because it's the most convenient means of communication for discussing projects. So everytime I see it, it reminds me of work work and more work. HURHUR! So the conclusion is, I am more prone to be MIA after finishing assignments than any other times. (:
I haven't practice my piano today. BOO. ): And it is too late to do it now. PPFFT!
Eh, I want to learn Korea language and Japanese language and Italian language and German language and French language. ):
I am seriously craving for spaghetti right now. LOL. And that's bad. Spaghetti? In the middle of the night? I can foresee how poor thing my husband will be when I get pregnant. LOL. :D
I've talked to Kaiwei this evening and I got to slap myself hard for that. All along, I thought I was the one who haven't let go after we went the separate way because he was always the one who initiated to talk to me. Then as I slowly wake up, mature and let go, he hit me hard by telling me he is still holding on to the bits and pieces of the past.
I am sorry if I raked up your secret or poked at your wounds today. I didn't mean to if you know me well enough. I was surprised that you would say such things like 'I was in the wrong last time, I didn't treasure you enough' or 'I can't ask anything from you because I don't deserve to have you' because this is the first time I see such a weak and helpless you. If only you have known this right from the start. I am not grieving over the past, because it had made me grow in one way or another. If only you will stop living in memories and move forward too, you'll feel a hell lot different. I do hope as time goes by, you'll understand the lesson after every relationship.
I am going on a cruise tomorrow! (: The only things I am worried about is my attendence which I will confirm plus chop receive warning letters after I come back, project deadlines and most prolly my boy too. Bleah.
Something that I've read in my book again.
后面的偶然相遇
最好的东西，往往是意料之外，偶然得来的。有时候，拍照拍了一卷底片，最后一两张底片，本来不打算拍了，未免浪费，随便拍了两张。谁知道底片冲出来之后，效果最好的就是最后拍的那两张。
拍的时候，挑了一大堆精心配搭的衣服，顺便又带了一套衣服。谁知道照片拍出来之后，效果最好的不是精心挑选的那几套衣服，而是顺便带去的那一套。
你画了很多张画，眼看还有些颜料，你随便再画一张，最满意的竟然是这一张。
你约了朋友在百货公司里面等，你比预定时间早了一点，于是随便逛逛，谁知道就在这短短的时间里给你找到你找了好几个月的一款鞋子。
你把几组自己心爱的号码填在彩卷上。填好之后，手上还有一些零钱，于是你胡乱填一张，谁知道中奖的就是那一张。
朋友不停介绍男朋友给你，但是每一次，不是你不喜欢人家，便是人家不喜欢你。今天晚上，朋友说有一个男孩要介绍给你，你本来想放弃，但反正有空，于是去看看。幸好你去了，他就是你要找的人。
不到最后一刻，千万别放弃。最后得到好东西，不是幸运，有时候，必须有前面的苦心经营，才有后面的偶然相遇。
Happiness is a butterfly which when pursued is just out of your grasp. But if you sit down quietly, may alight upon you.
- Nathaniel Hawthorne
